I'd like to introduce you to my Grand Dad, Alvin Moore. I remember many times when I would sit on his lap, while the two of us would sing David Crocket. Of course I never really said David Crocket, I would sing David Ocket. You see I have a problem with any word with r in it. He use to sit for what seemed like hours trying to teach me to say Grand daddy, Of course all that would come out of my mouth would be And Daddy. I wish that he had lived long enough to hear me say it right, but he had a heart attack on the way home from work and died. I don't have any bad memories of my grand dad, all are memories of playing games, singing while sitting on his lap. I remember his smile like it were yesterday. He had a kindness about him, and a fun loving nature. I found out later in life that the fun loving nature may have come from his drinking. Many men back then would take a drink, but whether the smile come from a bottle or from his heart. I remember feeling loved.

I remember his corpse laying in the widened hallway, which was made into a sitting room. It was common back then to have the body in the homes, rather than a funeral parlor. I remember laying in bed that night, afraid of his corpse in the other room. Now whether I dreamed this or it actually happened is any one's guess. I have always truly believed it was real. I saw my grand daddy standing at the foot of my bed, with his face smiling back at me. As I saw this, the feeling came over me that he was there to say goodbye, and let me know he loved me.

It took me many years of speech therapy to say the r words. I have regretted my whole life that he never heard me say Grand Daddy. But when I get to Heaven I'm going to look him up, ''first thing'' and say hi to my grand dad.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

I've been going through a lot of bone pain the last two or three days. Plus deep muscle pain and or cramps. Dr. Gehrig's nurse Becky said it was myalgia/arthralgia, which last anywhere from three to five days. All I know is it hurts real bad. I took two darvocets and they didn't even touch it. Becky said to get some clearitin ''an allergy medication'' to take. She said that would help. Don't ask me! I just follow instructions, I took my first one this morning, so we'll see. I'm lots better this morning than any day, since Monday. This chemo really pulls a person down. I get tired real easy. I can't even imagine what Janice and Robert Scoggins must be going through with getting it weekly. Please remember to keep them in your prayers. And please let's pray for a cure to this evil disease.

Well David's daughter was born the 28th, right before twelve midnight. Her name is Renee Lynn Ruggles. No, they didn't give it David's last name. Names and all put aside, David seems to be so very proud of his little girl.

Now anyone that knows me, knows that I don't approve of what happened. But what is done is done. Here's another baby born into the world out of wed lock. I don't know if they will ever get married or not. I've put it all in the Lord's hands, for only He can straighten such a mess as this.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Sharing photos

I thought I'd just share some photos with you today.

Here's a photo of my button cap. Willard didn't care to much for this one. I think he thinks it's tacky. But gee wiz, I love tacky.

Here's the first bag of chemo, with the saline in the other bag. I should have taken another on with all the bags on it, but I was so drunk from the benadryl they gave me, I could hardly keep my eyes open.

And here Willard, being ever so patient with all of it. Getting me drinks and salad from the lunch room.

You know he's the love of my life. The dream I dreamed of. The prayer I prayed for. God really blessed me with this wonderful man. I thank God every day for him .

Until next time God bless and God save.

UGGGGGH, I'll make this short today. Willard and I left home at five thirty this morning. We got home at five o:clock this afternoon. We spent the whole day watching as six or seven '"'I lost count"" IV bags slowly dropped through the machine and into my port. I'm sick, I already feel bad. It's like I've swam the English Chanel in a day. Even though I fell this bad I know that the Lord is watching out for me.
You know it's kind of sad. If Sandra Bullock had trusted the Lord to have her back, instead of Jessie James. She would not have been disappointed.

Still praying for Robert Scoggins, Janice Moore, and all that have this evil thing called cancer.

Until next time God bless, God save, And God heal.

I was reading in Jeremiah this morning of how the people of the tribe of Judah refused to give up their idol worship, and serve God. They believed that God could not give them what the queen of heaven could. They had no faith in God whatsoever.
Jer 44:17
But we will certainly do whatsoever thing goeth forth out of our own mouth, to burn incense unto the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto her, as we have done, we, and our fathers, our kings, and our princes, in the cities of Judah, and in the streets of Jerusalem: for then had we plenty of victuals, and were well, and saw no evil.
Jer 44:18
But since we left off to burn incense to the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto her, we have wanted all things, and have been consumed by the sword and by the famine.
Jer 44:19
And when we burned incense to the queen of heaven, and poured out drink offerings unto her, did we make her cakes to worship her, and pour out drink offerings unto her, without our men?

Are not the people of this date and age doing the same thing? Putting worldly possessions above spiritual blessings. Most people have their hands out, waiting for the next possession to come their way. These people, whom, enough is never enough. When they get our homes over stocked with stuff, they build, buy or even rent storage buildings to keep the over flow in. Even though they have everything they need, and lots of stuff they don't need, still they're never happy.

What makes a person happy is a relationship with the Lord. Some people, especially unsaved ones, will never know the joy that is in the heart of us who have Jesus as their Lord and Savior. Jesus is all you'll ever need! He will supply all your needs.

Unless of course you're like the people in Jeremiah's time, and don't care about the spiritual, and only care about the carnal.

Oh lost world, Oh lost world, please come back to God, please come to know Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Before it's too late.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Yesterday I would finger comb my hair every once in a while, like most women do, and each time I would do it, my hand was full of hair. I woke up this morning with a pillow full of hair, and so I decided to do as Dr. Gehrig suggested I do when that happened. I went to Wal-Mart and had her use the clippers and get it as short as it would go.
Willard stood ready with the camera, and took photos as she went along clipping my hair.
It hurt to get this done, but not as bad as it was hurting seeing my hair fall out little by little.
Here's the photos. You'll notice in the last one she has a teal ribbon on that I gave her.

Until next time God bless and God save.

Have you ever seen or had one of those punch cards that grocery stores give you. Where they punch out places for each hundred dollars. Well, when the card is fully punched, then the owner of the card can watch as the person at the counter rubs off the gold stuff and see what is beneath it. Most times it will be just a dollar or so.

Now I know it's crazy asking you to do this, but please do it anyway. I want you to think of yourself as the punch card. You're freshly off the printer, ever the ink is not quite dry. Now for each good deed you do, you will get punched, and that's a good feeling to you. Now Year after year you get fuller and fuller of punches, you're feeling so good about all you have done for humanity. You deem yourself to be one of the best punch cards there is. You've never really done anything wrong, always been kind to people. Always given to the poor, etc, etc. After all that's why you're full of punches. But here you are standing in Heaven, in the face of the Holy Father of all punch cards, who will "" you think"" rub away the gold place. But He tells you He's the wrong one, But it's too late now. You should have asked another to rub it off before your last punch was punched.

Now of course you're not a punch card, but friend you need to ask Jesus Christ into your heart ''before'' that last punch is punched, before you stand before the great judgement thrown. Being good, or doing good will not get you into Heaven. So PLEASE, I beg you. eternity is a very long time to suffer in the fires of hell. PLEASE, consider asking the Lord into your heart. Do it today. Please!

Until next time, God bless and God save.

Jeremiah 18:7
At what instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to pluck up, and to pull down, and to destroy it;
Jeremiah 18:8
If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turn from their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them.
Jeremiah 18:9
And at what instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to build and to plant it;
Jeremiah 18:10
If it do evil in my sight, that it obey not my voice, then I will repent of the good, wherewith I said I would benefit them.

Now I know that this was about Israel. But it could just as well be about the USA. After all, we started out as a Christian nation. The people of this nation have wondered away from God. It's almost like Christians are in the minority.

God has blessed the nation for many years, but as we turn away from Him, Just as He did Israel, He is turning His back on us. Jeremiah went through the streets and proclaimed the words of God to the city, but was mocked and rejected by the people. Just as Christians in this day, are trying to spread the word of God, We too now are mocked and ridiculed for our Christian beliefs.

I know I've tried many time to get this point across, but truly we as a nation need to get back to where we started from. As God fearing, Bible reading, faith filled Christians.

Until next time God bless and God save.

stumbling blocks

You know sometimes stumbling blocks are good. Even as I was making my plans to go to the beach, I was saying a prayer to the Lord. My prayer was "" If You don't want us to go, but a stumbling block in our way''''. This morning Willard took his blood pressure and it was 203 over 118. I gave him one of my Micardis. His BP has come down now, but he will be getting himself to the doc's first thing tomorrow.

We humans want what we want. Most, never taking a thought to what God's will for us may be. But I live to serve the Lord the best I can. And I do ask Him about the small things. He cares about the little things just as much as he does the big ones.

For some reason, God said no. For some reason He wants us to stay home today. It may be that we were saved from having an accident or something. Or it may be that it's not about us at all. It may be about someone else. Someone may need us, and if we go to the beach, we won't be here for them. It could be one of a million reasons. I don't question God. I just have faith that whatever the reason, it is good and righteous.
Roman 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Until next time God bless and God save. And Jean, catch bunches of fish!!!!

Going fishing

Well sir, I am so excited. I am feeling much better. Laying in the bed yesterday for a fifteen minute rest, I had a wonderful idea. Now would be the best time to go to the beach. The fish are biting ''I hope''. It's the right time of the year any way for spots. I will feel better now, than I will until my treatments are finished. Because I know that after each treatment, it will be tougher and tougher to get my energy back. I hopped up without taking my nap and talked to Willard about it. He said he thought it was a good idea. Sooooo, Tomorrow "God willing" I'm going fishing,Yea............ .Willard got a toboggan of his, and I put a teal bow on it. He said he didn't want me on the pier without something on my head. Since I have less hair now, he's afraid I'll catch a cold or something. Here's what it looks like. I know yuck, but if it keeps me well. It'll be alright. Well wish me luck, I do hope we all catch something. Jean and Johnny will be going too. Jean sounded about as excited as I am.

Until next time God bless and God save. And God pleas let me catch some fish. It's my last chance until next year.

As you can see I finally got to take my bandages off where they put my port. I guess you can see my neck where they cut to get to my jugular. That kind of bothers me because you can see the plastic tube under my skin. It bothers me because, I am thinking how easy it would be to move the wrong way, or hit it accidentally and it come loose.

I went to doctor Vyas this morning to get some blood drawn. He'll fax the results to Doctor Gehrig. That makes it nice not to have to travel all the way to Chapel Hill just for blood test.

Willard got a flu shot while we were there. I already got mine in Chapel Hill when I got my first chemo treatment.

Weldon and Kay was there. Willard came up from behind Kay and said hey beautiful. He was trying to startle her, But she recognized his voice and just looked up and smiled that sweet smile she has. And of course Willard and Weldon started talking about hunting so that was the conversation until we were called back. Gotta love'em, lol.

I would like each one of you to say a prayer for Mr. Robert Scoggins. He just found out that he has colon cancer. It's apparently to large to do any surgery right now, so they are going to do radiation first to reduce the size of it. He really could use our prayers right now and on into the future, as he fights this hateful and evil disease called cancer. Please write his name down on your prayer list and go to the Lord each day in prayer for him. And let's not forget my sister in law Janice Moore, who continues to fight.

You know pretty soon our Lord is going to come, in a twinkling of an eye and take us away from all this sickness and suffering. Oh, I can hardly wait for the sound of the trumpets, sounding His return.

Until next time God bless and God save.

OK so Willard and Weldon went to the beach this morning to go fishing. Willard called just a few minutes ago and said that they hadn't caught anything, so they were on their way back home, after stopping by Dawn's for a few minutes, to see her. I was sure hoping that they would catch a bunch of fish. Not for the sake of having the fish, as much as Willard having a good time. He so deserves a good time, with all that he's been though lately.



I was going on line the other day, and typed up the name of my doctor in Chapel Hill. Guess what, not only was she in the Chapel Hill registry of doctors, there was also a picture of her that was taken on an earlier date. Here she is looking a bit younger than she is now. Dr. Gehrig she's a pretty good doctor to have around.








Oh well, that's about all I have for today. God bless you all, and I pray that many lost souls be won for Christ today.

Ok. so as you can see my face is really swollen this morning, although I do seen to have a bit more color in my face. Still having a bad hair day though, lol. My eyes, as you can see are still glassy looking. I am having some real bad joint pains. all over my body. Hey Janice you didn't tell me about that. It's steady pain, plus shooting pains that really hurt. I'm losing a bunch of hair every time I brush my hair in the morning. At lease a hundred. Willard said they're all coming from the top of my head. He said maybe I had ought to go hat shopping soon, so my head would be protected from the coolness. He said that's what hair does is keep your head warm. He's worried I may catch a cold or something. He's so sweet.

Although I was nausea this morning, it wasn't as bad as yesterday and the days before. So I'm slowly getting better with that.

I had a visit from Joyce and JC yesterday. Poor Joyce is having a Colonoscopy today. She had to take that drewful Golytely yesterday after noon. I felt so sorry for her, I was almost willing to take it for her if it would have done any good. Joyce seens so fragile, and yet she's a strong person. She takes the good and the bad, tosses them around and mixes them up until nothing but good comes out. That's just the person she is. She is an amazing woman, of whom I have so much respect for. And I love her so very much. She's not one of those that talk about doing good, She does good every day of her life, for someone. Like I said she's amazing.

As you go about your day today, just remember to look up in the heavens and thank God for all that He has done in your life.

Until next time God bless and God save.

OK, so I don't look that great this morning. Very bad hair day. But I must say I feel some better this morning. Willard came in the bedroom, while it was still dark outside, with a little milk and my zofron ''nausea medication''. Then he took off up town to Bojangles for our breakfast. He's been cooking every morning, so it being Sunday, he took a day off.

He's studying on his Bible lesson that he will give at the nursing home. I still marvel at the thought of him doing that. When I first started it, there was no way he would do it on his own. I don't even remember how he got started but before long he was teaching mine and had also gotten one Sunday of his own. It just goes to show that no matter who you are, God can use you. Willard is a different sort of person when he's standing up there, telling about the lesson. I know God has His hands on him. I gave up my Sunday because of my health at the time, but Willard keeps his and is doing such a wonderful job.

I hope each of you will let God use you in some way today.

Until next time God bless and God save.

OK, so this is what I look like today. I thought I'd take all of you along with me as I take this journey though chemo and all. As you can see my face looks a bit swollen, my eyes are glassy and the lids are drawn tight. I'm loosing much more hair when I brush my hair, and my eyebrows have already showed signs of hair loss. I feel nauseated most of the time still. I don't seem to have much energy, and have no inclination to do much of anything. I sit in my chair, go lie down, then back and forth, back and forth from chair to bed. Willard is taking it all with his usual patience and understanding care.

Willard did get out of the house some this morning. He went over to Weldon and Kay's for a while. He helped Weldon put up a deer stand. Now anyone that knows the Glover men, know just as soon as the first smell of Fall gets into the air, their minds goes to hunting. That's all they will talk about for the next few months. Each one of them will keep a mental dairy of every doe, buck and fawn they happen to see, so when they get together they can tell the stories. They're already dreaming of the large buck that will be downed. Making room in the freezer, making sure there are enough jars, for those that will can some of their venison. And still they talk about their former hunts, and all the good times they've had, and of course the racks they still have from those former hunts.

Well that's about all I have energy for today, Take care all. And until next time God bless and God save.

It took me ten minutes to take all my medications this morning. I was taking enough as it was, but now with the medications written for by Dr. Gehrig, well we might as well start calling it breakfast. Willard has gone over to Weldon's. He needs a day away just to unwind. I'm not too bad off. I feel a little sickish, I took my pill for that when I was taking all the rest. I'm hoping it will kick in pretty soon. I do feel really tired this morning. Willard took one look at my face and said ''Don't plan to do anything today, I'll pick up something for lunch on the way home. Which is ok with me. I have one of those faces, when I'm not feeling well, you can tell. It's in the eyes according to Willard. He tells me the weakness shows in my eyes. I am so blessed to have such a caring husband. I feel so guilty that I have to depend on him so much. Oh how I want to get well and stay that way for a long, long time. So I can be there for Willard to depend on me for so much more than he can nowadays.

But all in all, God is good to us. We still have way more to praise Him about that we have to complain about. He has His hand on us, and I know without a doubt that I can trust Him no matter what.

Let me tell all of you unsaved people this. If you do not know Jesus Christ as your Lord, Savior and friend, you are missing out on more that any human tongue can speak. There are no words in any language that can tell of the joy, the feeling that no matter what you have a friend closer than any brother, any sister, any other family or non family friend. He's right there beside you all the time. When you want to talk to someone about your problems, He's always there to listen and understand. He can take a burdened heart and but joy and peace in, where once was just darkness and sin. Why not give Jesus a try. He doesn't come in any bottle, can, or pill. He comes from love beyond description. Please think about it, Ask Him into your heart,He's just a pray away.

Until next time God bless and God save.

So I just couldn't keep these pictures to myself. Here is a picture of Willard dressing to help give me a bath. He can not touch me for 48hrs. But they gave him instructions about making sure that I was bathed all over to wash away the effects of the Chemo on my skin, since I can't take a shower.
He looks so professional don't you thank?
Below is a picture outside of my hospital room.
Until next time God bless and God save.

Ok so I'm home. I have my port in. They gave me five hours of chemo yesterday, starting at 6pm and finishing up at 11pm. the first chemo was Paclitaxel and the second was Carboplatin. I don't know how long they ran either one, because I slept most of the time. They gave me lots of pain meds plus nausea meds so I didn't really keep up with much. They just told me when they started and woke me when they had finished. All done Ms Glover was real good words to me. Now I won't lie, the port placement still hurts, I'm nauseated, I'm tired, Willard is jumping on me every once in a while to keep me straight. I'm not too good at following doctor's instructions. So Willard has to kinda keep me in place. He's my knight in shining armor, and thank God for him.

The doctor said no company for 48 hours, no being around any children which have have live vaccines ''period''. no touching other people for 48 hours. No one is to use my toilet for 48 hrs. No kissing Willard for 48 hrs. No baths 48 hrs. on and on. Just remembering all this will drive me crazy, thank God I have Willard around to help. I'll keep all informed about the processes of my battle and I the victory I already claim through Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

Tomorrow's my first chemo. They will be putting the port in tomorrow morning and I will be getting the chemo tomorrow afternoon/night.

My sister in law, Janice who has cancer and has been on Chemo for some months now has told me some of the side effects etc. The only thing that really bothered me was when she told me that soft drinks don't taste good anymore. OH!, now anyone that knows me, knows I love my soft drinks. In fact my favorite one was Pepsi One. But I have recently found that the Food Lion brand taste almost like Pepsi One. Close enough that I have started buying it instead on the Pepsi One. Hey 88 cents verses $1.79, you do the math.

Frances called this morning to tell me that Miss Elisabeth passed away. I really do relieve it was a blessing. Although I will miss her tremendously, I know that she is better off. I know that she is in the arms of Jesus right now. Please pray for her family. I know their hearts are broken at the loss of her.

Say a prayer for Willard too. He has to be the strong one more that his share lately. I know he's tired, but he hardly ever says a word.

Until next time, God bless and God save.

About a week ago, Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad declared to the United Nations that most people in the world believe the United States was behind the terrorist attacks of Sept. 11, 2001.

Okay, so this was the first thing I saw on my home page when I went on my PC this morning. The outrageous claim of a muslin dictator. Yes dictator. This man must be insane to think that the world outside Iran and Turkey believe such nonsense. To think that any American or the American government would sink so low, just to turn the population against muslin's, is ludicrous.

Yes muslin's are indeed coming to the USA. And many of them are what I call sleepers. The sleepers are setting pretty, in their convenient stores, and other places of businesses, waiting to be told by whoever is in charge, whether Binladden or some other leader. They sit at the ready to poison our water systems, to blow up our nuclear power plants, or whatever else destructive thing they can do to destroy our way of life. I believe many are in government office slowly changing laws and ordinances to rid this nation of it's Christian values and way of living. President Obama, of whom I strongly believe to be muslin, has already taken away Christian prayer day, at the capital, and replaced it with a muslin prayer day. I could go on and on. But the truth is, those who believe me, need no more said, and those who don't will never believe anything I say until they're taken and put in prison for being a Christian. It's already against the law in many countries to mention the name of Jesus in public. Canada is one of those countries, if my memory serves me correctly. That's getting pretty close to home "USA". Our ministers have already been told to not preach politics in church. They don't want the Christian leaders to coach their congregations into voting for any other party than the one in office. etc, etc.

But the thing of it is, God is letting scribture fulfill its self. The Bible speaks of these things happening before the end of time. As Jesus Himself said, Watch.

Mt 24:4And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.
Mt 24:5For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
Mt 24:6And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.
Mt 24:7For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
Mt 24:8All these are the beginning of sorrows.
Mt 24:9Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake.
Mt 24:10And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
Mt 24:11And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.
Mt 24:12And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

Friends I'm telling you, It's time to wake up!

Until next time God bless and God save.