People in general, whether Christian or non Christian, tend to ask the question, Why me, when something bad happens in their life. But people who understand that everything that happens in this world in not about self, understands that God is in control. It may not be about you. God may be testing someone else, and you are the object of that test, and not the person being tested.
Susan Sanders told me a story not long ago that told of a couple that had adopted a little girl from another country. Just after they had signed the papers the little girl was taken ill. The child was taken to the hospital in a neighboring country that was more up to date medically. The little girl grew worst and worst daily, and died, but not before the couple learned to love her with all their hearts. As they looked toward Heaven and asked God, Why. Why God did You let us come all this way and go though all that we have, just to lose her? The Holy Spirit gave them the answer they asked. It wasn't about you, It was about the little girl. The little girl had prayed every day for parents who would love her. All the girl wanted was to feel loved by another person. God granted that prayer to her before she died and was taken to the bosom of the giver of all love.


So you see, when bad things happen in your life, it isn't necessarily about you. God has His reasons, and God's reasons are always righteous and just.
Of course sometimes things just happen. Storms, floods and many other disasters in which many people get hurt and die. Does it mean that God has turned His back on His people? No, God has already told us in Matthew 5:45 that what happens to the sinner will also happen to the saved.
That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. We as Christians just need to learn to trust God in all things. Because as I stated before, God is always righteous and just in whatever He does. He has reasons that we as humans can not possibly understand. After all isn't that what faith is all about?
1Peter 4:12
Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
1 Peter 4:13
Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:


Until next time God bless and God save.

The doctor said everything looked good with my post opt appointment. OK so I finally go the name of my cancer. Here goes.

residual invasive serous adenocarcinoma with adjacent serous endometrial intraepithelial carcinoma.

Now if you're like me, you don't know any more than you did before I put the name.

This is totally a different type cancer than the first. The doctor said it was a much worst cancer and spreads rapidly. I told her today that the devil was trying his best. She said, it wasn't anything that her, me and the Lord could not handle. I gained a new respect for her when she said that. Any doctor that adds faith in with treatment is more than alright in my book. Praise God for doctors like her.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

OK, I've been a bit lazy. To tell the truth I just haven't felt like writing on the blog. I'm not sick or anything. I've just found myself uninspired.

Last Friday Willard and I took Weldon and Kay and J.C. and Joyce out to the Cracker Barrel for breakfast. It was our small attempt at saying thank you to them for all that they have done for us. I have been so blessed my them. You know when you're down and you feel like no one in the world really cares about you. And you see people like these rally behind you. It's just a wonderful feeling. Tears have come to my eyes more than once, as I think of how these four people have really made me feel like a real part of the Glover family. It's one thing to say something, but it's another to really show it. Again and again I just want to say to them ""thank you, from the bottom of my heart"". The Bible reads, ""Matthew 7:20 Wherefore by their FRUITS ye shall know them."" and ""James 3:17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be entreated, full of mercy and good FRUITS, without partiality, and without hypocrisy"". So you see, Weldon, Kay, J.C. and Joyce showed Christ living brightly in them by the things that they did, not only for me, but they are there for anyone that may be in need. I pray God will bless each of them in a big way.

Thanks again to them all.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

That is one of the hardest things to do, for me anyway. Someone said something to me that was really ugly on face book. I hardly know the woman, have never laid eyes on her. I was speaking to David about getting on with his life. This woman whom I wouldn't know if she bumped into me on the side walk said, That I should grow and that I should get my own life straight before giving any more advice. Yep, I was just a little knocked backward, trying to understand why she would say such a thing. She obviously doesn't know me at all. I have a life that I love, and I believe myself to be pretty mature. Although, all that know me, know that I love to kid around. I really hope that she didn't mean my cancer, when she was speaking of getting my own life straightened out, because that would have really been a double dose of mean.

It took me a while to realize that I needed to pray about it. If you'll like me, you don't want to go to the Lord in prayer while you're mad. But in my case that was the exact time I needed to pray. The first thing I asked for was forgiveness for my anger. Then I asked for peace about the whole situation. I kept praying until I found forgiveness in my heart toward the woman.

You know keeping hold of anger can really, really hurt you health, but most importantly it can hurt your relationship with the Lord. I thank God that He has showed His love and mercy unto me, and has helped me have a forgiving heart.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

Adrian Rogers said something that really caught my attention. He said Baptist, but I'm gonna change it to Christians in general ( Pray more for the sick to stay out of Heaven, than they do for the lost to stay out of hell).

Now if you really think about it, you will admit that it's the truth. How many times have we sat in church and heard "this person is sick, that person is having surgery" etc, etc. Yes we all pray for the sick to be healed, and to live.

But how many times have you saw anyone stand up and say" my son, my daughter, my brother, my sister is not saved will you please pray for him or her? And I sincerely doubt that when most pray at their homes, in their private moment with God, that they ask for salvation for the lost ones that they love.

I know a woman "no name" who's husband was over seas in the middle east. He was daily in danger of losing his life in the war efforts. Every time the church doors opened, she was there, asking for prayers for her husband. She has a son who is not saved. Never did she ask for prayer for her lost son. Her husband's life was in danger, yes, but her son's very soul is in danger of going to hell. And still yet, not a prayer request was uttered.

We really do need to pray for the lost souls in this world. I have sons that I know are not saved. I pray for them everyday. I have put prayer request in at church for them. I have asked others to prayer for their salvation. We really do need to bring the lost to God in prayer every time we pray.

I pray that if there is a lost one in your family that they will come to know Christ as their personal Savior, before it's too late. People the clock is ticking down. We will never know when that last minute will strike. But it will! Then it will be too late. If you are not saved yourself, know this. Coming to Christ is the beginning of a life that will never end. Christ makes things so much easier on those whom belong to Him.
Mt 11:28
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Mt 11:29
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
Mt 11:30
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Well it's Monday. I'm feeling much better than I did last week. It would seem that my strength has found it's way back home.lol Willard is at the doctor's office, for his regular check up. He's going in with an attitude. He has his mind made up that he's not going to keep up these " every three months" appointments. Which, I don't blame him all that much. Doctor Vyas wants to take blood test every time. Money, money, money. I don't think anyone needs to have their blood taken every three months, that is unless they really have something wrong with them, that needs to be kept tract of. Willard has high bp, but he has a bp machine, and can keep tract of his bp himself. and he has a very tiny bit of high sugar levels in his blood. 135 is not high enough to call for blood test every three months. After all, Willard also has the little machine and the strips to check his blood sugar levels. I hope he gets his point across to the doc, lol, he was pretty set in his mind when he left.

Doctor Vyas just loves to put a person on meds, just for small irregularities. Take my cholesterol. It was showing a bit high about three months ago. So he gives me a RX for medicine, "which I did not get filled". He has taken blood twice, since then, and not a word about my high cholesterol. lol So you see what I mean?

OK so enough of all that. I hope all of you are well. Take care of yourselves. May each of you find joy in the simple things of this life. And until next time, may God bless you all.

I normally don't watch the news. It just seems to bother me to much. To see all the pain in the world. People hurting all over the earth, from different things. Children being taken form loving parents and killed by someone with a depraved mind. Or taken by some evil person and sold to a sex market. Parents beating their children. Parents locking children up in a room, never letting them see the light of day. And people for the sake of a few thousand dollars killing women and children as was in the case of Jennifer Petit and her two daughters whom were on the news yesterday.

I prayer so intensely for the survivors of that family. I cried as I talked to God of how evil this world was.

Most people sit back in their homes and never think about the misery that is going on in the world we live in. The pure evil that abounds in our own neighborhoods. Drug dealers trying to seduce our children and grandchildren into trying their poisons just the one time. Over and over again they sell their promises of a good time, to younger and younger kids.

There's go much more, so much evilness in the world, it would take me the rest of my life to tell of it all.

And yet, There is still joy to be found. The look on a mother's face as she looks for the first time on her new Born's baby's face. The feeling one gets when achieving victory over something hard worked for. The feeling of love that comes from family and friends.

But most of all the joy we Christians feel from knowing that we are redeemed by God's own Son, Jesus Christ. That's the greatest joy of all.

If I had to look at this world, and did not know Jesus Christ as my Savior and friend. I don't know that I could bare it. No wonder there are more and more depressed people in the world. As more and more look other places than Jesus, for their help and hope. I'll say it again and again, Jesus Christ is the only way to the Heavenly Father.

Now let me ask you this. Do you really want to gamble with your one chance of eternal life, trying to find a way that is not there?
Matthew 7:(13) Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the WAY, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat (14.) Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

Until next time God bless.

Okay, so this morning I felt read good. You know, that ready to go do something feeling. When you feel like you could walk a hundred miles. So I decided I'd go to the grocery store with Willard, and since I felt so good, I decided to walk it, instead on the scooter/cart. I did pretty well down the first four isles, then little by little the shopping cart got harder and harder to push and make the turns around the ends. Buy the time we got over to where the paper products were, Willard was pulling the cart, with me hanging on for dear life. When we go to the checkout, Willard left the cart at the register and helped me to the van. sweat popping out all over my face, a queasy feeling in my stomach as if I would upchuck at any moment. Willard got me in the van and went back inside to finish paying etc for the groceries. The first thing he said was, You're staying home for now on. You're trying to do things too fast.

It just makes me so mad not to be able to do things because I feel so tired all the time. I guess the old body's not what it use to be. I realized, I need to have more patience with myself.

I am so blessed with people who care about me. many of the employees in the store made it a point to speak to me. They let me know that I was in their prayers. One stopped work and came out to the van to speak to me. The Lord Jesus has really blessed me with many friends.

And oh, what a friend I have in Him.

Verse for today=
John 15:15
Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you.

Until next time God bless

OK, So my sister Jean wants me to put some pictures on so she can see my hair since it's been cut. Here you go Jean. 10 inches was cut off. now it's about 5 inches all over my head.


lol I wish I could get rid of fat that easy. Until next time God bless.

Well you might have seen that my avatar is some different. I have gotten soooooo tired of spending so much time drying my hair every day. I have better things to do than hold a hair dryer to my head, twenty to thirty minutes a day.

So guess who cut it. If you guessed Willard, you'd be right. He was so nervous. But considering he has never cut it this short before, I can understand his nervousness.

And too, I just decided that I wasn't going to let chemo treatments take my long hair. It would be my choice, on my time frame. So you see I am not a victim of chemo when it comes to my hair. For that matter any thing else. We are only victims when we let ourselves be victims. Jesus saved us to be victorious, not victims.

Praise His precious name. Let all praise the name of Jesus Christ.

until next time God bless.

Well, Sunday is here. Willard will be going to the nursing home to give the lesson. I think I'll go with him, I might even sing a couple of songs. I'm not for sure, it's how I'll feel a couple of hours from now. I seem to feel OK, for a while and then ''boom'' all my energy just goes. My old body just takes longer to heal sometimes. The doctor still said no bending or picking up anything over five pounds until the 27Th when I go back to see her.

I want to give a very big thank you to my sons Donald and Bobby. They have gotten net flicks and have made my laptop one of the three PCs that can receive it on their contract. You know that was so thoughtful of them to think about doing that. Thanks Donald and Bobby.

Well that's about all this morning. I leave you this to think about.

God is watching you at all times. That being so, do you care that He sees your way of living?
Until next time God bless.

When Larry and Susan was down last week end, Susan was wearing some blue polish on her toenails. I made the comment to her that I really liked it.

I think we all have a kookie side of us. And I think we that are daring, enjoy doing silly little things like painting our toenails blue.

Well Susan done the most terrific thing. She sent me the blue polish. There was this card with the polish.

Well Susan, Willard did indeed put the polish on for me. Thanks so much for the polish. But not only that. By sending me the polish, you also sent me your love and brightened my day. Thanks Susan, for the polish, the laugh, and this warm feeling I have in my heart.

God bless you girl, indeed God bless you plentifully.

AND HERE THEY ARE!! lol

Okay, so yesterday I got the staplers out. It wasn't that bad, except where one of the staplers had gotten turned upside down. I don't know how that happened. The nurse had to go out of the room to get something that looked like needle nose pliers. She got hold of the misdirected staple and turned it to it's rightful position, then removed it. I had one place that didn't heal properly, maybe a quarter of an inch and a inch deep. Willard is having to keep it packed with gauze and dressed with more gauze, so it will heal from bottom to top. It's still not as bad as last time, when the doctor left me with a wound large enough to get two hands in.

There was some excitement in the hospital while we were there. A woman didn't make it in the hospital to give birth, she delivered her baby on the sidewalk out side. There was a code stork given. the entire hospital was locked down, I guess that the code stork is use for missing babies too. The whole staff of the hospital rushed to lock down the hospital. I pray the woman and baby are doing well.

Joyce is cooking chicken and pastry at her house today. She said for us not to fix dinner today, that she would make enough for us too. I'll say it again, she is a saith, and I pray that God will richly bless her for all that she does, not only for Willard and I, but for all she does for anyone she sees in need. Joyce is seriously no ''say so Christian''. She loves the Lord. You can see the Lord Jesus in everything she does. I am so thankful to have a sister in law like her. I can't think of a more perfect verse to fit Joyce that this one. For she really does let her light shine, for the glory of God. Matthew 5:16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

Until next time God bless.

Today, I go get the staples out. All the way to chapel hill. I think by now Willard must know every crack in the road. It does look as if by now, I'd know how to get there, but alas, I've got as much since in direction as a beached whale.

This is just another experience in life. Never had staples, never had staples taken out.

We never know what may be around the corner for us, or behind the closed door we're about to open. Life has a tendency to change things as we know them. I've heard that people don't change. Well I beg to differ. I'm not the same person I was when I was in my twenties and thank God for it. Neither am I the same person I was at thirty, forty or even fifty. People change! Circumstances can change a person. How you are changed, I think depends on whether or not you know Christ. People without Christ go around when trouble strikes blaming God, and anyone else they can find. While people who are serving the Lord, know that it rains on Christians as well as non-Christians. Matthew 5:45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

We put our trust in the Lord, because we know that Jesus has us in His loving care. There is nothing that we as Christians can't handle, because Jesus is right here for us.

All the not so great things that pop up in our lives, are God's way of testing us and refining us. Making us stronger and stronger in faith. As the song goes, Only believe.

Until next time God bless.

Well at lease I got plenty of sleep last night. I wasn't feeling all that well, so at six o:clock yesterday afternoon, I decided to lay down for just a few minutes. haha, I slept until nine o'clock this morning. fifteen hours sleep. I must of needed some rest or something. anyway I know I've been paying for it all day, stiff, and hurting. My back feels like someone hit me with a sledge hammer. I have had a pain running from my lower left abdominal and down my leg, all day. I hope it's nothing serious.

Joyce came earlier and her and Willard cooked supper for us. She is so sweet. That is one woman that I really love. She has always treated me as a member of the family. I know that God is going to have a very special blessing for her. She's a very giving person to everyone she knows. I don't know anyone that knows her, that doesn't love her.

I leave you with this.
Gal 5:22
But the fruit of the Spirit is LOVE, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,

Until next time God bless.

I'd better keep it short this morning. I'm still not feeling too well and I'm in a bad mood. It's real bad when you can't think of anything good to say. oooohhhh let me think.... something good to say.

I have Jesus, He's a friend to me and my Savior, I have a husband that is so very good to me. I even have a son that will put my socks on for me. Okay I'm feeling a little bit better in spirit anyway.

Have you ever notice that when the devil can't get to you in any other way, he waits until you're sick or not feeling well, then the old snake attacks?

You know when Jesus died on the Cross, He died for all the earth. Jesus destroyed death and hell, when He arose. He bruised satan's old head and defeated him. I like to imagine that every time a new soul is saved, Jesus, bruising one more time on that old serpent's head.

I think I'll call on Jesus to use His heal to bruise that old serpent's head again, for all the diseases and all the hurts and pain that satan, the snake that he is, has inflicted upon this earth, on so many million's of people. But most of all for all the lies he's told people to keep them from coming to Jesus Christ. That would make my day, if each one of you would join in with me and ask Jesus to bruise old satan's head for someone you know that is loss in sin, or for someone who is hurting for some reason. Whether it be physical pain or mental pain. Raise your hand to Jesus and say ''bruise him again, Lord ''!

I'd love to see your ''Bruise him again, Lord Jesus'' on the comment place.

Genesis 3:15
And I will put enmity between thee and the woman, and between thy seed and her seed; it shall bruise thy head, and thou shalt bruise his heel.

Hey I feel better!

Until next time God bless.

Well my eyes still are red and scratchy. They feel as if there are fibers from a Brillo pad in them. Once in a while, when I can hardly stand it any more I wash them out with cold water. That's helps for a short time, but little by little the painfulness comes back.

I don't feel that well this morning. I think I've tried to get going, just a little too fast. I think I'll take the rest of the day and just sit back and rest.

I missed my son Bobby's birthday. It was yesterday. He even called and talked for a while. It just never dawned on me that it was the fifth of September. I am so sorry Bobby.

I looked at the calender this morning and realized it was the sixth. So I called him right away. Hopefully he'll forgive me again. No it's not the first time I have forgotten Bobby's birthday. It's not that I forget there is a September fifth, it's that it just kinda sneaks up on me.
Barbara and Yvonne stopped by to see us. They stayed about fifteen minutes before leaving to go have lunch with Joyce and JC, before going back home.

Right now Willard's gone to the grocery store to pick up some stuff we're out of. He said he'd bring me a burger home for lunch.

Things are going pretty well. I am blessed to have a wonderful husband such as Willard. He's one of the good guys.I don't believe there's a mean bone in his whole body. He's such a forgiving person. I've seen times when I wanted to choke someone because of something they said or did to hurt him. But he just takes everything in stride and tells me to just forget about it.
You know some people just don't think about the stuff that comes from their mouths. I'm one of the guilty ones, myself. We hurt people with our tongues just as bad as if we stabbed knifes into them. I think that we all should try harder keep of mouths in check. I know that I myself have hurt people many time by saying something crule and very uncalled for. I think that we consider if we can't get them any other way, We'll say something nasty to them to hurt them. And the only real person we hurt is ourselves. Because everytime we open our mouths for hurt, we hurt our own walk with God. God hears every idle word we speak
Matthew 12:36
But I say unto you, That every IDLE WORD that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment..

Matthew 15:11
Not that which goeth into the MOUTH defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the MOUTH, this defileth a man.

until next time God bless.

Setting here thinking about chemo, I am reminded of a little story I heard a few years ago. Here it goes to the best of my recollection.

A woman having cancer and on chemo went to her mirror to see just how she could better fix her hair that particular day. She never knew what the new day would bring because of her hair loss. Looking into her mirror, she saw three hairs, as she studied on the matter, she decided to part her hair in the middle, having one hair on either side and one flowing down the back of her head. she fixed her hair, sprayed it, to keep in place, then preceded to go on with her day.

The next morning as she gazed into her mirror, she saw that she had only two hairs to fix. As she studied again on the style she would ware for the day, she decided that she'd ware her hair in pigtails. Again she parts her hair in the middle, one hair on either side, sprayed the two fragile hairs in place and went on about her day.

The next morning as she walks over to her mirror, so tired from all the daily routine and treatments, she looked into her mirror to see only one hair remaining on her head. and she considered the one hair, she decided to ware a pony tail for the day. She takes the one hair and combs it to the back of her head, sprays it in place, and then does on with her day.

Now the next morning, she struggles to get out of bed, and on her feet. She walks over to where her mirror is to look and see no hairs on her head. A big smile comes upon her face as she says a little prayer of thanks to God. She said, Thank You God for taking the burden from me, now I don't have to worry how I am going to fix my hair.

The lesson of the story is, It's all about attitude. Where most would see her head and have pity on her. She had no self pity, and looked on each thing as a blessing. She found all the good she could from each circumstance that availed itself in her life. There is good to be found in every circumstance of our lives, it's up to us to look for it. Be of good attitude friends, find the good things that bless your life's daily

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for Good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

until the next time, God bless.

When Joyce and JC came by to bring the seafood platters, I got the most wonderful surprise. Larry, their son and his wife Susan was with them. We had such a wonderful, talkative visit. My living was buzzing with conversation. Larry is a very handsome young man, He really does look much like his grandfather Glover. And he has such a good personality. And the cutest grin in the world. I can easily understand why Susan loves him so much. And Susan, she is so beautiful, inside and out. She's the kind of person that respects all people no matter fat ""like me"" or whatever a person may be. She seems to be a very intelligent person, and well read. I like her a lot. I really was excited that they came to see us.

I'VE GOT PICTURES...................................................

These picture is from left to right JC, Joyce, Larry, and Susan.

And here I just had to have a picture of Susan and me together.

Okay, so don't dare look at my messy house in the background.
Didn't I say don't look. lol.

Until next time, God bless

I'll tell you what, We have eaten like kings and queens the past couple of days. Thursday, Willard's brother and his wife Judy, brought over ''the best'' chicken casserole that I have ever had, string beans, jello topped with whip cream, and a delicious fruit salad.

And then, yesterday, Willard's brother Weldon and his wife Kay, brought over a beef stew that was just out of this world, field peas and her special red velvet cake.

Now let me tell you, anyone whom has never tasted Kay's red velvet cake is really missing something goooooood!

The church ladies-Kathy McAllister, Joyce McLamb and Nan Starling brought over a beautiful fruit basket from the church.

Willard's sister Joyce and her husband JC, will be bringing a fish plate back from the seafood restaurant they frequent in Fayetteville, today.

Oh, the joy of it all.

But let me do something I seldom do, let me be serious for just a minute. From the very bottom of my heart. I want all these people to know just how much you have blessed my heart. Each and every one has given me a feeling of being loved and cared for. It has really meant so very much to me. Thank you so very much.

Now back to not so serious lol. Willard's cleaning house? lol. There's enough dust around to plant seeds in. I'm really trying to obey the doctor and keep myself setting in my chair until Friday when I'll go back to be checked, and these ugly staples taken out. But it's so hard to do. Willard's doing his best to be everything, cook, bottle washer, nurse, husband, dad. He's having a real hard time of it.

And oh joy, David is cleaning in his room too.

I want to get in my sewing room so bad I could scream, but alas that too is not on my can do list.

If I could say one thing about my self today, it would be, Oh, how blessed I am, I am so truly blessed. Wonderful family, wonderful friends, and most of all a wonderful Savior walking by my side. Psalms 68:19
blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation. Selah.

The word ''selah'' means pause, think about what I just said. The Lord is the giver of all that we have. He has really overflowed my cup with blessings. He is the giver of my very salvation. Oh, praise God.

Until next time God bless.

Well I just got back from the doctors office""Vyas"". I have an infection in my eyes, so he gave me eye drops for that. Plus I have stuff growing on my tongue. Where that came from is any ones guess. He wrote me a RX for magic mouth wash. Hey I sure hope it's magic is fast, and can get rid of whatever it is. My tongue looks like I just took a lick off an ice cream cone, less the coldness. lol

There was a young girl at the doc, sitting right at us. She was talking to another woman about how she came in for the free meds, that Dr. Vyas gives to some of his patience's. She told of how Dr. Vyas wanted to examine her vaginally. She stated she didn't think she needed to be checked and had come unprepared for the test. She said something about her under ware. And guess who had to put her two cents in to someones conversation. """"ME"""" yes after all I have just had to have surgery for cancer. So I look at her and say, listen sweetie, you take all the test the doctor wants you to take, He doesn't want to see your under ware, he wants to protect you life. I continued with please take care of yourself, and I finished with the fact that I am fighting cancer at this very moment. She seems more thankful than irritated with me. But I really hope that all women will remember that cancer doesn't care anything about who you are, your social standing, age, race. Cancer could care less. I hope she got the message. I have a funny feeling that I was put there this morning for a reason.

And lastly my friends, Boy, do I hate being the barer of bad news, especially when it's my own. My cancer doc. called, The cancer that I have is not the same as before. It's a very aggressive kind. She wants to get started with chemo just as soon as possible. Sorry to be having to tell it.

I will be having chemo, she said every three weeks for six treatments. So please keep me in your prayers. And remember if you see a bawl head coming your way it just may be me.

Until next time God bless.

Well, I made it again! Oh, come on, grin, you know you're glad. or hmmm maybe not.

Do you really know what's funny to me? The doctor, Dr. Hanna. Well he was telling me the day of my surgery, (27Th) what dangers there were and what may happen, etc, etc. I just sat there politely listening with such a grin on my face, My non concern must have worried him, because he stopped what he was saying in mid sentence and asked, are you understanding what I'm saying to you Ms Glover. I looked at him with that grin still on my face and said, '' My life is not in your hands Dr. Hanna, It's in the Lords hands, and what He has hold on can not be taken by anything or any one''. He looked just a little annoyed and said (Oh, I see) as he proceeded on with the information he needed to tell me.

Night before last'' my last night at the hospital"" I had a most wonderful show of dancing, swirling things in a night display. I was lying in bed , Willard already asleep looking up into the ceiling, I saw a blurred spot, and watched as it began to get bigger and bigger, then started swirling around as it grew. I took off like a comic, tail in rear. Up and down, looped here climbing looping and swirling about as if a child at play. It lasted, I guessed around thirty seconds, and then gone just as it had came. from nowhere into nowhere. When it disappeared, what looked like black snow falling all over the room. I put my hand out to see the flakes falling in front as well as behind my hands.

Lying in bed last night I opened my eyes in the dark and thought about the sceptical of the previous night to discover that it was happening again. Being home in surroundings that I knew, I realized That I had pus and matter in my eyes, and sure enough, when examining my eyes closer, found a pretty good infection going on in especially one of them.

Sorry guys, I guess I'm not quite crazy yet. lol

Until next time God bless. And try smiling when you read this Willard, It's funny.