What I think

2012-01-31T14:14:00.000-08:00

Well, Monday was chemo day, and all in all it was pretty interesting. The lady that I talked about in my last blog was there again. She's on chemo too. She sat in another room with her husband and her beautiful little daughter. I say again that little girl is the most well behaved child I think I've ever seen. Chemo normally takes five hours, that little girl played quietly for five straight hours. That's just amazing to me.
The lady that sat across from me yesterday was an very sweet person. This is her sixth time with cancer. It seems that each time cancer reoccurs it's worse than the time before. What started out as endometrial cancer has now progressed to lung and breast cancer. Like me, she is a true believer that Jesus Christ is by her side. We don't know why God allows certain things upon us. But we do know,

Roman 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Yes, I do believe and know, that something good will come from her cancer and mine too. For one thing, no matter how close we think we have a relationship with the Lord, things like cancer and wondering about our mortality will bring us even closer. Having a relationship with Jesus Christ is the most important relationship anyone could have. It seems to me every time I need Him, He's right there. He leaves me with my heart and soul filled with joy. And he gives each of us the understanding that no matter when our earthly life ends, life goes on. It's not the end of our life but rather the beginning of our eternal life with Him in glory.
That's one thing we all need to think about. We will all have to leave these earthly bodies. Whether it's when Jesus comes in the clouds, or we die first. Death will come to these earthly bodies. But death will not come to the soul. Each of us will have eternal life some where!
Where will your eternal life be? I sincerely hope and pray that I will see each one of you in heaven on that glad reunion day.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2012-01-19T13:12:00.000-08:00

She must've been the most well behaved little three-year-old child I've ever seen. The little dark-haired and dark eyed three-year-old, sat on the floor between her mother and father, on a sheet that the nurse had placed there for her. She sat there not one hour, not two hours, but three long hours. Playing ever so quietly with a worn-out stuff toy and some kind of plastic toy. A doctor came in and tried to explain to the young couple that the mother was a very ill person. I heard the Dr. say Mr. Gonzales your wife is very sick, and will be admitted to a room in the hospital shortly. I heard the word leukemia when the doctor spoke it. But no expression on the young couple faces, gave clue that they understood what was being said. And yet, the little three-year-old sat playing ever so quietly, unaware of the tragic circumstances unfolding . The doctor understood that the young couple could not make sense of what was being said, so she called for an interpreter to come in and speak to them. As the interpreter raddled words that were unfamiliar to me. I watched as the young couples faces slowly went from wonderment, to the dreadful understanding of what was wrong with the young wife and mother. And yet the three-year-old played quietly. After the interpreter left, the couple sat speaking quietly to each other. At one moment the father looked down at his little girl, so gently stroking her hair. It's as though he and I were having the same thoughts. Will the mother be around to see the little girl grow up. Would she be there to help the daughter get dressed for her prom, see her get married, or see her grandchildren. The young father tried hard to hold back the tears that were whipping up in his eyes. And just as quickly as that moment happened, they brought a wheelchair in for the his wife, to take her to her room in the hospital.
I have prayed many times for that young couple. For that little family. I don't know them and I know you don't either. But I'm asking you to say a prayer for them. For even if we don't know them, God doesuntil next time God bless, and God save.

2012-01-04T08:42:00.000-08:00

Willard and I both have been volunteering at the nursing home for many years now. We have sang, had a daily Bible study group and have given Sunday school lessons. As we did this, we never expected any rewards, any pats on the back, etc.. We did it because we love the Lord, and we grew to love the people, both residents and staff of Golden Years.
Willard and I both were blessed just by having the privilege to know these gentle, loving people. We never thought that we would be blessed in any other way other than that. But blessings seem to be pouring on us lately. First, my sister Jean finding out that I was unable to get my medicine due to lack of money, gave me $50 in which to buy it with. Then we were blessed by Weldon and Kay Glover, with $200, which they gave us to help pay for gas to and from Chapel Hill, plus pay some on our Dr. bills. Sylvia and Diane, employees of Thomas drug gave us a $100 gift card for IGA grocery store. And then today. Willard went to Thomas drugstore to pick up my medicine. When he went to pay for the medicine, he was told that a good Samaritan had given them $500, and told them to choose someone that they knew needed it, to help pay for medicines. They chose Willard and I to give it to. Willard was in tears as he told me the news. He and I both cried tears of joy over this wonderful gift.
I don't know who you are, but if you should somehow read this blog, I'd like to thank you from the very bottom of my heart. May God bless you as tremendously as you have blessed us.
They say you can't see angels, but let me tell you, they're all around us.
I thank God, who knows our every need, for putting this on your heart.
I am just so overwhelmed by your generosity. Again God bless you.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

Bald again

2011-12-30T13:53:00.000-08:00

I started losing my hair three days ago. This morning I woke up with hair all over my pillow, all over my face, all over the place. In the bathroom I took my hairbrush and within two or three brushings, the brush was full of hair. If that weren't aggravating enough, as I was trying to cook lunch, I had hair falling out as I was trying to cook, even though I stood back as far away from the food as I could. I finally gave up and called Willard to take over. It was then I decided that something had to be done. I called Kim, my daughter in law, to see if she could cut my hair. Well, shave my hair off my head would be more correct. So, I'm bald again. Here's to a play-by-play results of my hairs demise.

And so it goes for many cancer patients.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-12-23T14:24:00.000-08:00

I was saying yesterday on Facebook, how good it was to see so many people, giving from their hearts this year. In Kmart's, Walmart's and throughout the country, a few people are giving from their hearts to perfect strangers. What these heroes are doing in touching the lives of these people, will never be completely known.
I was truly touched by two people today. Two ladies that work at Thomas drugstore, Sylvia, who is one of pharmacists, and Diane, a valued employee, went together and purchased Willard and I a gift card from IGA. Those two generous ladies will never know how much they blessed us. With Dr. bills mounting up, and the cost of gas to and from Chapel Hill, well, you can understand how appreciated that card was to us.
I thought they would crack up, as I was talking to them about the dilemma that I was in day before yesterday. Chemo makes me crave things as if I were pregnant. Now, you see Monday, I had eaten pimento cheese sandwiches just about all day. And Tuesday, I had eaten some greens. Now come Wednesday, I was sweating bullets. I had the most awful cramps, that anyone could imagine. Now that cheese, from the pimento cheese was taking it's time. It wasn't in any hurry to go anywhere. But the greens, they were saying giddyup and go. Almost like a cowboy riding a turtle. The cowboy may be in a hurry, but the turtle is going to take its sweet time. Saying I was in agony would actually be an understatement. All I have to say, is think God for miralax. LOL, LOL.
But back again to the gift card. Thank you again Sylvia and Diane, from the bottom of our hearts for your generosity to us. You both have blessed us so much.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

sick but still praising God

2011-12-17T06:06:00.000-08:00

I'm kind of sick today. Other than that, I'm doing real well. Willard is cleaning and vacuuming the house. He cooked me a wonderful breakfast of ham and eggs, with a toasted roll to go with it. I am very blessed to have such a wonderful husband as he is. I'm still remembering the little lady when I had chemo before, whose husband walked out on her because he could not handle the everyday of her cancer. And it broke my heart that there are such people on this earth. I just remember how frail she looked, as she sat there pleading for them to give her chemo, even though her blood count was tremendously low. They gave her two units of blood that day and sent her home. I often wonder what happened to her. How many other women and men for that matter that are sick. And in their worst time of need the one they thought loved them the most, walked out on them.
There is someone who will never leave you nor forsake you. That is Jesus. At my lowest times, that old song, what a friend we have in Jesus comes to mind.
What a friend we have in Jesus,All our sins and griefs to bear!What a privilege to carryEverything to God in prayer!Oh, what peace we often forfeit,Oh, what needless pain we bear,All because we do not carry Everything to God in prayer!
Have we trials and temptations?Is there trouble anywhere?We should never be discouraged—Take it to the Lord in prayer.Can we find a friend so faithful,Who will all our sorrows share?Jesus knows our every weakness;Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy-laden,Cumbered with a load of care?Precious Savior, still our refuge—Take it to the Lord in prayer.Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?Take it to the Lord in prayer!In His arms He’ll take and shield thee,Thou wilt find a solace there.
And that about says it all, how good to us is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-12-16T06:48:00.000-08:00

This is the first picture after chemo. I feel a little tired. This picture was taken just a few minutes ago. This is the length it's grown since my last chemo. It will start falling out again in about two weeks. I have enjoyed the curls in my hair, since I've never had natural curly hair. It was fun to look in the mirror every morning and see these curls. Oh well, chemo giveth and chemo taketh the way, :-) LOL.
All in all I'm abundantly blessed. I have a wonderful husband who takes care of me, and lots of friends and family members that care, and are there for me.
A verse for today. Proverbs 17:22

A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit driest the bones.
I guess what this means, and means to me. That sitting around feeling sorry for yourself all depressed is not going to help you heal. The living in faith, walking with the Lord Jesus, and the feeling, from deep down inside of us, the joy that he gave us all. And knowing all things are in God's hands, God sees everything around us. Even to that one blade of grass swaying in the wind. Go if God cares that much about a blade of grass, don't you know just how much He love us all? Yes God loves us all so much.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-12-12T16:30:00.000-08:00

I've been crocheting lately, and as I crochet I have made many, many mistakes. But anybody that crochets knows that a mistake can be pulled out, re-crocheted, and the mistake will never be noticed, because, by redoing there is no longer a mistake. Don't we wish that mistakes that we've made in life could be that easily taken care of. Don't we wish we could simply undo a mistake where it could never be seen, heard of or thought about ever again.
Even when sewing, mistakes can be undone, and re-sewed. But there will always be small signs that a mistake was made. Just as in life, mistakes we have tried to hide. But just as in sewing mistakes, there will always be signs of those mistakes in our lives.
I'm sure in your lives there are many things that you wish you could go back and undo. I know there are many things in my life that I wish I could. It's a good thing that God understands human nature well enough that He understands. And the most wonderful thing of all, He's merciful enough to forgive us when we fail.
I think that is why we read so many stories in the Bible, about mistakes that God's chosen people made. God wants us to realize that He knows we will not be perfect. Take Abraham and Sarah when they lost their faith that Sarah would be the one to have Abraham's son. So they took Sarah's maid Hagar to have Abraham's son. But as we all know that was not God's will nor intention. And what about David? He was beloved by God. And look at all the things that David did wrong. He was guilty of murder, he was guilty of taking another man's wife. And yet God forgave David when he repented. All you have to do is read the Bible to find out that mistakes are just human. Some mistakes are worse than others, but God doesn't see the size of the mistakes. God only sees our hearts when we repent, and ask forgiveness for our mistakes. When God forgives--- He really forgives! Your sin is washed away. kinda like undoing crochet. Never to be seen or heard of again. Yea, Jesus loves us that much! Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-11-06T13:59:00.000-08:00

Bible prophecy is being fulfilled and still people don't believe.

I cry every night for lost souls to come to know Christ. I have children and grand children lost in a world of sin. Nieces and nephews who laugh at the mention of serving God.

I have family members who think I'm a joke for believing in the coming of Christ. Does it hurt my feelings? No, It breaks my heart for them and their eternal life. Everyone is going to spend eternity some where. I cry, thinking about people I love spending their eternity in a fiery hell. For all sinners will be cast in the lake of fire with satan when God has His final judgement on mankind.

I ask you---- Is your life and your sins really forth spending eternity in a place where love is dead, where pain never stops. where agony abounds.

It's so simple to escape that kind of eternity. Just give your life over to Jesus Christ. Confess your sins to Him. He is faithful to forgive. He will give you joy beyond all joys.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-10-14T10:17:00.000-07:00

I know, I'm still being lazy and not doing too many blogs. I apologize for that.
I did want to write this short blog to give you a few household tips that I've learned lately. I know 62-year-old, but hey I'm still learning.
Number one, last week I purchased some celery from the grocery store. The celery was already limp when I purchased it, as I found out that same afternoon while cutting some up in a salad. I knew that I would want to use it later in the week for stirfry and some other things. I don't know what led me to do so, but I cut the celery in three-inch length's, and put it in a glass jar that I had saved. I used the celery yesterday, actually for the first time. To my utter surprise the celery was crisp, in fact better looking too. I don't know why putting the celery in a enclosed glass jar made a difference, but it did. So next time you have some celery that you're worried about not keeping in your vegetable bin, cut it whatever length you want it, and put it in a jar, maybe you will get the same results that I did.
The next idea is one that I cannot understand what took me so long to discover. As I was rambling around underneath my sink where I keep my pots and pans, where I also keep a dish drainer of which I don't use anymore. I saw all the pot lids lying around here and there under the sink cabinet. I looked at the dish drain rack that I had placed to the side. Like a bolt out of the blue, it struck me. Why not put the lids neatly on the dish drainer rack, that way they would be much neater, plus I would be able to find the correct top to whatever pot I was using.
That's it for today. I pray each and every one of you have a wonderful day.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-10-04T15:44:00.000-07:00

Have you ever done anything, and at the time it really didn't make a difference. But later, you realized what you did was wrong. I did, approximately 5 years ago, when I was singing over at Magnolia nursing home, there was a man sitting in the corner. For all appearances he looked like a vagrant. Long hair that looked unwashed. A scraggly beard and what seemed to be very old garments on. He sat quietly as to not draw attention to himself, I really hardly noticed him. I sung for half an hour and Willard gave a Bible message, and when we were ready to leave, we shook hands with each of the residents at the home. I remember that day as if it were yesterday. You see I neglected to shake the man's hand. It didn't seem important at the time. But after we left a verse from the Bible came to me.
Matthew 25:45 Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me. Five years ago, and I still feel the guilt of not shaking that man's hand. And to tell the truth, I feel in my heart that it could have been my Lord Jesus sitting there, and I missed the chance to shake the hand of my Savior. I wonder any way.
But the worse part about it all, #1 What kind of wittness was I? If the man only had me to go by as to what a Christian was, then I was a very poor example and #2 is the fact that I may have made someone who was already down on their luck and most likely felt bad about himself, feel even worse. I may have made him feel less important that anyone else. In fact I most likely did.
I have asked forgiveness many times for that sin on that day. And yes it was a sin. That day still haunts me. I wish that I could find the gentleman and tell him how very sorry I am, and not only shake his hand, but give him a hug.
I'm telling you this story to make you think of how you treat people. It's easy to ignore people that you think are less desirable. But in God's eye we are all the same. There's no difference in us as God sees us, neither wealth, social standing, young or old, nationality, race, fat or thin. It makes no difference. God doesn't see us by any of these standards. The only standard that our Heavenly Father looks at is, has his only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, been accepted by you as Lord and Savior?
It's a fact, some things we do in life, even though forgiven by God, still leave the consequences and hurts of what was done. Things can never be undone. So think about this the next time you pass by a homeless person. And if he has long hair, a beard and old worn clothes on, tell him I'm sorry.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-10-03T17:18:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think that my blogs mean nothing to anyone but myself. But a person named Kim has given me a new attitude and a new reason to not only continue my blog, but try harder to increase the number of blogs. I was at one time doing it every day, but slowed down when my energy went down due to the chemo. Thanks kim, You made my day, really you did.

Kim Bullard BeasleyHello Ms. Joan!....Don't know you personally, but came across your BLOG and Just wanted to tell you that it was a BLESSING to me today! I really enjoyed the one about when you were little and your teacher gave you a lunch tray. This was a great lesson for you just never know how a small act of kindness can affect someone.

Well, just wanted to tell you thank-you for your sharing, heart felt blog. Love the God Bless and God Save too!

Be Blessed Abundantly...Kim
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Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-09-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

My grandmother Moore had three children, one girl Margaret and two sons, William Moore which was my father and David Moore which would be my uncle. David Moore, which as I said before was my uncle married a woman named Violet.
Now to tell the story where you'd understand things, I'd have to tell you a little about their personalities. My uncle David was a fun-loving energetic person. He had a kind heart, at least to me he did. I remember uncle David, when he would come to visit He would let me drive his car from my grandmother Moore's house around the block to Aunt Margaret's home. I remember I almost ran into a ditch that was about 3 feet deep. I came so close, and thought surely uncle David would be very upset. He just grinned and said very good save. I'll never forget him. Nor the way he treated me with such loving kindness.
Now Aunt Violet, she was a kind of hateful person to get along with. Even as a child I observed that. She always had greasy cold cream on her face at all times. She did that to keep the wrinkles away. She exercised on a exercise bicycle many hours during the day. You see, she was much older than my uncle David.
Surprise, surprise, I'll never forget one day when we went to visit uncle David. Grandmother Moore went to the house to stay with Violet, but left me at the Dairy Queen where my uncle David worked. The girls at work in the Dairy Queen took me under their arm, and gave me ice cream, and those chocolate cookies that go on ice cream sandwiches. That was a day to remember, but not only for all the goodies. It was that day that I walked in the back room and saw my uncle David kissing one of the employees. I kept my mouth shut, I never uttered a word to anyone, including my grandmother. Not too many months had passed when I heard that uncle David and taken off the California with that same employee. I never saw uncle David again.
Aunt Violet believe it or not, came to stay with us at grandmother Moore's. All day long I'd hear the sound of Hank Snow singing married by the Bible divorced by the law. I heard it so much that I remembered every word in the song. After around six months aunt violet got herself straight and moved back to Raleigh to her home. I'm sure that she had a hard time, but I understand she remarried and lived the rest of her life happy. And that's a good thing. As I listen to Hank Snow sang that song, married by the Bible divorced by the law, I wonder what aunt Violet would've thought about all the divorces this day and age.
Until next time, God bless and God save, and may you all have a wonderful day.

2011-09-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

I was listening to Adrian Rogers on my PC this morning. He was talking about controversy. Especially controversy in marriage. He told a right cute joke. Well I thought it was funny anyway.
During an argument, a husband says to his wife, I don't know how you can be so beautiful and so stupid at the same time. The wife replies back to the husband, my beauty is what attracted you to me, my stupidity is what attracted me to you.

Alright chuckle, it was a little funny anyway. LOL.
Until next time, God bless, God save, hoping each and every one of you will have a wonderfully blessed day.

2011-09-05T14:06:00.000-07:00

David Jeremiah was giving a message on work's, and he told this little story that I think helps our understanding of earthly work's.
Hope you enjoy it as I did.
There was an expiring artists that was commissioned by a museum to do a sculpture. At last he had the chance to create the masterpiece that he always dreamed of. After laboring over the work for around 20 years, he saw it grow not only in shape but also in beauty. But when he finished, he discovered to his horror that it was too large to be taken out of a window or a door. The cost to move the wall was far above the value of the sculpture. So the sculpture was forever a prisoner of the room it was in. This is the fate of all human religion. Nothing that any human being can do to earn God's favor, can never leave this earth, where the self works were created.
Until next time, God bless and God save. Hoping everyone has a blessed day.

There are angels in the world.

2011-08-31T04:36:00.000-07:00

Yes, there are Angels in the world. And here's one of them. Her name is Diane Jackson and she works at Thomas drugstore in Dunn North Carolina.
Diane's a very caring person. She's a peoples person. She has such a great personality, it's almost contagious. She always acts so happy to see the customers that come into, Thomas drug store. She sends thinking of you cards to people that are sick. I know because she has sent me many. The other day I was so surprised. When Willard came home from picking up my medicine, he had the cutest little thing I think I've ever seen. It was a pin with a great big flower on top.
I hope she reads this so I can say one more time thank you so very much Diane, You have brightened many of my days.
If any want a good drug store, that really does have caring people. I highly recommend Thomas drug store. They will go out of their way to meet your needs.
Until next time, God bless, God save and y'all have a great day.

for those who were asking about how I quilted that 100+ x 100+ quilt.. A photograph. The quilt, if you'll remember, was a nine patch. Once again God bless, God save y'all have a great day.

2011-08-18T07:01:00.000-07:00

It's funny how things happen, lying in bed last night, the thought ran through my mind as to why God let some things happen as they do. Why does God let small children suffer with illnesses, with abuse. Many of which die agonizing deaths due to the acts of evil and disturbed low life human beings. Why does God let storms and floods kill and maim people all over the earth. Why does it seem, that the righteous people of God suffer daily, while the wicked go around untouched by anything bad.
This morning as I was listening to Adrian Rogers. My Bible opened as usual to the Scripture that he was preaching about. It was Ecclesiastics chapter 1 beginning at verse 1. He preached on the whole book of Ecclesiastics, hitting on the top phrases about life. He talked about our inability to understand exactly what I was thinking about last night. It's kind of amazing. You can be talking to God, asking God the big question, why, and God will answer your prayer, the very next morning. Isn't that something?
All in all, I have the understanding this morning, that we are not suppose to understand why God does what God does. We are to understand that nothing happens without God letting it happen or causing it to happen. All things are in God's hand. Not a blade of grass moves without God moving it.
So we are not suppose to try to figure life out, we are suppose to put our lives in God's hand, and to know that God loves us. And yes we will have good days, and yes we will have bad days. And yes, ugly things will happen in this world. But we are to focus on the knowledge, eternity awaits us! And what a joyous time that will be.
Until next time, may God richly bless you, and God save the loss.

2011-08-03T06:09:00.000-07:00

OK so here we go again. I'm pinning a quilt. It's a nine patch, each individual block is 11 1/4 in.square. There are 81 all these 11 1/4 inch squares in the quilt. Plus the 2 inch strips sewn in between each block. So this quilt is 100 and some inches square. My plans are to quilt small designs in each square of the nine patch. So in each nine patch there will be nine designs. Maybe a cherry, and Apple, maybe even cats and dog's. I have six quilts other than this waiting to be quilted. And still more quilt blocks in my sewing room to sew together in quilts. So I'm going to be busy, God willing, for a very long time.
When we can't move around. It's easy to start feeling sorry for yourself, and give up. But as long as we can do anything to stay busy, then our lives feel more useful.
You know, it's really easy to get in a depressive state, and start feeling sorry for ourselves, when we only think about ourselves. But when you start thinking of others, and doing things for other people, the joy starts to grow deep within our hearts. I've noticed most depressed people have their minds on themselves and fall deeper and deeper into a depressive state. All they want to talk about is how miserable their life is. Can't they see, that when you look outward toward others, and get their minds off themselves. They will start to forget that they're depressed, and start enjoying life. So if you're depressed, get out of the house do something for someone else. It will make your day better. And if you keep doing so, your life will be much fuller and richer.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-08-01T16:23:00.000-07:00

There's a commercial on TV where this actress is talking about her drug store. I know you have all seen it. For the longest time I was trying to understand what it was about her that looked fake. I watched every time that commercial came on, but I still couldn't put my finger on it. That was until a few nights ago. Then it hit me. This woman's face is so full of Botox her face did not move at all. An expressionless face, only the lips moving.
I guess some women will go to extraordinary measures to hide wrinkles. Joan Rivers has had so many facelifts, she said on TV the other day that looking in the mirror, she wished she knew what she really would have looked like naturally. Many women and men in Hollywood and in the public eye are getting facelifts, getting injected with Botox just so the wrinkles will not show. dying their hair so nary a gray hair will be seen.Vain people trying to look perfect, for a not so perfect world.
I am proud of every gray hair I have. For everyone represents a worry for a loved one, and a prayer to go along with it. Every wrinkle in my face represents a smile, a frown or a wink of the eye. Nothing to be ashamed of. So yes, I may look old and gray-haired but that's The Way God created me. And if God is happy with the way I look, who am I to want to change it.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-08-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

OK, so I've wanted to make home made pasta ever since I started watching Hell's kitchen and other cooking programs. Well this morning I thought I'd give it a try. I looked on line the other day for a pasta maker/cutter. Well the prices started at almost two hundred dollars and went up from there. Needless to say, no pasta maker for Joan. Well anyway, I put the eggs in the floor and made the pasta. being an avid biscuit maker, and pastry for chicken and pastry maker, I had no problem kneading the dough etc. Well I got the first ball of the three balls of dough rolled out. And my sweetheart of a husband, Willard cut the pasta stripes of the first as I proceeded to roll out the other two. After which I took over hanging the pasta, as Willard cut.
Some here it is. wish me good luck on the cooking later.
And may I say the place mats were designed and made my lol, me.lol
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-07-29T12:30:00.000-07:00

Willard and I went to the nursing home this morning for our usual Friday singing and Bible lesson. lol I truly believe that Willard and I are the ones learning from the experience. Mr Maynard has a way of telling the most wonderful stories of anyone I know. Some of which are just a few years old and some of many years ago. Today he was telling a story about a sheet, yes a white flat bed sheet. He told the story of when he came home from the army right after the war. Which war I couldn't tell you, because I did not want to interrupt his story by asking. He said he came home to a bed sheet hanging on his house with welcome home painted on it. He told of all his family,neighbors and friends that had signed the sheet. I could see he was mentally going back in time by the smile on his face. He told of how when he came to the nursing home,his son had taken care of the sale of his home and the dispensing of his belongings to different people. Then a puzzling look came across his face, as he seemed to wonder to himself, whether or not his son kept the sheet. He didn't seem at all worried about his house nor his belonging. It was an old sheet, decades old with no value except the sweet sentimental signatures of people now long passed. That was what he cared about.
As we live our lives, we seem to think that things are important. our homes, our furniture etc, etc. But as we lose all that we thought was so valuable to us, we start to realize just as Mr. Maynard has, that it's not the riches we had that we remember or yearn for. It's the love we shared with people, the sentimental things that touch the heart.
Today I was enriched my the telling of this story by this sweet gentleman. It reminds me too, that when we think all is lost. The love we carry in our hearts, and the sweet memories we have will be with us ever into eternity.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-07-27T18:40:00.000-07:00

I remember when I was young, I thought I had the world by the tail, and that I would live forever. I started smoking at the age of 14. No one could tell me anything about health risk, because just like most young people, I was too stubborn, and naïve to listen. Because of my ignorance and foolishness I now have trouble breathing. I expect soon to be on oxygen. And I can blame no one but myself. I say to you people, young and old, if you're smoking please, please quit today. Please don't end up as many of us of my generation have. Be wise enough to stop now, so when you get my age, you can breathe.
Wisdom is not wasted on the young, because most young people don't have much wisdom at all. Wisdom comes from living and learning. A day by day process that cannot be hurried or rushed. Wisdom is not intelligence. Wisdom is intelligence used wisely. Just as book smart doesn't have anything to do with common sense.
I have learned so much in my life. I have learned that life is precious. Each minute of every day is a precious thing.
There are those young and old who risked their lives needlessly every day. Doing stupid things, daring anything to happen. It's almost as if they're flirting with death.
I think it takes going through an illness, and seeing others that you love, as they fight for their very lives, to really understand what living and what life is. It's at these times that we realize how we have wasted so much precious time doing nothing.
The old saying is, you never know what you have until you lose it. My friends, be wise enough to know how precious your life is.
As I write this, I think of so many people that are fighting for their very lives. My sister-in-law Janice Moore. A friend,Robert Scoggins. Another friend Leslie Jackson. There's many more that are fighting to live. Fighting cancer with every breath they take. There are some who have lost their fight. My sister-in-law Joyce Sanders loss her fight. She died just a few weeks ago.
No one is promised tomorrow, remember that as you go about your lives.
Learn to love each other with all your heart, and be there for each other.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-07-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

yesterday, I started bleeding. And since I did not have a uterus anymore, it was unexpected. So where is it coming from?
Well, anyway, I called the doctor's office in Chapel Hill, her nurse Becky said after pulling my chart, that since my biopsy came back clear, that I should just wait until the 15th of August, at my regular appointment. She reassured me that she did not think it was anything real bad.
This is wishing each and every one of you a great day. And may God bless you all.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-07-21T11:10:00.000-07:00

Tell me is this fair?
Meat packers injecting water into our meats to add weight.And there is no law against it.
Companies giving contracts that requires you to stay with them for one or years, while they change the amounts you pay at their own whim.
The government sending foreign aid to just about every country on the planet, while considering cutting medicare to it's own citizens.
Homeless Americans living in tent cities, while the government is building homes for people in Mexico and other countries.
Agencies feeding the hungry in other countries, while people in America go hungry.
I could go on and on, but I think you get the message.
OK so that's off my chest.lol
God bless and God save.

2011-07-19T14:39:00.000-07:00

I took my synthroid 200mg this morning. The new strength. Well my heart starting beating 115 beats per minute. My blood pressure took a dive to 109/160. my vision became blurred, My head was dizzy. I called the doctor's office and left a message that I would not be taking it any more. The drug store will be calling him to get a refill for the 175 mg. Other than that I've had a great day.
I saw a woman yesterday at the doctor's office that I knew. It has been over twenty five years since I saw her last. As we talked about times gone by and people that we knew. Learning who did what, and who had died, etc. I noticed how old she looked. Her hair gray and her face wrinkled from all the years that had passed. And I thought of how really fast our lives past. It reminds me of what Solomon said. Life is like a vapor, here and done. It seems as if we turn around to view something, then when we turn back around ten, fifteen, twenty years have passed.
It's occurs to me that it's not how many years have passed, but rather what I have done during those years that matter. Did I enrich someones life somehow? Did I help someone in any way that really made a difference? I'd have to say that I fall really short of the gold that wish I had achieved. I remember the life Joyce Sanders, my sister in law lived. She never did any great thing that the public would take notice of. But she was a great lady. Her greatness was in her gentle spirit that she showed her love for all with. And I remember Naomi, Willard's aunt. Her greatness was also in the love she showed to others. How she worked so hard to please others. She never put herself before others. She was a great woman and not many could fill her shoes.
It's not the things we do that make us great that matters. It's the things we do that make others remember, when we didn't even know we were doing anything.
So don't try to be great. Just love and be loved. For the love we have in our hearts ""is"" our greatness.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-07-18T13:43:00.001-07:00

I had an appointment this morning with Dr.Vyas. My appointment was at 9:50 AM, it was after 10 AM that I saw the doctor, but we did not get out until after two. Dr. Vyas loves to run this test. He has most any kind of machine to run any kind of test. From EKGs to bone density test. This morning he wanted to do some blood tests. I asked him could I go home after they drew my blood, he said no, that it wouldn't take long, yea right! Makes you long for the good old days, when doctors made house calls. I remember many times Dr. Adair came calling for me or Jean. All grandmother Moore had to do was pick up the phone and call. Except one time I was real sick on my stomach. I was hurting with tremendous pain. Grandmother Moore thought I had appendicitis. So she rushes me to Dr. Adair's office. After questioning me, Dr. Adair realized that it was the mountain of collards I had eaten. LOL, you see that day at lunch I had eaten enough collards or five people. And I was bloated as you would imagine. Dr. Adair never forgot that. He would always remind me and laugh about it. Trouble is when you become an adult, and are still being picked on for something that happened in your childhood, it tends to get on your nerves. LOL.
Anyway, my potassium was low so he increased the dosage from two tablets a day to three.
I guess that's all about me for today. I do however have some good news about my sister-in-law Janice. Her daughter Angela sent us messages that the chemo tablets they had put Janice on, were working. How very wonderful that is! God's love, mercy, grace is always present in our lives. And I thank God for his wonderful mercy and grace that he rained down upon Janice.
Until next time, God bless each one of you, and God save. And if you would please keep these people in your prayers.
Janice Moore--cancer
Leslie Jackson--cancer
Robert Scoggins--cancer
The husband and family of Joyce Sanders.

2011-07-16T04:02:00.000-07:00

As I told you, about having to take luncheon meat sandwiches everyday for school lunch. Well this was before I started working in the lunchroom to get free lunches. I remember it was right before Christmas vacation, because I remember looking at other people's lunches and seeing Christmas cookies. I remember there was fried chicken, string beans, potato salad and dessert was a Christmas cookie. I opened my lunch bag once more to see one sandwich with luncheon meat, no mayonnaise, no mustard just two slices of bread and one piece of luncheon meat. Well as usual I took it all in stride. I lifted it to my mouth to take my first bite when a hand grabbed my sandwich from my hands and walked over to the trash and tossed it in. It was my teacher, there I sit with no lunch and an empty stomach. I wanted to cry but held back the tears, because I did not want anyone seeing me with tears in my eyes. Especially over a luncheon meat sandwich, which I had already come to hate anyway. I sat there looking at the tabletop for what seemed like an eternity, embarrassed. I thought I had did something wrong, but I could not figure out for the life of me what it was. It seems like even today I can still tell you what that tabletop looked like, LOL. I felt a hand on my shoulder. And caught a glimpse of a lunch tray being set in front of me. Not only was it fried chicken, but it was a teacher's tray. It that two pieces of chicken instead of one like the student trays. And very large amounts of potato salad and string beans. And there was two Christmas cookies instead of the one that the rest of the students Had. That day, was the day that I learned that I could work in the lunchroom and received lunches. The thought of never having to eat another luncheon meat sandwich made me so happy. My teacher talked to the lunchroom supervisor, and arranged for me to work in the lunchroom at my recess. Which was all right with me, because to tell you the truth, I did not have that many friends anywhere to spend recess with. I can almost feel the hot soapy water that the dishes were washed in, before they went into the dishwasher. I remember there was a pump, pumping out the food particles that were in the water into a filter. I can remember the lunchroom staff, and how all of them treated me so kindly. I wish I could say thank you to them, but I'm sure they have long department this life on earth. But I can thank God for them. Nice people, doing nice things. As I said before, you never know the hearts you touch, by the little things you do. Some little thing that you do, may be so big to the person that you do it for. Remember that as you go through each day. Each smile that you put on the face, brightens the world.
Until then God bless and God save.

2011-07-15T10:58:00.000-07:00

I remember one day, sitting on a rocky dirt driveway. I was playing jacks with the stones. You see Jean and I didn't have many toys. So we entertained ourselves with whatever we found. It was a little after three o'clock, and the mill had just let out. Looking down the dirt road, as I sat there playing Jack's, I saw grandmother Moore limping down the road. Her plaid dress stuck to her body from the sweat. Cotton lint all in her sweaty hair, and stuck to her body like glue. She walked as if she did not know where the next step would come from. This was in July, and at that time I don't believe the mill had air-conditioning. I can't imagine how hard it was to work all day in temperatures like that. I kind of felt sorry for her, until she took off her belt and started to give me a good old-fashioned whipping. You know, I never knew what that whipping was for. You see while I was sitting playing jacks in the driveway, my sister Jean had a fire built between the stumps of a big tree in the backyard. Now, I truly did not remember Jean getting a whipping, but she said she did.
It was right at this time, that my granddaddy Moore died. I dearly love him. I remember sitting on his lap many times singing old songs. One of the songs was David Crockett. I had a problem speaking clearly then, and I would always pronounce Crockett with the C AND R left out. So it sounded like ockett. I believe the more I tried the worse I got. It was only after he died, that I learned to say it properly. Back then, families that were not well off would keep the bodies of the dead at home rather than a funeral parlor. So granddad's casket was in the hallway. Lying in bed that night, I thought of how I missed him. Now don't ask me whether real or imaginary, but that night I saw my granddaddy standing at the foot of my bed. He was standing there, not saying a word, but looking at me as to say goodbye. I never told anyone this then because I did not believe that anyone would believe me. There are certain people in your life, that you tend not to forget, and he was one of those.
I remember a lady that worked in the cafeteria at school. Back then, you did not get free lunch unless you did not have a car, and many other things. Dad had a car, so free lunches were just out of the question. And I was really tired of that luncheon meat sandwichs that I was getting for lunch every day. So I started working in the lunchroom for free lunch. One of the ladies for some reason took me under her wing. I remember I went by her house one day and she let me cut her hair. I couldn't have been no more than 11 or 12. This Lady was very kind, but very foolish. I gapped her hair up real bad. I noticed the next day, she had gone to the beautician and gotten her hair cut short. But she never said a word to me, and was still very kind to me. This world needs more people like her. Someone to fill empty spaces in hurting hearts.
Tomorrow, how the teacher took my lunch away from me.
Until then God bless and God save.

2011-07-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

My grandmother Moore was a differcult woman to understand. She could be the most loving and protective person, or she could be mean and hateful. You see, my dad took us one day from our home in Virginia, while my mom was at work, and brought us down to North Carolina to where his mother, Molly Moore lived. I don't even want to know what my mom must have been going through, as she returned home from work and found all her children gone but one . You see, my younger brother Danny, was sickly, so dad left him there. I don't know what happened or how. I don't know whether Danny was alone all day by himself or not. Most likely, he was, left there alone to fend for yourself, until mom came home.

Well anyway, once we arrived in Erwin, we were to stay with dad and grandmother Moore at her home in Erwin North Carolina. Grandmother Moore worked in the cotton mill that was there in Erwin. The house that we lived in belonged to the mill. It had only two bedrooms, so my sister Jean, and I slept on a double bed in the room with grandmother Moore, while my older brother Jerry slept in the room with dad.
You see, my grandmother Moore despised my mother. I never understood why, and as a child on five years old, I was not mature enough to understand much of anything. All I remember was how grandmother Moore continually talked negative about my mother. I think in the back of my mind, that keeping us was her way of hurting my mother. But I'll never really know. After a few months, my mother got in touch with my dad, and pleaded with him, to please send my brother Jerry back so my younger brother Danny would not be alone. Don't ask me why, but they did send Jerry back. I believe that it was just too much on my grandmother Moore to keep him.
It would seem as if my grandmother Moore didn't have a heart at all. But as I grew and matured, year by year I realized that she indeed had a lot of love in her heart. You see my dad, although he did work, did not help support the family. He wasted his money on whatever. I watched grandmother Moore as daily she would slave away keeping a neat, clean home. Work eight hours in the mill, come home and cook, and clean some more. Every Sunday Jean and I were at church. There was never any question of asking were we going to church, we just automatically knew to get dressed to go.
Continued tomorrow, God bless and God save.

2011-07-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

Do you remember when you were a little girl or boy? How the biggest problem you had was having to go to school, or do a few chores around the house. I know that some had to work in the fields on the farm, and feed farm animals. But still, that wasn't like having to work 8 to 10 hours a day, then coming home to find more work to be done. Bills the pay, doctors appointments to keep, shopping to be done, etc. etc.
When we were small children, our minds were on ourselves, and what kind of fun we could have next. But now as an adult, we have others to think about. Now it seems that our own welfare is pushed to the back, while others, and their welfare come ahead of our own. Now it seems like our fun is watching our children or grandchildren play. Our joy and happiness comes from the well-being of the loved ones in our families.
I guess that's why, when people run across a selfish and self-absorbed person. The usual remark is ''grow up''.
With maturity, comes responsibility. It's taking that responsibility on, that makes heroes, great parents, and great grandparents. Our understanding that each person is a creation of God, and special. No one person is greater or lesser than any other. It doesn't matter how fat, how thin, how tall, how short a person made be. We are all in it together. But sometimes we do wish it could be as it was when we were all children, don't me?
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-07-12T18:36:00.000-07:00

Casey Anthony. We've heard alot about this over the news. It is such a sad situation. Caylee was such a beautiful little girl. Her life taken, whether by accident or on purpose, we will never know for sure. I was watching the news when they announced the not guilty verdict. And mine you, I really am not judging Casey Anthony, because I don't know what happened, and no one else does. Casey Anthony is the only person that truly knows what happened to her daughter. But I did notice when they announced the verdict, a grin across her face. To my opinion it wasn't a grin a relief, what I saw was a grin as if to say I got by with something. It was only for a split second, but I saw it.
The judges gavel sounded, and she was freed. Casey Anthony, may have gotten by with murder on this earth. But Casey Anthony, will have to face another judge one day. That judge holds little Caylee in His arms, where she is safe from harm. That judge knows the truth.
I pray to God, that He will take the hate from people's hearts and turn that hate into something more positive, like helping other children that may be abused, or neglected.
Until next times, God bless and God save.

2011-07-03T11:56:00.000-07:00

Joyce

I’m going to miss her and that shy grin that she had.
With all she’d gone though I never saw Joyce sad.
She always put on his best face, that was her way
And when she spoke to you, she’d always have something nice to say
She never met a stranger, even though she was shy.
She’d make each person a new friend, or at lease she’d try
Every task God gave her, she did with success.
But there was no more work for her to do, I guess.
Because God took her, Her work here was done.
Yes Joyce’s life eternal has just begun.
She’s up there in Glory, feeling healthy and strong.
And I just have this feeling, she‘s singing that new song.
A song of Joy and contentment, No more pain or strife.
As she walks though the streets of Glory with eternal life.
I’ve always wanted to go to Glory, and see it’s streets of gold.
And see my Savior Jesus, and His hand I will hold.
But now I have one more reason, why I want to go there.
Because of a person and a loved one we all share.
Yes I want to go to Glory, and see my dear friend.
Yes, to be with Jesus, and see Joyce once again.

By Joan Glover

God bless and comfort us all. We all will miss her much.

2011-05-30T03:40:00.000-07:00

What we do in a moment in time, can, and may very likely stay with us the rest of our lives. The words that slip from our mouths in a moment of anger, can resound in the hearer's heart much longer than guessed by many. The split second things done, that causes a life to end, or a body crippled. These are just moments in time that can never be regained.

There is one thing that you can do in just one moment, that will not only change the rest of your life. It's a decision that will last through eternity. One moment, one decision. That decision in whether or not you will ask Jesus into your life or not. It's just a very small moment in time. But will effect how you spend your eternity. Why don't you take this moment and make an eternal change in your life? Jesus really is waiting.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Prayer request

2011-05-26T04:04:00.000-07:00

I haven't written any on my blog lately, mostly because I haven't been inspired to do so, by God or man. But I need to get this message out there. This was written on face book by Susan Sanders, a very good friend of mine. Please pray for Samantha. She needs our prayers.

Prayer Warriors - Please pray for my niece Samantha. She was bitten by a brown recluse spider on Sat, had a terrible reaction and ended up in the hospital...was released on Tuesday only to end up back in the ER as her body swelled up to either the meds or the bite, and has now been transferred to OSU Med. Center in Tulsa. She's in the ICU as she is having trouble swallowing....

And while you're down on you knees, pray for my son Donald who has places on his leg that are not healing because of his diabetes. He has had one hole in his leg for over two years now, and now he has another one on the same leg.

And too, please pray for all the victims of all the tornadoes, storms, floods and all the rest of disasters that have been in the news lately. Bible prophecy is fulfilling its self daily. When will the unbelievers wake up?

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-05-13T13:17:00.000-07:00

One of the most greatest feelings in this world is to be teaching the word of God, and see people get really emotional over what you're talking about. To see tears stream down some one's cheeks over the truths in the God's word. The word of God that cuts like a two edged sword at your very soul. The word of God that brings you comfort in trying times. Or strength in those weakest times, when you think all is loss. The word of God hat stands you up tall, or cuts you down to size. It's truth that can't be denied, bent nor broken. It's centuries old, but speaks just as loud, just as strong as it did when the ink was still wet on it's pages. A collection of works by many of God's faithful. Being led by the Holy Spirit, to write what God Himself put on their hearts. It's the true, inspired word of God. And we should thank God every time we turn it's pages to read the wonderful words of His love for mankind.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-05-03T15:18:00.000-07:00

When the trade buildings came down on 9/11, we all looked at our TVs in horror. I don't know about any one else but I sat in unbelief as if it were some kind of bad dream. And as we kept our eyes on the news that day and days to follow, we saw many people over seas in the mid eastern countries, in the streets celebrating the deaths of so many Americans. I said to myself what barbarians those people were. Thinking that Americans surely would not celebrate the death of any human being. And yet as I have watched on the news I see Americans out in the streets celebrating the death of Ben-Laden. Now don't get me wrong, I am glad that the world is free from a terrorist such as he was. But to celebrate the death of any human being, as far as I'm concerned is just wrong. And surely is not a Christian thing to do. Just my opinion, just what I think.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-04-20T05:57:00.000-07:00

Please keep me and my sister in law Janice moore in your prayers. Janice has more areas of cancer in her liver, and I was told by Dr. Gehrig that my Pap test came back abnormal. She will be performing a biopsy on May 2. Your prayers are much appreciated for both of us. But that's not want God wants me to talk about today. God gave me this today. So here it is.

Living life on the edge
When we think of living life on the edge, we think of skydiving, mountain climbing, and generally taking chances with our lives.
But believe it or not, there’s many people that are living on the edge every day. They live from payday to payday, paying their bills., Buying their groceries, and other things they deem essential for life. Many have credit cards for every possible need. They have a credit card for gas, a credit card for clothing, credit cards for any building or hardware need and credit cards for any appliance they may need. And many if not all of these credit cards are maxed out. So payday for many people, is sort of a robbing Peter to pay Paul scenario. They live continually trying to catch up, while still using credit cards to supply their daily wants and needs. Most people, especially the young of this day and age, don’t understand what waiting for something is. They want what they want and they want it now.
They never think what if they lost their jobs, how would they live then? They never think, what if the main provider for the family got sick and could not work, or God forbid ,died. What then, would the family do?
Someone told me not long ago, their credit card bills totaled in the $30,000 range.
Yes people living on the edge of losing everything they have, just because they want so many things that they don’t need. They put things, and impressing other people, before anything else. They’ve got to keep up with the Joneses.
It’s a sad situation. And the only advice I can offer is from the word of God. And here it is.
Matthew 6:19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: Matthew 6:20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-04-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

All but for the grace of God

After hearing and seeing just small parts of the devastation from the tornados that ripped through the area of which I live. And hearing of the deaths caused by them. I can only say, all but for the grace of God go I. Trees that no one could ever guess would come down by a storm, now lying on the ground. Trees that withstood Hazel, Fran, Floyd and many other storms. Lie broken and twisted on the ground. Houses stand untouched beside other homes totally destroyed. Paths made through wooded areas, debris from the devastation lying in yards, fields and roads. And yet my home only experienced a very slight thunder storm, that was hardly noticeable. I’ve heard of survivor’s guilt, and I suppose that’s some of what I am feeling. I here of a small boy’s body being found in a tree, His sister’s body found later, alone beside all the debris, and a stream of tears falls down my face. I can’t imagine what the parents of those little angels must be going through. My heart and my prayers go out to them. There’s so many stories of such fashion. People hurting all over. Those whom have lost not only family members, but everything else they owned. A lifetime, wiped out in a matter of seconds. I guess we all question God when things like this happen. But the truth is, God had His reasons. We as human beings can’t possibly understand the wisdom of our Heavenly Father. All we can do is trust in that wisdom, and, give thanks to Him for having His hands over us. To all that may wonder where God was when all this was going, I say this. He was exactly in the same place when His only Son, Jesus Christ was hanging on the Cross. With tears in His eyes He watched . He watches over us too. All of us. Protecting us from the storm. God bless all those that are in need, because of the storm. And may I send my sincere heart felt condolences to all that were hurt by this disaster.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-04-14T10:51:00.000-07:00

Question. Do you think of yourself as royalty? Well my friend, if you are saved from your sins by Jesus Christ you are. President Obama, Donald Trump or anyone else has nothing on you. You are a king, you are a queen. You are also a priest. You are blessed beyond words. So today and now on when you see others and greet them, remember who you are through and by Christ Jesus. Let Christ shine in you so all may see Him through you. Remember this, without Jesus there is no kingship nor priesthood. It's Jesus we want to revile and not ourselves. So hold your head up high and let Jesus shine. Rev 1:5 And from Jesus Christ, who is the faithful witness, and the first begotten of the dead, and the prince of the kings of the earth. Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood, Rev 1:6 And hath made us kings and priests unto God and his Father; to him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.

Until next time God bless and God save

2011-04-13T12:59:00.000-07:00

Willard and I went to the beach yesterday, fishing. Now mind you, before we left, I reminded Willard to put sun block on. So guess who didn't put any on? It was me of course. I not only have a sun burn, I have sun poison. My face is oozing all over from the blisters. I know gross.

And Judy if you read this, we were planning on stopping by, but I forgot to take the address with me. I didn’t take my purse, which the address was in. We are however already planning our next trip.

We had such fun. The fish were absolution biting, well the sharks and mullets, anyway. I caught a shark that was ''"without stretching the truth""at least 15lbs in weight and was approximately 24 inching long. once out of the water, I could not reel it in. Willard was busy with his own fishing, so a man seeing my dilemma, helped me get it up by pulling on the line. All the while saying the line would probably break. Once on the pier, he made the statement that I had some mighty good line on my reel. It wasn't a sand shark. The man said it was one that when mature could kill a man. So yes textually I caught a baby.

How what was the finest catch of the day was Willard’s. OK so Willard catches a fish and as he was reeling it in, it swam under the pier and became entangles on the pylons. Willard broke his line trying to get it reeled in. Willard redoes his line etc, and just as soon as the hook meets the water another fish bites. Struggling again to keep this fish from swimming under the pier, Willard reels it in, finding not only the fish just caught, but the one he had just lost. Hook still in it’s mouth with all the was with it, weight and all. Now that was what you might call amazing. I thought it was anyway. I thank God for answering my prayer. A safe trip there and back. AND fish caught this time. God does answer the smallest of prayers. Yes He answers the major prayers. But God is there for the little stuff too. Because He love us so very much. All we have to do is trust in Him. Ephesians 1:13 In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise,

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-04-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

2ND Peter 3:3 Knowing this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers, walking after their own lusts.

You know, I've read this passage many times, but never has it hit home like it did this morning as I was reading it. You would think when scoffers are mentioned, that it's some evil person. Some anti-Christ, that you have never met nor heard of. You don't think of it coming from your own family members.

You see, I was having a conversation with a family member recently. She and I both have phones that have speaker features. And because it's easier to hear each other on speaker, we had the speakers on. Well her adult sons were overhearing our conversation, which was on Christ's coming. Her two son's and one of her daughter in laws started harassing us on our beliefs. Making fun of us for believing the Bible. They were saying such things as Jesus was not coming etc. The fact that they were scoffing at us, was not as hurtful as the thought that if they don't change, they will be loss in their sins, and left behind when Jesus does come back. I guess we all have family members of this same sort. It hurts us all that they are turning their backs on Jesus. I have learned in life that you can say all you want, to these people that you love so very much. But all in all, It's the Lord that will have to deal with them. All we can do is pray often and earnestly for their salvation. I hope each of you will pray for them as we all pray for each other's loss family members. Until next time God bless and God save

2011-04-01T15:02:00.000-07:00

It's when a person gets some age on them, that they really know how special life is. We realize what a miracle it is to have life. And, if you happen to be a reader of the Bible, and a believer that it is the true word of God. It's then you realize that it was God who created you. God took special care in your creation. He formed you to be different from anyone else. No one is just like you. You are one of a kind, from billions of other people, you are just that special to God.

Life doesn't end when these bodies of ours are silent and still. It goes on throughout eternity. Where, only you can decide. I can only pray and hope that you have made the right decision.

I found this in some papers I had stored. I don't know the author, but it has great suggestions for life. Until next time God bless and God save.

Here it is, hope you enjoy it.

Life is a....

Life is a challenge – meet it.

Life is a gift – except it.

Life is an adventure – dare it.

Life is a sorrow – overcome it.

Life is a tragedy – face it.

Life is a duty – perform it.

Life is a game – play it.

Life is a mystery – unfold it.

Life is a song – sing it.

Life is an opportunity – take it.

Life is a journey – complete it.

Life is a promise – fulfill it.

Life is a beauty – praise it.

Life is a struggle – fight it.

Life is a goal – achieve it.

Life is a puzzle – solve it.

Life is eternal – believe it!

2011-03-30T05:10:00.000-07:00

Remember the Israelites and how they kept turning away from God? Then when things would get bad, They would all start praying for God to rescue them from their troubles. Then sure enough, just as soon as life was good again, they would turn their backs from God again. God left them to their own choices, you know , free will and all. Then when God had, had enough, He gave them no choice. They were taken into exile, and scattered across to globe, to serve other peoples. Now we sit back and say what fools they were. All they had to do was serve God, and all would be well with them. Who are we kidding? Remember 9-11? After 9-11 the churches were packed. But slowly as our nation's people saw no more attacks on American soil, the pews started to empty out once again. Just like the Israelites, Americans have put other ''''idols'''' things before God. Let's not kid ourselves, percentage wise, there are less Christians in America than has ever been. America is turning away from God. It’s social behavior an insult to all that is Holy. But remember, we have free will. God is letting us make our own choices. Only trouble is, When Jesus comes, AND HE WILL, All choices then will be taken away. Then it will be only one choice. Heaven for the saints, or hell for the unsaved. Just as the Israelites had a simple choice of serving God or no. We have that same choice. Except Jesus as our Lord and redeemer, or no. When Jesus comes it will be too late. Then there will be no choice given. Don’t burn in hell for an eternity for making the wrong choice now! My prayer is to see you in Heaven when time is no more. Until next time God bless and God save

2011-03-28T12:47:00.000-07:00

Depression is a terrible thing. There are those that live every day of their lives fighting against an invisible force that seems to weight their mind down. They can't think straight, nor can they give a rational explanation as to why they can't keep their mind on anything for any length of time. Depression not only hurts the person whom are in that state, it hurts the entire family. Depressed people withdraw into a shell, hoping others will just leave them alone. And the awful truth in, many times they are left alone, because their family and friends, just don't know what to do or say.

David felt this when he was in the cave of Adullam. He felt deserted, not only by the people, But by God Himself. We read many times in the book of Psalm's, David describing how he felt as God stood at his right hand. But this Psalm we read that David was even without the presents of God by his side. How very lonely David must have felt, how completely desolate he must have felt all alone in the dark cave.

Ps 142:4 I looked on my right hand, and beheld, but there was no man that would know me: refuge failed me; no man cared for my soul. Remember this friends there is no place where God can't go. No matter how dark the cave God is there. He's with us no matter what. He will never forsake us. Whatever your or my needs are, God is there to supply them. I hope that if you are depressed. If you are having feelings of despair, feelings where you may feel, deserted, unloved. Remember God loves you so very much. Call on Him. I promise He will be there for you.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-03-25T13:41:00.001-07:00

Willard and I went to Golden Years this morning. I sang a few songs. Mrs Baker sang right along with me on each and every song. She always asks if I will sing Amazing grace. That ''she states'' each time is her Daddy's favorite song. You can tell she really loved her dad, every time she speaks about him, her face lights up.

Mr. Jack was back, out of the hospital. He's had pneumonia, and was real bad off there for a while. He's still sick, and looks awfully weak. He cried when I was talking about Jesus coming back for his saints, as if he was looking forward to that day.

And Mr Maynord's face lit up when Willard gave him the diet Sundrop we had purchased for him at the store. Mr. Maynord's loves Sundrops, and only gets one when Willard and I go, or he goes to church and then home for a little while on Sundays.

Each time I go I see these dear people. I see where each one of them have deteriorated from the time before. It just breaks my heart knowing that each one of them will leave this world at any time. They don't have years to live. Some may only have days. And yet each and every one of them are blessings. They each wear smiles on their faces as if they know a secret that no one else knows. But I know the secret. It's the joy of Jesus Christ in their hearts, and the Holy Spirit ever present in their lives.

Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,

Yep, I think they know this and much more.

God blesses me thou them.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-03-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

I've been sick for a few day now, with an intestinal virus. Let me tell you, that's some rough stuff. I'm almost over it, well enough to write my blog anyway.
Willard always goes to bed earlier than I. And most time's he's already well into his night's sleep, when I get to bed. Last night, as I laid in bed, I noticed just how much room was between Willard and I. A funny but sad thought hit me. The funny thought was'' gee there's plenty of room in the middle for someone else''. The sad thought was, '' when we first married, you would not have been able to put a dime between us''. Don't get me wrong, our marriage is wonderful, and we love each other very much. I know a lot of older people that not only sleep well apart, but sleep in separate beds. And they are happy in their marriage. And love each other deeply. I guess as you get older, sleep is sleep, and embracing is embracing, and the two are not Twain.

I wish that I could explain just how wonderful Willard has been to me, during my treatments, and all the other illnesses that I've been through. It seems like the last six or seven years, it's been one thing right after another. My first cancer, and all the treatments. then many episodes in the emergency room with my intestines, with finally a bowel resection. Once that was corrected, cancer again, with treatments, back and forth to Chapel Hill again. Every time I have ever needed Willard, he has been there, no matter what it was. He's a good man, and a good Christian. I love him so very much. So you see, all that space in the middle of the bed means nothing, because it's full of love too.
Until next time God bless, God save, and have a wonderful day.

2011-03-11T09:57:00.000-08:00

Ever wanted something so badly that you saved and did without other things to achieve your gold of obtaining the object of your desire? The funny thing about things like that. is many times we find it wasn't as special as we thought it would be. I have done this many times I must confess. But what is really odd is that things that seem like trash to others, are what we claim as our prised possessions. I have a tiny cut out of a moose, that David cut out, from an empty cigarette carton when he was about four years old. Tho crude, for a four year old to do something like that, I thought was just amazing. There are many things that we keep as our treasures that will just go into the trash after we leave this world. From the hands of someone who doesn't see the significances of what these things meant to us. Humans are sentimental when it comes to objects that remind us of special times, special people, and special places. We hold these things dear to heart, just as we hold all the people that we love so dearly in our hearts. It's when we get older and more mature that we realize what is really important. Our family and friends. It's the love that we hold in our hearts for our loved ones that keeps us grounded. It's the love for God, and the never ending sincere desire to serve Him that stabilizes us.

When we take time to review and look at what we keep as our true treasures, its not anything we have bought, that we thought we just had to have. We look and see things that have no cost. Those are the things that bring us the most joy in life.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-03-10T09:05:00.000-08:00

Hey I've got a little bit of hair now!!!!!!!!!!

I'd like to tell you all that there are still wonderful people out there in the world. Since I found out about my cancer, all sorts of people have stepped up to say kind words, lift Willard and I up in prayer. Bring meals, food, give gas money for all those trips to Chapel Hill and back. Just so very many things it's hard to remember them all. Wilma and Arthur Johnson sent checks twice for gas money. It was so much appreciated, especially since gas prices are so high. I want to say a special thank you, to Wilma and Arthur for their kindness.

Susan Sanders sent me fingernail polish, teal in color. Which was the color of the ribbon for my particular cancer. I know that this does not seem like much, but it was a gesture of love, which I appreciate, and it really touched my heart. Thank you Susan for your kindness.
Now Weldon and Kay Glover, sent many delicious prepared meals. They also supplied some groceries for us. Now I'm not speaking of can goods, I'm speaking of steaks, pork chops and many other items that were well appreciated. They really showed what Christlike people are all about.
JC and Joyce also brought meals. They would also bring us fish plates from the fish restaurant in Fayetteville that they go to.
Even my pharmacists, went out of her way to make sure that I got medicines that I needed. She spent lots of time on the phone getting things straightened out about the insurance\Medicare when things got mixed up.
There are many genuine good people out there. My care while taking chemo was extraordinary. The nurses were great. They let you know that they cared, and made you feel right at home. And that's important when you're setting there five hours each time.
But most of all I'd like to thank God for His healing power, for healing me once again from this awful disease called cancer. We surely have a loving God who cares for us and is there for us. He must want me to do something more with my life, because, I'm still here. I am and will live to serve him every waking minute. He is my rock, strength and Savior, and I live to serve him. If I have overlooked anyone please forgive me, and know that I appreciate all who were there for me. Until next time God bless each one of you, and God save.

2011-03-09T08:32:00.001-08:00

It seems to me that salvation is such a simple process. Believe, repent, receive. Believe that Christ died on the Cross for you, repent of your sins and turn away from them and receive Christ as your personal Savior. And yet my friends there are people''''some ever claim to be Christians"" that say there are more ways to Heaven than Christ Jesus. They have told this lie, and many non Christians and Christians have started to live by this untruth. They believe in this because it's an easy way to be able to do what they want to, whenever they want to. They don't have to live by any Christ-like standard. And after all they think,''I'm a good person"". They don't think that a loving God would ever send a ''good person'' to hell. Well let me explain something to these people. God is a loving God. That's exactly why He sent His only begotten Son ''Jesus Christ"" into this world of sin. To suffer and die for any and all that will believe in Him, ""Jesus Christ"". God would not have done this if there was any other way. Did God do all this in vain? I think not!

John 14:6Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

There's no if, ands or buts about it. Jesus Christ ''is'' the only way. Be careful you're not fooled into believing a lie! It's the most important decision you'll ever make in your life.

2Thessalonians 2:11And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie:
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-03-08T07:49:00.000-08:00

There are some people that trouble seems to follow around, as they say. But my observation has a different view of this. I have noticed that many people cause their own problems by not thinking about how, what they do effects others around them. Plus they don’t think about the consequences that may spring from their actions.
I remember when I was young, no one could tell me anything. I didn’t want to listen to anyone. My Mom and many others tried to give me good advice . But I thought I knew it all and had the world by the tail. I, like many of the young people of today’s world didn’t want to hear from older people’s experiences, or what they had learned in life. I so wish , I would have listened to a generation that was wiser than myself. But just like most young people now, I made foolish mistakes and deafen my ears to common sense advice.
I see a generation of wreckless people, who seem to have no morals coming of age, and it really worries me. Each generation seems to be more perverted, without conscience or remorse for their actions.
Isaiah 57:20 But the wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt.
Hmmmmmmm
Until next time God bless and ‘’Please’’God save

2011-02-08T03:30:00.000-08:00

Well today's my cat scan to see what's, what. But most important is this message I received from my neice about my sisterinlaw Janice. What wonderful news-

Mom received even more good news today. Existing tumors have not grown and are still "barely" noticeable on the CT scans. They are reducing the number of her treatments. Instead of 3 weeks of chemo and 1 week off. We now have 3 weeks of chemo and then 2 weeks off. God is GREAT!!!!
Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers. Keep them coming cause' they're working!!!

Please keep your prayers going until the day she's cancer free.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-01-31T07:21:00.000-08:00

To those who read my blog on Facebook, you may have saw where I had written that I felt like a failure. And at the time, I did. It seemed like I was having a self pity party.. But I am disappointed in myself.. It seems that I cannot walk from one room to another without giving out of breath. There’s so much that I want to do, but I just do not have the energy for. And I know, that it will take some time before I am back to my normal self. And I know, truly I should be ashamed of myself, considering all the people that are so much worse off than I am. My sister-in-law Janice, is still fighting against her cancer. She still is on chemo, and will be for some time. It’s a very small thing that I’m going through, compared to her. So I’m letting my Facebook friends know that I’m over my self pitying.
I think we all have times when we let our defenses down, and let our emotions take control of us. If I’ve learned anything in life, it’s that I cannot rely on my own strength to get me through moments like this. It’s by the strength of God, and only through the strength of God that my strength is renewed.
Psalms 62:7 in God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.
I praise God, that strength in him, comes with a simple prayer of repentance and humility. Just calling on His name helps me to remember that He hears and He understands. He knows that we humans are weak at times. He loves us anyway. How wonderful is the love of God.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

2011-01-29T14:35:00.000-08:00

I was listening to a preacher on my PC this morning, which brought a new prospective to me on the meaning of the ''apple of my eye''. David was the apple of God's eye. The preacher said to mentally replace the word ''apple'' with ''pupil''. Then think about someone hurting the pupil of God's eye. The preacher was speaking of Amalek who betrayed David and Israel. I can't think of anything worse than poking God in the eye.

But in reality we hurt God everytime we hurt each other, because I believe we as Christians are the apple of God's eye. If nothing else than it was we, whom Christ died for. The next time we look at someone we are upset with, Think, that someone just may be the apple ''pupil'' of God's eye.

Deuteronomy 32:10 He found him in a desert land, and in the waste howling wilderness; he led him about, he instructed him, he kept him as the APPLE OF HIS EYE.

Let's not poke God in the eye.

Until next time God Bless and God save.

2011-01-28T07:23:00.000-08:00

Have you noticed how lying has become such a part of everyday life for some of the people that we know and love. Especially the younger generation. It is sometimes difficult to distinguish between lies and truth, because they have developed into professional deceivers. We know by the 10 Commandments that lying is a sin, and reading in Proverbs chapter 19 verse 5 we read, a false witness shall not be unpunished, and he that speaketh lies shall not escape. Again in Proverbs we read in chapter 12 and verse 19 the lip of truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment. I won’t continue to give you a bunch of Bible verses, because you can open the Bible most anywhere, and it would tell you lying is wrong. Why do people lie? Sometimes I think people lie because they’re afraid. People lie to justified themselves. People lie to make themselves look good. But no matter the reason for the lie, it’s wrong. Some people believe their own lies. And some people have lied so much, that it just becomes habit. Willard said that he thinks sometimes people lie to fit in. lying to the unawares about fame or fortune to fit in with a class of people. By doing such as this you’re not only telling lies but living a lie as well. But no matter why the lie, no one can be justified in it. If one is an un-repentive liar, they are not living in fellowship with God. Lies separate us from God. I know quite a few people that lie on a daily basic. Their lies are so apparent, it’s hard not to notice. And yet these same people profess to be Christians. This is a world gone mad. A world in which delusions of lies are preached in many pulpits. Many ministers have been swayed over by Church members feelings, and the political climate of today’s world. They now tickle the ears of their congregation. And as the Bible tells in 2nd Thessalonians chapter 2 and verse 11, and God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie. And what should really scare many people is the next verse, 12 that they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness. The only answer I can give anyone to all this is we all need to get in, and stay in the word of God. And when you see Preachers, teachers or anyone misusing the word of God for their own purposes, Speak Up!
Until next time, God bless and God save.

Empty inside

2011-01-27T13:01:00.000-08:00

Empty inside

Remembering back on one Easter morning when David was a young child. I had bought him an Easter basket, which had a chocolate bunny. I remember watching as he pulled the cellophane paper from the basket, and opened the box with the bunny. Chocolate bunny in hand, he bit into one of the bunnies ears. Upon doing so, he looks at me and says, it's empty. His expectations were no doubt dashed. The hollow bunny brought no joy to my disappointed son.
We as human beings often grasp for the sweet things, the possessions, the power, and pleasure that we find in life. But without the Lord in our lives, our lives can seem to be empty, just as the little choclate bunny was. Solomon, talked about this in his written sermon in ecclesiastics. Late in life, Solomon realized that he had lived his life, living for possessions, power, influence and pleasures. He describes it all as vanity. Solomon realized that life is short, and that things fade away. The only real thing, truly is our relationship with the Lord. Our spiritual gifts will not fade away. Our spiritual blessings are eternal. Earthly things will rust and degrade, and will disappear from sight. But all spiritual blessings and gifts we will have through out eternity.
So when you feel as if your life is as an empty chocolate bunny, consider the fact that we all need Jesus, in our lives, to make our lives full and complete.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-01-26T06:12:00.000-08:00

While listening to David Jeremiah, this morning. He told the story of ''the monkeys fist''. I found this story quite interesting, and wanted to share with you.
The monkeys fist

there's an ancient parable, the monkeys fist. It teaches a profound lesson. Native tribes would catch monkeys by hollering out coconuts, filling them with bait, then tethering them to trees for monkeys to find. When the monkey reached into the small opening in the coconut, his hands fit,but once his fist was full the bait, he could not retrieve his hand. The monkey was trapped. The lesson for all of us is that the coconut was not the monkeys undoing. But rather, his greedy unwillingness to let go of the bait.

Okay, so I know what you're thinking''' dumb animal'''. But aren't most humans just as dumb and just as greedy? Humans have a want button. A want button, that never seems to be turned off. We are all guilty, not one of us can stand back and say that it's not true about us and many of the people we know. We all want what we don't need. We all want what everyone else has. We're hungry for stuff. And as we stick our own hand into that imaginary coconut, and grab for all the things that satan has placed inside for us. We might remember that we don't need a handful. But just get what's actually needed.
James 1: 17
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.

Old hands

2011-01-10T08:18:00.001-08:00

I heard a story on the radio the a few years ago that touched my heart. And God has put it on my heart to pass it along. It was a hand written letter from a lady in her eighties that resided in a nursing home. I hope that I can remember all the details, at any rate I’ll do the best I can.
The lady writes.
My hands are old, my hands are so very old and ugly. They used to be as smooth as a peach’s skin, but now they feel so rough and so dry. My hands are old and ugly.
My name is Nellie, though no one calls me that any more. The people at the nursing home call me missy or dear. Some even call me Mrs. But they don’t call me Nellie, my name is Nellie. My children come each week they call me Mom or Mother. My grandchildren call me granny, grandmom or even grandmother. But of course they don’t call me by my name. My name is Nellie. I just wanted you to know my name is Nellie, while I can still remember it.
My children and grandchildren all tell me they love me, every time they come. but I’m still so very lonely, no one touches me any more. My husband used to hold my hand as we sat together. But he’s now gone on and is with the Lord. My children once held my hand as we walked along the streets of the town. But I've not felt their touch for so very long now. Do you think the reason that they don’t touch me any more is because of my hands. My hands are so old, so very old and ugly.

Hey, why don't you go give that elderly Mother or Father, or that aging Grandmother or Grandfather of yours a tender hug. Tell them you love them, and tell them how much you care for them. Make them feel important, make them feel a part of your life. Make them feel like they matter. And by all means hold their hands.

Until next time God bless and God save.

14 more pounds UGH

2011-01-05T10:49:00.000-08:00

I must be the only person gaining weight while on chemotherapy.

I went to the doctor this morning, again sick with a cold, fluid behind the ears. Willard is much sicker than me, he's been sick for over a week. He refused to go to the doctor to began with. You know how most people are, we always think we'll get better, but instead we get worse and worse off.
Well, to get back to the weight gain, I have gained 14 pounds in two weeks. UGH, I feel like a complete failure when it comes to trying to lose weight. Of course, you can't lose weight and eat all the time like I had been doing lately. I stay hungry, the chemotherapy is taking so much from my body, that I stay hungry all the time. And me with no self-control at all, gives in to my urges every single time. Will you please pray a prayer for me that I will have greater strength to control my raging appetite.
When I went shopping at IGA this morning. I noticed a woman who seemed as if she could hardly walk because she could not breathe. I felt sorry for her and was wondering what was wrong with her. As Willard was going to the checkout line, I decided to go get the medicine from the drugstore. As I walked outside I saw the woman again sitting in her car. She was huffing and puffing on a cigarette. It kind of reminded me of when I was smoking. I remember, I had every excuse under the sun, to not quit smoking. I remember excuses like it's just allergies, it's a cold, anything and everything were my excuses. I'm glad that God finally made me look at the truth. I quit smoking cold turkey approximately 15 years ago. People used to say how hard it was to stop smoking. But with God's help, and I know it was only by God's help that I quit. I did quit. But not before causing irreparable lung damage to myself. So I will say to you smokers out there. Stop the excuses, admit that the those cigarettes are causing you lung damage. And for God's sake quit smoking.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2011-01-01T04:52:00.000-08:00

Well, it's 2011. Just imagine reaping what you have sown. All the seeds that you have planted in 2010. The seeds of hate, the impassioned seeds, as we ignore someone in need. The seeds of jealousy, the seeds of pride, the seeds of the vainness. Now I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture. Each day that we live, we have emotions that sometimes seem uncontrollable. I myself have hated. I have sometimes ignore people that are in need. I would not say that I'm a vain person, but I'm sure I have acted vain at times. We, as human beings, are subject to all kinds of emotions. Sometimes we act out our emotions, and end up hurting people. We as human beings can't seem to put restraints on ourselves. We let our emotions rule their behavior and sadly our mouths.
Anyone that knows me well, knows that I can hold things in for a while. But after a while it all seems to explode, and then they know to get out of my way. And when I'm like that, I don't like the person I see in the mirror. I say things I don't mean and I do things that I'm ashamed of.
It's nothing more than me letting down my defenses and letting those fiery darts of satan get past my armor. It is truly a wonderful thing that the Lord has so much grace and so much mercy on us. Grace is getting what we don't deserve. And I know that I don't deserve forgiveness in any way, for some of the things I think, and even some of the things I do. But the Lord, has Mercy abounding. Mercy is God holding back what you deserve. And with the seeds I have planted in my life, I deserve far worse than I'm getting. But what I'm getting is forgiveness, through Jesus Christ our Lord. It's so wonderful that I do not have to reap what I have sown in 2010. I will say that I will try harder in 2011 be the Christian that I should be, but I know that I will fail again. And that's when I have faith that God's grace is sufficient for me also.

Until next time God bless and God save.

OH yea, I wanted you all to know David has a new girl friend. He seems so happy.

Mishmash :-)

2010-12-28T11:15:00.000-08:00

Nothing much going on today. Willard's gone hunting over at Weldon's. I'm hoping he gets a deer today. After all it's getting late in the season, and he's not got one this year. And I have no idea at all where David is. David has always been a secretive person, and I guess he will always be that way. He doesn't want mama and daddy to know where he goes. And after all he is 25 and older enough to live his own life. So mom and dad are, left in the dark about his whereabouts. We raised him the best we could. We saw that he went to church. We saw that he knew right from wrong. So all we can do now is leave it in God's hands.
I'm feeling tired already from my chemo. I wanted to go sew some on my quilt, but I just don't feel like. I am so glad that I did finish the quilt for Kay. Willard took it to her, he said she really liked it. She called to let me know that she had it on her couch with the matching pillow. Kay and Weldon both have done so much for me and Willard, there is no way that we could ever repay them.
I'm trying to decide what I want to do about the power port. My doctor said it would be in at least a year, but she would like to leave it in permanently. Well I have a whole year to decide, so hopefully the Lord will let me know by then what to do.
I'm putting a picture on of the quilt I made for Kay. Believe me it was made with a lot of love.
Until next time God bless and God save.

Changing chemo not a good option

2010-12-27T18:41:00.000-08:00

Here's just a few pictures I took on the way to, and at Chapel Hill. I'm already feel a little sick tonight. The doctor talked to me in detail about the numbness in my hands today. She said she could take me off of the chemo that was causing it. The details were that if she did change the chemo, the only other chemo most likely would not work nearly as well as the one I'm on. She explained that the numbness may go away after a while when my chemo's are finished, or it may be permanent . I told her to not change anything. I'm leaving it in God's capable hands.
Well that's all I feel like tonight. It's been a really long day. Gonna go to bed and get some zzzz's. Willard has been snoring a couple of hours now. He deserves it, it's been three time worse on him than me. Sometimes his to do list is much too long. Please say prayers for him.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

Look what God has made

2010-12-26T04:59:00.000-08:00

Setting here, drinking coffee, looking out at the snow, and what comes to my mind is, look what God has made. The view from my back door is just stunning. Anyone who cannot see the hand of God in this, just is not looking for God at all.
Although, it's going to be rough getting to Chapel Hill in the morning. Willard and I normally leave around 5:30, most likely will have to leave about 430 in the morning to be there on time.
Please keep us in prayer as we make the trip.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-12-25T11:58:00.000-08:00

Well, it's Christmas Day, mostly all the presents are opened and all the paper wrappings are in the trash. Children are playing with their new toys, I know there's a few men watching football. And most women are cleaning their kitchen from the Christmas dinner that was cooked.

And now we look forward to the new year. Wondering what the new year holds for each one of us. We also reflect on the past. Those that are not with us this year at Christmas. It brings some sadness to our hearts. But as they say, life goes on. As we look into the new year, I'd like to wish each and every one of you a happy new year. May God bless each of us with blessings only He can provide.
As promised, here's a couple of pictures of Kenny and family, his boys sure have grown since the last time I saw them.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-12-24T16:54:00.000-08:00

OK, today's been a pretty nice day. My oldest son Kenneth and his family came over. Bobby and his family came with Donald. Bobby's wife Kim cooked a very large dinner of ham, turkey, potatoes salad, string beans and lots more. It was a very delicious meal. We enjoyed the visit. Willard and I opened our Christmas presents this afternoon. In fact I am using one of the Christmas present now. Willard got me a Dragon naturally speaking software program, of which I'm using to dictate this blog.

I took some pictures today of Kenneth and his family. I will try to remember to put them on tomorrow. As for now I want to wish each and every one of you a very Merry Christmas. Hoping that you receive all that you want but mostly joy and love.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-12-23T09:22:00.000-08:00

With Christmas so close, I dwell on the reason Christ came. He came to give His life that we may have eternal life. Here's a poem I wrote a few years ago. Try to imagine.

Can you imagine
Standing in the very place, where Jesus was crucified.
Standing atop the very hill, where our precious Savior died.
Seeing the wreath of thorns, that they called a crown.
Seeing His forehead bleed as hard, they pushed it down.
Seeing the blood of Christ, as it soaked into the ground.
Hearing the people scoff at Him, no sympathy to be found.
Looking at His mother as tears streams from her eyes.
I love you so very much my son, she whispers as He dies.
To hear our precious Savior speak, as He said, it is done.
To see His face at that moment, for victory had been won.
To be there as the earth shook, feel the wind as it blew.
To see the glory of God as He ended the old, and started anew.
Hear as they say, no bones needed broken, this man’s already dead.
So they took a spear and stabbed our Savior in His side instead.
They say He was hard to recognize, for He was wounded so.
Some man Gave his own tomb where His body could go.
Can you imagine, standing in the empty tomb that day.
When the Angels said He is risen He’s not where he lay.
Can you imagine standing in Heaven and looking in His face.
Knowing that if not for Him, there would be no saving grace.
Glory to His name Glory to His name Glory to His name.
Imagine being in Heaven singing Glory to His name.
Written by Joan Glover

Until next time God bless and God save

2010-12-21T05:36:00.000-08:00

Ok, So here's a question for you all. I'd really would like some impute on this. We Christians have all heard about the thorn in the flesh that Paul had. I was reading in Galatians this morning, and this verse just jumped out at me.
Galatians 6:17=From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus.

My question is this. Could the thorn in the flesh that Paul had, have been stigmata ? I've heard many people bleed from their hands, feet, and forehead. Even from their eyes at times with it. Could Paul have been displaying the same bloody marks that Jesus had at His Crucifixion. Could Jesus have given this to Paul as a sign to all, in order to help Paul in His ministry?

Stigmata
Marks resembling the wounds of the crucified Christ that appear inexplicably on the limbs and body of certain sensitive individuals, especially Christian mystics. The most common stigmata are marks on a person's hands and feet resembling piercing with nails, sometimes accompanied by bleeding. Other stigmata include the weals of scourging, wounds on the shoulder and side, the bruising of the wrists (where Christ was bound with cords), and marks on the mouth (paralleling the effect of the sponge soaked in vinegar). The most dangerous stigma is the Ferita or heart wound, which under normal circumstances can cause death.
There have been hundreds of cases of stigmata over the last two thousand years, many of them on the bodies of women. In spite of some actual or suspected frauds, most of these cases seem genuine, and some individuals bearing stigmata have been canonized.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-12-19T11:41:00.001-08:00

OK, Bible fulfilling prophecy day after day coming to our TV's our newspapers. So do you still think you have all the time in the world to except Christ as Savior? You need to think about it!

2010's world gone wild: Quakes, floods, blizzards
By SETH BORENSTEIN and JULIE REED BELL Associated Press The Associated Press
Sunday, December 19, 2010 11:26 AM EST

This was the year the Earth struck back.
Earthquakes, heat waves, floods, volcanoes, super typhoons, blizzards, landslides and droughts killed at least a quarter million people in 2010 — the deadliest year in more than a generation. More people were killed worldwide by natural disasters this year than have been killed in terrorism attacks in the past 40 years combined.
"It just seemed like it was back-to-back and it came in waves," said Craig Fugate, who heads the U.S. Federal Emergency Management Agency. It handled a record number of disasters in 2010.
"The term '100-year event' really lost its meaning this year."

This does not reflect the wars and all the men who have lost their lives this year fighting them.

Until next time God bless and God save.

I am persuaded also

2010-12-16T07:47:00.000-08:00

Paul wrote in Romans 8: 38 and 39 this,
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Romans 8:39
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I also am persuaded of this. Jesus said in John 6:39
And this is the Father's will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath GIVEN me I should lose nothing, but should raise it up again at the last day.

Jesus is holding on to us, and He will not let go. It's us that wonder away from Christ. And even when we drift away, He still has a tight grip on us.

You know, satan ''is'' an angel. But he wanted to be worshiped as God, so he left Heaven with the other angels that had turned their back on God. There is a hell that was created especially for satan and his followers.

We as human beings have to make up our minds who side we are on. You can't sit back and be neutral on this! It's either Jesus or satan. I hope you will decide Jesus on this very important decision in your life. And I do too, hope you will do it quickly. We don't know the day nor hour that Jesus is coming back for His saints. It may be before you even finish reading this blog. Thank about it, please.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-12-01T03:19:00.000-08:00

My sister in law Janice, had a cat scan Monday. The scan showed only a small, almost undetectable cancerous tumor left. From all the cancer she had in her body, to say she has one small tumor left is so great. Janice has been through so much fighting her fight with cancer and she and the Lord is winning. But don't stop those prayers, she still need all the prayers she can get. Thank you all for being a part of this miracle, with your prayers and your good wishes. God bless you all.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-11-29T10:13:00.000-08:00

Willard and I had a good Thanksgiving. He went over to Weldon's and fixed us a plate, which I enjoyed. Kay is an excellent cook. Every mouth full was just so good. When we got finished all we did was through the plates in the trash and sit back and enjoy ourselves. Thanks Weldon and Kay for the food and the love.

Well, when I went to see Dr. Varia last week about the radiation, he said no to it. Thank God for that. He said that I had been messed up to much already by the last time they did it. He said only in a life or death situation, would he even think about putting me through it. He did seem rather surprised that the radiation from before had done so much damage. He was full of apologies. All the apologies in the world can not make me normal again. I have problems that will last my lifetime. There's no reversing burnt and scared tissue and organs that were damaged. But life is life and we all learn to live with things. Holding on to the edge of the Lord's garment is a habit to me by now. Knowing that with Him we can all make it through, keeps me in a joyous mood all the time. Knowing that we can count on Him, makes life better. And the joy of knowing, when we leave this earthly life, we will be in His presents. All I know to say is hallelujah.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-11-24T14:12:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving brings back so many memories of the past. Family and friends from by gone years. Here's a poem that I wrote so few years ago ab out some of my family members. Hope you enjoy. God bless and God save.

Family Pictures
Written by Joan Glover
Looking over family pictures and at peace I come to be.
As I look at the faces of the ones who mean so much to me.Each face brings back a memory of what once use to be.
Of those now much older, of those from life set free.
I look at the one of my mother and a tear forms in my eye.
As I remember how I miss her, trying so hard not to cry.
I know she was a Christian, and I’ll see her again by and by.
Until then I have her picture to look upon with a sigh.
Here’s the one of my children so many years ago.
All lined up like stair steps and standing straight in a row.
Knobby knees and bony arms and smiles that would glow.
When did they grown into the adults that I now know.
And granny and grandpa, the picture was taken at their farm.
You can see crops in the background and all seemed so calm.
Grandpa, now he’d never smile, standing stiff with folded arm.
By his side stood my sweet granny with all her gentle charm.
Here’s the one of my stepfather, Jerry Koonce was his name.
He treated me as his own child and loved us all the same.
He was there to push the swing or play the baseball game.
He was all the dad us children wanted, he needed no other fame.
Oh and here’s one of me so many years of sunshine and rain.
Before housework, motherhood and just all the daily strain.
And some would say they’d want to go back and be that young again.
But me, I’m happy with my life. I have no more to gain.
There someone else except I’ve no picture that I can view.
I have a description, maybe you’ve heard of Him too.
The description is in the Bible the books we all knew
Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and Romans are a few.
They say He died a young man at the age of thirty-three.
And the reason of His dieing was to save you and me.
I believed and received Him and He set my soul free.
And even with no picture, He’s still a dear friend to me.
His name is wonderful, counselor, a Savior to us all.
He gives me peace and comfort when on my knees I Fall.
And He’s always there for me no matter the times I call.
I only know this wonderful man, Jesus is my all in all.

2010-11-24T12:09:00.000-08:00

I got the most wonderful surprise today. Golden Years Nursing Home brought me a box full of goodies, plus a ham. I have been so very blessed to me cared for my so many wonderful people. When things get down, it's the people that go over and above being just neighborly. It's the people that seem to come out of the woodwork to do something nice for you. Like Joyce and JC who are there for any need, even though they themselves have many troubles of their own. And Weldon and Kay who continually bring us meals to eat. Including yesterday, with BBQ pork, and some delicious turnips, beans, bake sweet potatoes and corn bread.

And now Golden Years blessing us with their generosity. The Lord has really blessed us this year. I just hope when I get better, I'll be able to help others as I have been helped this year. I want to say a very heart felt think you to all these wonderful people.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-11-22T03:57:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I was getting to feel as if the walls were closing in on me, so I asked Willard if maybe we could go take Kay and Weldon their dishes back, from that wonderful meal of steak and vegetables they had brought earlier in the week. He agreed it would be a nice outing, so we gathered up the dishes and went for a visit. It was a great visit. In fact I don't remember ever feeling so welcomed anywhere else. Their home was decorated for Christmas, since her son Donald and his family were coming for Thanksgiving, and not for Christmas this year. There were Christmas tree(s) brightly lit, with beautiful ornaments hanging from every branch. Kay has her back sitting room, decorated in red and white. With a red checked table cloth on her dinning room table that she has moved there from the kitchen. The Christmas tree was white with decorated lights glowing. It seemed almost like a magical place. I know there was much love in every placement of every wreath, every decoration in the house. For those few minutes we were there, it was Christmas. Weldon and Kay both are such great people. There is no pretence in them. They both are what we all as human beings should be. Hard working, God fearing, honest, loving, kind people. Who have a love and respect for all mankind. As I have said about them many time before. You can see the light of the Lord shining brightly in them. Thank you Weldon and Kay for a wonderful visit. It really did make my day so nice.

Well today's my first radiation treatment, wish me luck.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-11-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

OK, so the cold that Willard caught from UNC hospital, I also caught. Not only was my body being pounded by the chemo, I also now have to fight off a cold. I went to Dr Vyas's office, got two shots in the rear, a treatment for my lungs, X-rays and tested for strep throat and mono. Saying I didn't feel like even lifting my head up would be an understatement. Later yesterday afternoon, I did start feeling some better, so Willard and I hatched up a plan to get some BBQ and slaw from Smithfields BBQ restaurant and make sand witches for supper. WELL! Willard said something about the slaw not tasting right. I thought it tasted alright so we kept eating our sand witches. About an hour later Willard wasn't feeling to well and I was heaving and vomiting, which lasted until about two o'clock this morning.

I'm not feeling in the prime still this morning. I think it'a be a long time before we go back there, or eat BBQ for that matter.

Until next time, God bless and God save

And God please help my children. ALL OF THEM.

2010-11-18T04:02:00.000-08:00

To tell the truth, I'm not doing so well this time. Dr. Gehrig said that it was expected, and not to worry. She said it would take longer each time to recover. I start radiation Monday, which will also zap even more energy from me. Sounds like real fun, yea right!

Willard is real sick with a cold. all that green stuff coming out of his lungs and sinus. He not much able to do for himself, much less me. But somehow he's finding the energy to do the things he has to.

Pray for us both if you will.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-11-16T17:04:00.000-08:00

Well it seems that after Dr. Gehrig told me I could not have any more radiation, that she thinks it necessary that I do have it. I didn't ask why. Although I did ask her if it was positively necessary. Her answer was yes it was. You know, I guess human nation is, sometimes just not wanting to know. I'm there, I just don't want to know. I prefer just leaving it in God's hands. Oh I know that some of you would say it was cowardice, and not wanting to hear bad news, I'd have to say to that, you may be right. But one verse in the Bible keeps coming to my mind, as I ponder over this. ''Lord I believe, help me with my unbelief.'' But all in all, I do trust God with all that I have, all that I am. There's nothing that He doesn't know about me. He knows I'm not perfect. He knows that at times my faith is weak. and He knows when it's strong. He knows the most enter most depths of my heart, because He has searched it. Just as He searches all mankind's hearts. Some people may be able to fool the people around them. But you can't fool God.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-11-15T16:59:00.000-08:00

As I write this, I’m sitting up here in Chapel Hill getting my treatment. The nurse “”Judy”” has already started the IV in my port, and has got the medicine for nausea running. Willard is sitting in a chair right beside me and is watching a hunting program on TV. He‘s settled in for the long day ahead. There are patients entering about every fifteen minutes.
I’m at home as I write the rest of this. After Judy gave me the benedril, I wasn’t much good for anything
A short while after I put my PG up came a woman in her late twenties or early thirties. The woman was so very thin. I could see every bone as it moved with what little muscle and skin she had left on her body. I saw as her nurse talked to her about her blood test. How there was no way they could do any treatment today. I watched as tears ran down this woman’s face, as she explained, if she missed any more treatments her tumors would not get any smaller. Her nurse told her she’d go talk to her doctor. When the nurse left I struck up a conversation with her and, Of course I brought Jesus up. To my delight I found out that she was a Christian and had much faith in the will of God. She told me her story a very sad one indeed. Her name is Kathy, she has a son sixteen and a daughter seventeen . Then she said “”I had a husband, but he couldn't’t take living with the every day reminder of cancer, so he left.””. She explain the he had moved on with his life and was engaged to be married. He came in the room with the two children for a few minutes. This left. Her sitting there all alone, with no one beside her broke my heart. Everyone else had someone sitting beside them, she was the only one which sat all alone.
As I listened to her tell her story, my heart broke for her. She really doesn’t have a good percent rate of being cured. But she sat there living her faith, convinced that God will cure her. I pray with all my heart that He will make her completely whole once more. After a while her nurse came in with two units of blood. She started Kathy’s IV’s and explained to her once more, that there would be no treatment today.
It’s hard to sit and watch that kind of disappointment as it writes it’s self all over someone’s face. After that she ask to be moved to a more private place. I can’t be sure, but I think she didn’t want anyone to see her cry.
Now I ask each of you this favor. Say a prayer for Kathy right now. You and I may not know her, But God does. And He will hear your prayers and ours. So please!
Until next time God bless and God save.

Kissed by a boy named Lard

2010-11-01T05:01:00.000-07:00

I got my first kiss from a boy called Lard. That wasn't his real name, in fact I never knew his real name. My sister Jean may know it, because she and her boyfriend and future husband Tommy, were his friends. Now my sister may get just a little upset with me for this one. You see we lived in an age that all this sexual stuff wasn't even heard of. We lived in the age that even a kiss was something for the mother's to open their lips in horror if found out. Well to continue on with the story. Jean and her friends would often get together for a little game of spin the bottle. And since grand mama Moore, didn't want Jean going off by herself. Grand mama would always make Jean take me along with her. Now you know, I was somewhat the devilish child. I had decided that if Jean could get a kiss, so could I. I was somewhere around ten. Jean was fourteen that was the set age for dating in the home, only house dating or with a supervisor only. Sixteen was the go out by yourself dating. So me being that evil child, blackmailed Jean in letting me play spin the bottle too. My first turn was a 6oz coke bottle. I can still see the bottle as is went round and round. I secretly wanted it to point to a neighbor boy who lived on the next block over from us. I remember his last name to be Ennis, and to remember his first name has escaped me. But I had the biggest crush on him. The bottle slowed down not even close to where he was in the circle. It stopped, as I looked up to see who was in that position. It was Lard. Oh I forgot, the best part! When you kissed you went into a closet and closed the door while the others on the outside say their oooos and aaaas. So here I go into the closet with Lard. He gave me the must wonderful kiss, ON THE CHEEK! No he didn't kiss me on the mouth he gave me the sweetest kiss on the side of my face. I thank him for preserving my innocents past that point. He was indeed the gentleman.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Hey Jean forgive me for telling. I love you.

2010-10-31T13:09:00.000-07:00

I'd like to introduce you to my Grand Dad, Alvin Moore. I remember many times when I would sit on his lap, while the two of us would sing David Crocket. Of course I never really said David Crocket, I would sing David Ocket. You see I have a problem with any word with r in it. He use to sit for what seemed like hours trying to teach me to say Grand daddy, Of course all that would come out of my mouth would be And Daddy. I wish that he had lived long enough to hear me say it right, but he had a heart attack on the way home from work and died. I don't have any bad memories of my grand dad, all are memories of playing games, singing while sitting on his lap. I remember his smile like it were yesterday. He had a kindness about him, and a fun loving nature. I found out later in life that the fun loving nature may have come from his drinking. Many men back then would take a drink, but whether the smile come from a bottle or from his heart. I remember feeling loved.

I remember his corpse laying in the widened hallway, which was made into a sitting room. It was common back then to have the body in the homes, rather than a funeral parlor. I remember laying in bed that night, afraid of his corpse in the other room. Now whether I dreamed this or it actually happened is any one's guess. I have always truly believed it was real. I saw my grand daddy standing at the foot of my bed, with his face smiling back at me. As I saw this, the feeling came over me that he was there to say goodbye, and let me know he loved me.

It took me many years of speech therapy to say the r words. I have regretted my whole life that he never heard me say Grand Daddy. But when I get to Heaven I'm going to look him up, ''first thing'' and say hi to my grand dad.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

2010-10-31T05:15:00.000-07:00

I've been going through a lot of bone pain the last two or three days. Plus deep muscle pain and or cramps. Dr. Gehrig's nurse Becky said it was myalgia/arthralgia, which last anywhere from three to five days. All I know is it hurts real bad. I took two darvocets and they didn't even touch it. Becky said to get some clearitin ''an allergy medication'' to take. She said that would help. Don't ask me! I just follow instructions, I took my first one this morning, so we'll see. I'm lots better this morning than any day, since Monday. This chemo really pulls a person down. I get tired real easy. I can't even imagine what Janice and Robert Scoggins must be going through with getting it weekly. Please remember to keep them in your prayers. And please let's pray for a cure to this evil disease.

Well David's daughter was born the 28th, right before twelve midnight. Her name is Renee Lynn Ruggles. No, they didn't give it David's last name. Names and all put aside, David seems to be so very proud of his little girl.

Now anyone that knows me, knows that I don't approve of what happened. But what is done is done. Here's another baby born into the world out of wed lock. I don't know if they will ever get married or not. I've put it all in the Lord's hands, for only He can straighten such a mess as this.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Sharing photos

2010-10-26T15:40:00.000-07:00

I thought I'd just share some photos with you today.

Here's a photo of my button cap. Willard didn't care to much for this one. I think he thinks it's tacky. But gee wiz, I love tacky.

Here's the first bag of chemo, with the saline in the other bag. I should have taken another on with all the bags on it, but I was so drunk from the benadryl they gave me, I could hardly keep my eyes open.

And here Willard, being ever so patient with all of it. Getting me drinks and salad from the lunch room.

You know he's the love of my life. The dream I dreamed of. The prayer I prayed for. God really blessed me with this wonderful man. I thank God every day for him .

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-25T14:52:00.000-07:00

UGGGGGH, I'll make this short today. Willard and I left home at five thirty this morning. We got home at five o:clock this afternoon. We spent the whole day watching as six or seven '"'I lost count"" IV bags slowly dropped through the machine and into my port. I'm sick, I already feel bad. It's like I've swam the English Chanel in a day. Even though I fell this bad I know that the Lord is watching out for me.
You know it's kind of sad. If Sandra Bullock had trusted the Lord to have her back, instead of Jessie James. She would not have been disappointed.

Still praying for Robert Scoggins, Janice Moore, and all that have this evil thing called cancer.

Until next time God bless, God save, And God heal.

2010-10-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

I was reading in Jeremiah this morning of how the people of the tribe of Judah refused to give up their idol worship, and serve God. They believed that God could not give them what the queen of heaven could. They had no faith in God whatsoever.
Jer 44:17
But we will certainly do whatsoever thing goeth forth out of our own mouth, to burn incense unto the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto her, as we have done, we, and our fathers, our kings, and our princes, in the cities of Judah, and in the streets of Jerusalem: for then had we plenty of victuals, and were well, and saw no evil.
Jer 44:18
But since we left off to burn incense to the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto her, we have wanted all things, and have been consumed by the sword and by the famine.
Jer 44:19
And when we burned incense to the queen of heaven, and poured out drink offerings unto her, did we make her cakes to worship her, and pour out drink offerings unto her, without our men?

Are not the people of this date and age doing the same thing? Putting worldly possessions above spiritual blessings. Most people have their hands out, waiting for the next possession to come their way. These people, whom, enough is never enough. When they get our homes over stocked with stuff, they build, buy or even rent storage buildings to keep the over flow in. Even though they have everything they need, and lots of stuff they don't need, still they're never happy.

What makes a person happy is a relationship with the Lord. Some people, especially unsaved ones, will never know the joy that is in the heart of us who have Jesus as their Lord and Savior. Jesus is all you'll ever need! He will supply all your needs.

Unless of course you're like the people in Jeremiah's time, and don't care about the spiritual, and only care about the carnal.

Oh lost world, Oh lost world, please come back to God, please come to know Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Before it's too late.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-20T09:39:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I would finger comb my hair every once in a while, like most women do, and each time I would do it, my hand was full of hair. I woke up this morning with a pillow full of hair, and so I decided to do as Dr. Gehrig suggested I do when that happened. I went to Wal-Mart and had her use the clippers and get it as short as it would go.
Willard stood ready with the camera, and took photos as she went along clipping my hair.
It hurt to get this done, but not as bad as it was hurting seeing my hair fall out little by little.
Here's the photos. You'll notice in the last one she has a teal ribbon on that I gave her.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-19T04:22:00.000-07:00

Have you ever seen or had one of those punch cards that grocery stores give you. Where they punch out places for each hundred dollars. Well, when the card is fully punched, then the owner of the card can watch as the person at the counter rubs off the gold stuff and see what is beneath it. Most times it will be just a dollar or so.

Now I know it's crazy asking you to do this, but please do it anyway. I want you to think of yourself as the punch card. You're freshly off the printer, ever the ink is not quite dry. Now for each good deed you do, you will get punched, and that's a good feeling to you. Now Year after year you get fuller and fuller of punches, you're feeling so good about all you have done for humanity. You deem yourself to be one of the best punch cards there is. You've never really done anything wrong, always been kind to people. Always given to the poor, etc, etc. After all that's why you're full of punches. But here you are standing in Heaven, in the face of the Holy Father of all punch cards, who will "" you think"" rub away the gold place. But He tells you He's the wrong one, But it's too late now. You should have asked another to rub it off before your last punch was punched.

Now of course you're not a punch card, but friend you need to ask Jesus Christ into your heart ''before'' that last punch is punched, before you stand before the great judgement thrown. Being good, or doing good will not get you into Heaven. So PLEASE, I beg you. eternity is a very long time to suffer in the fires of hell. PLEASE, consider asking the Lord into your heart. Do it today. Please!

Until next time, God bless and God save.

2010-10-18T16:40:00.000-07:00

Jeremiah 18:7
At what instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to pluck up, and to pull down, and to destroy it;
Jeremiah 18:8
If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turn from their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them.
Jeremiah 18:9
And at what instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to build and to plant it;
Jeremiah 18:10
If it do evil in my sight, that it obey not my voice, then I will repent of the good, wherewith I said I would benefit them.

Now I know that this was about Israel. But it could just as well be about the USA. After all, we started out as a Christian nation. The people of this nation have wondered away from God. It's almost like Christians are in the minority.

God has blessed the nation for many years, but as we turn away from Him, Just as He did Israel, He is turning His back on us. Jeremiah went through the streets and proclaimed the words of God to the city, but was mocked and rejected by the people. Just as Christians in this day, are trying to spread the word of God, We too now are mocked and ridiculed for our Christian beliefs.

I know I've tried many time to get this point across, but truly we as a nation need to get back to where we started from. As God fearing, Bible reading, faith filled Christians.

Until next time God bless and God save.

stumbling blocks

2010-10-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

You know sometimes stumbling blocks are good. Even as I was making my plans to go to the beach, I was saying a prayer to the Lord. My prayer was "" If You don't want us to go, but a stumbling block in our way''''. This morning Willard took his blood pressure and it was 203 over 118. I gave him one of my Micardis. His BP has come down now, but he will be getting himself to the doc's first thing tomorrow.

We humans want what we want. Most, never taking a thought to what God's will for us may be. But I live to serve the Lord the best I can. And I do ask Him about the small things. He cares about the little things just as much as he does the big ones.

For some reason, God said no. For some reason He wants us to stay home today. It may be that we were saved from having an accident or something. Or it may be that it's not about us at all. It may be about someone else. Someone may need us, and if we go to the beach, we won't be here for them. It could be one of a million reasons. I don't question God. I just have faith that whatever the reason, it is good and righteous.
Roman 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Until next time God bless and God save. And Jean, catch bunches of fish!!!!

Going fishing

2010-10-16T12:09:00.000-07:00

Well sir, I am so excited. I am feeling much better. Laying in the bed yesterday for a fifteen minute rest, I had a wonderful idea. Now would be the best time to go to the beach. The fish are biting ''I hope''. It's the right time of the year any way for spots. I will feel better now, than I will until my treatments are finished. Because I know that after each treatment, it will be tougher and tougher to get my energy back. I hopped up without taking my nap and talked to Willard about it. He said he thought it was a good idea. Sooooo, Tomorrow "God willing" I'm going fishing,Yea............ .Willard got a toboggan of his, and I put a teal bow on it. He said he didn't want me on the pier without something on my head. Since I have less hair now, he's afraid I'll catch a cold or something. Here's what it looks like. I know yuck, but if it keeps me well. It'll be alright. Well wish me luck, I do hope we all catch something. Jean and Johnny will be going too. Jean sounded about as excited as I am.

Until next time God bless and God save. And God pleas let me catch some fish. It's my last chance until next year.

2010-10-14T09:02:00.000-07:00

As you can see I finally got to take my bandages off where they put my port. I guess you can see my neck where they cut to get to my jugular. That kind of bothers me because you can see the plastic tube under my skin. It bothers me because, I am thinking how easy it would be to move the wrong way, or hit it accidentally and it come loose.

I went to doctor Vyas this morning to get some blood drawn. He'll fax the results to Doctor Gehrig. That makes it nice not to have to travel all the way to Chapel Hill just for blood test.

Willard got a flu shot while we were there. I already got mine in Chapel Hill when I got my first chemo treatment.

Weldon and Kay was there. Willard came up from behind Kay and said hey beautiful. He was trying to startle her, But she recognized his voice and just looked up and smiled that sweet smile she has. And of course Willard and Weldon started talking about hunting so that was the conversation until we were called back. Gotta love'em, lol.

I would like each one of you to say a prayer for Mr. Robert Scoggins. He just found out that he has colon cancer. It's apparently to large to do any surgery right now, so they are going to do radiation first to reduce the size of it. He really could use our prayers right now and on into the future, as he fights this hateful and evil disease called cancer. Please write his name down on your prayer list and go to the Lord each day in prayer for him. And let's not forget my sister in law Janice Moore, who continues to fight.

You know pretty soon our Lord is going to come, in a twinkling of an eye and take us away from all this sickness and suffering. Oh, I can hardly wait for the sound of the trumpets, sounding His return.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-12T09:52:00.000-07:00

OK so Willard and Weldon went to the beach this morning to go fishing. Willard called just a few minutes ago and said that they hadn't caught anything, so they were on their way back home, after stopping by Dawn's for a few minutes, to see her. I was sure hoping that they would catch a bunch of fish. Not for the sake of having the fish, as much as Willard having a good time. He so deserves a good time, with all that he's been though lately.

I was going on line the other day, and typed up the name of my doctor in Chapel Hill. Guess what, not only was she in the Chapel Hill registry of doctors, there was also a picture of her that was taken on an earlier date. Here she is looking a bit younger than she is now. Dr. Gehrig she's a pretty good doctor to have around.

Oh well, that's about all I have for today. God bless you all, and I pray that many lost souls be won for Christ today.

2010-10-11T04:16:00.000-07:00

Ok. so as you can see my face is really swollen this morning, although I do seen to have a bit more color in my face. Still having a bad hair day though, lol. My eyes, as you can see are still glassy looking. I am having some real bad joint pains. all over my body. Hey Janice you didn't tell me about that. It's steady pain, plus shooting pains that really hurt. I'm losing a bunch of hair every time I brush my hair in the morning. At lease a hundred. Willard said they're all coming from the top of my head. He said maybe I had ought to go hat shopping soon, so my head would be protected from the coolness. He said that's what hair does is keep your head warm. He's worried I may catch a cold or something. He's so sweet.

Although I was nausea this morning, it wasn't as bad as yesterday and the days before. So I'm slowly getting better with that.

I had a visit from Joyce and JC yesterday. Poor Joyce is having a Colonoscopy today. She had to take that drewful Golytely yesterday after noon. I felt so sorry for her, I was almost willing to take it for her if it would have done any good. Joyce seens so fragile, and yet she's a strong person. She takes the good and the bad, tosses them around and mixes them up until nothing but good comes out. That's just the person she is. She is an amazing woman, of whom I have so much respect for. And I love her so very much. She's not one of those that talk about doing good, She does good every day of her life, for someone. Like I said she's amazing.

As you go about your day today, just remember to look up in the heavens and thank God for all that He has done in your life.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-10T04:44:00.000-07:00

OK, so I don't look that great this morning. Very bad hair day. But I must say I feel some better this morning. Willard came in the bedroom, while it was still dark outside, with a little milk and my zofron ''nausea medication''. Then he took off up town to Bojangles for our breakfast. He's been cooking every morning, so it being Sunday, he took a day off.

He's studying on his Bible lesson that he will give at the nursing home. I still marvel at the thought of him doing that. When I first started it, there was no way he would do it on his own. I don't even remember how he got started but before long he was teaching mine and had also gotten one Sunday of his own. It just goes to show that no matter who you are, God can use you. Willard is a different sort of person when he's standing up there, telling about the lesson. I know God has His hands on him. I gave up my Sunday because of my health at the time, but Willard keeps his and is doing such a wonderful job.

I hope each of you will let God use you in some way today.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-09T09:22:00.000-07:00

OK, so this is what I look like today. I thought I'd take all of you along with me as I take this journey though chemo and all. As you can see my face looks a bit swollen, my eyes are glassy and the lids are drawn tight. I'm loosing much more hair when I brush my hair, and my eyebrows have already showed signs of hair loss. I feel nauseated most of the time still. I don't seem to have much energy, and have no inclination to do much of anything. I sit in my chair, go lie down, then back and forth, back and forth from chair to bed. Willard is taking it all with his usual patience and understanding care.

Willard did get out of the house some this morning. He went over to Weldon and Kay's for a while. He helped Weldon put up a deer stand. Now anyone that knows the Glover men, know just as soon as the first smell of Fall gets into the air, their minds goes to hunting. That's all they will talk about for the next few months. Each one of them will keep a mental dairy of every doe, buck and fawn they happen to see, so when they get together they can tell the stories. They're already dreaming of the large buck that will be downed. Making room in the freezer, making sure there are enough jars, for those that will can some of their venison. And still they talk about their former hunts, and all the good times they've had, and of course the racks they still have from those former hunts.

Well that's about all I have energy for today, Take care all. And until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-07T05:26:00.000-07:00

It took me ten minutes to take all my medications this morning. I was taking enough as it was, but now with the medications written for by Dr. Gehrig, well we might as well start calling it breakfast. Willard has gone over to Weldon's. He needs a day away just to unwind. I'm not too bad off. I feel a little sickish, I took my pill for that when I was taking all the rest. I'm hoping it will kick in pretty soon. I do feel really tired this morning. Willard took one look at my face and said ''Don't plan to do anything today, I'll pick up something for lunch on the way home. Which is ok with me. I have one of those faces, when I'm not feeling well, you can tell. It's in the eyes according to Willard. He tells me the weakness shows in my eyes. I am so blessed to have such a caring husband. I feel so guilty that I have to depend on him so much. Oh how I want to get well and stay that way for a long, long time. So I can be there for Willard to depend on me for so much more than he can nowadays.

But all in all, God is good to us. We still have way more to praise Him about that we have to complain about. He has His hand on us, and I know without a doubt that I can trust Him no matter what.

Let me tell all of you unsaved people this. If you do not know Jesus Christ as your Lord, Savior and friend, you are missing out on more that any human tongue can speak. There are no words in any language that can tell of the joy, the feeling that no matter what you have a friend closer than any brother, any sister, any other family or non family friend. He's right there beside you all the time. When you want to talk to someone about your problems, He's always there to listen and understand. He can take a burdened heart and but joy and peace in, where once was just darkness and sin. Why not give Jesus a try. He doesn't come in any bottle, can, or pill. He comes from love beyond description. Please think about it, Ask Him into your heart,He's just a pray away.

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-06T15:35:00.000-07:00

So I just couldn't keep these pictures to myself. Here is a picture of Willard dressing to help give me a bath. He can not touch me for 48hrs. But they gave him instructions about making sure that I was bathed all over to wash away the effects of the Chemo on my skin, since I can't take a shower.
He looks so professional don't you thank?
Below is a picture outside of my hospital room.
Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-10-06T13:11:00.000-07:00

Ok so I'm home. I have my port in. They gave me five hours of chemo yesterday, starting at 6pm and finishing up at 11pm. the first chemo was Paclitaxel and the second was Carboplatin. I don't know how long they ran either one, because I slept most of the time. They gave me lots of pain meds plus nausea meds so I didn't really keep up with much. They just told me when they started and woke me when they had finished. All done Ms Glover was real good words to me. Now I won't lie, the port placement still hurts, I'm nauseated, I'm tired, Willard is jumping on me every once in a while to keep me straight. I'm not too good at following doctor's instructions. So Willard has to kinda keep me in place. He's my knight in shining armor, and thank God for him.

The doctor said no company for 48 hours, no being around any children which have have live vaccines ''period''. no touching other people for 48 hours. No one is to use my toilet for 48 hrs. No kissing Willard for 48 hrs. No baths 48 hrs. on and on. Just remembering all this will drive me crazy, thank God I have Willard around to help. I'll keep all informed about the processes of my battle and I the victory I already claim through Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

2010-10-04T14:29:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's my first chemo. They will be putting the port in tomorrow morning and I will be getting the chemo tomorrow afternoon/night.

My sister in law, Janice who has cancer and has been on Chemo for some months now has told me some of the side effects etc. The only thing that really bothered me was when she told me that soft drinks don't taste good anymore. OH!, now anyone that knows me, knows I love my soft drinks. In fact my favorite one was Pepsi One. But I have recently found that the Food Lion brand taste almost like Pepsi One. Close enough that I have started buying it instead on the Pepsi One. Hey 88 cents verses $1.79, you do the math.

Frances called this morning to tell me that Miss Elisabeth passed away. I really do relieve it was a blessing. Although I will miss her tremendously, I know that she is better off. I know that she is in the arms of Jesus right now. Please pray for her family. I know their hearts are broken at the loss of her.

Say a prayer for Willard too. He has to be the strong one more that his share lately. I know he's tired, but he hardly ever says a word.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

2010-10-03T04:19:00.000-07:00

About a week ago, Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad declared to the United Nations that most people in the world believe the United States was behind the terrorist attacks of Sept. 11, 2001.

Okay, so this was the first thing I saw on my home page when I went on my PC this morning. The outrageous claim of a muslin dictator. Yes dictator. This man must be insane to think that the world outside Iran and Turkey believe such nonsense. To think that any American or the American government would sink so low, just to turn the population against muslin's, is ludicrous.

Yes muslin's are indeed coming to the USA. And many of them are what I call sleepers. The sleepers are setting pretty, in their convenient stores, and other places of businesses, waiting to be told by whoever is in charge, whether Binladden or some other leader. They sit at the ready to poison our water systems, to blow up our nuclear power plants, or whatever else destructive thing they can do to destroy our way of life. I believe many are in government office slowly changing laws and ordinances to rid this nation of it's Christian values and way of living. President Obama, of whom I strongly believe to be muslin, has already taken away Christian prayer day, at the capital, and replaced it with a muslin prayer day. I could go on and on. But the truth is, those who believe me, need no more said, and those who don't will never believe anything I say until they're taken and put in prison for being a Christian. It's already against the law in many countries to mention the name of Jesus in public. Canada is one of those countries, if my memory serves me correctly. That's getting pretty close to home "USA". Our ministers have already been told to not preach politics in church. They don't want the Christian leaders to coach their congregations into voting for any other party than the one in office. etc, etc.

But the thing of it is, God is letting scribture fulfill its self. The Bible speaks of these things happening before the end of time. As Jesus Himself said, Watch.

Mt 24:4And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.
Mt 24:5For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
Mt 24:6And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.
Mt 24:7For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
Mt 24:8All these are the beginning of sorrows.
Mt 24:9Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake.
Mt 24:10And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
Mt 24:11And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.
Mt 24:12And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

Friends I'm telling you, It's time to wake up!

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-09-30T05:38:00.000-07:00

People in general, whether Christian or non Christian, tend to ask the question, Why me, when something bad happens in their life. But people who understand that everything that happens in this world in not about self, understands that God is in control. It may not be about you. God may be testing someone else, and you are the object of that test, and not the person being tested.
Susan Sanders told me a story not long ago that told of a couple that had adopted a little girl from another country. Just after they had signed the papers the little girl was taken ill. The child was taken to the hospital in a neighboring country that was more up to date medically. The little girl grew worst and worst daily, and died, but not before the couple learned to love her with all their hearts. As they looked toward Heaven and asked God, Why. Why God did You let us come all this way and go though all that we have, just to lose her? The Holy Spirit gave them the answer they asked. It wasn't about you, It was about the little girl. The little girl had prayed every day for parents who would love her. All the girl wanted was to feel loved by another person. God granted that prayer to her before she died and was taken to the bosom of the giver of all love.

So you see, when bad things happen in your life, it isn't necessarily about you. God has His reasons, and God's reasons are always righteous and just.
Of course sometimes things just happen. Storms, floods and many other disasters in which many people get hurt and die. Does it mean that God has turned His back on His people? No, God has already told us in Matthew 5:45 that what happens to the sinner will also happen to the saved.
That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. We as Christians just need to learn to trust God in all things. Because as I stated before, God is always righteous and just in whatever He does. He has reasons that we as humans can not possibly understand. After all isn't that what faith is all about?
1Peter 4:12
Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
1 Peter 4:13
Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:

Until next time God bless and God save.

2010-09-27T11:36:00.000-07:00

The doctor said everything looked good with my post opt appointment. OK so I finally go the name of my cancer. Here goes.

residual invasive serous adenocarcinoma with adjacent serous endometrial intraepithelial carcinoma.

Now if you're like me, you don't know any more than you did before I put the name.

This is totally a different type cancer than the first. The doctor said it was a much worst cancer and spreads rapidly. I told her today that the devil was trying his best. She said, it wasn't anything that her, me and the Lord could not handle. I gained a new respect for her when she said that. Any doctor that adds faith in with treatment is more than alright in my book. Praise God for doctors like her.

Until next time, God bless and God save.