In my last blog, I mentioned something about being in the waiting room as my mother died in the intensive care room that she was in. A few people in my life know what I saw that day, but only a few. I have decided that I don't mind if the whole world knows of my vision on that day. You see, when I saw my mother lying on the bed gasping for every breath, I lost it. Someone should have slapped me, or something. You’ve heard that people that are hysterical sound like they’re laughing when actually they're crying aloud. Well, that's what happened to me. I could not stay in the room, even though I wanted to for my mother's sake. In some way, I feel like I deserted her in her most desperate time. But as I said in my last blog I just do not have it in me to watch a person die. So, a nurse came and helped me into a chair in the waiting room, but not before I almost pulled Janice and Willard both to the floor, them trying to hold me up. The staff at the hospital motioned us into another waiting room where we would have privacy.


I remember putting my hands over my eyes, and saying a prayer, asking God for His comfort. While I was sitting at the table I saw the most beautiful vision of my mother standing in the gates of heaven, smiling. And what I notice most was the peacefulness that enveloped me. It was almost like my mother speaking within my heart, telling me she was okay. From that moment on I was able to have comfort within me and let my mother go.

But the strangest thing about the vision was my mother's hair color. You see, my mother had bleached her hair blonde from her early 20s. Never have I saw her with dark brown hair. In fact I've always thought of my mother as having blonde hair. If I had ever seen a picture of her before the change in hair color, I don't remember it. It was kind of shocking seeing my mother with short brown hair. I've always known her to have long blond hair.

God gave me the ability in a few split seconds to see into eternity. I felt the love of God embrace me, and I felt The comfort that He gives. I felt the joy that my mother had in being there with the Lord. I saw the light that is true light from God. There was no shadow anywhere, because the light seemed to be coming from everywhere. As I said in my earlier blog, I wouldn’t miss Heaven for anything! PRAISE GOD.

I have in my lifetime had many experiences that could only come from God. And I know that I'm not the only one to have such experiences, and thank God for that.

If you have had such experiences please share them with me, and my readers. I know that I will have gotten a blessing from them, and I think that my readers will too. Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness. May God bless and may God save.

Death and Heaven

I remember sitting in the hospital waiting room with my sister Jean when my grandmother Moore died. And I remember setting in another waiting room as my mother died. And then there was Naomi, Willard's aunt who died in a nursing home and his mother, Cora who also died in the nursing home. The latest to depart was my beloved sister in law, Janice Moore. One could say therefore I was accustomed to death. But that would be far from the truth. As some people can, I cannot be in the room where a person is dying. I'm just not strong that way. I never was and I never will be. Think about it, one second there's a person with feelings, thoughts and a lifetime of memories. In the end when the clock strikes and the last breath is taken, there is nothing. The person who once was has departed. I've heard of people who sit with the dying to watch their soul depart. I know that that sounds strange, but I have heard of it. And don't get me wrong; I do believe the Scripture where it tells us
in 2nd Corinthians, We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.
So you could say that the last breath upon this earth is a precursor to the first breath of being reborn into eternity. I get so excited when I think about that. I get excited about eternity and what it may hold for God's children. I know many seem to think that Heaven is all about us humans and our eternity. Some had visions of grassy fields with flowers and an ever blooming spring time. But truly it's not about us humans. Only by God's mercy and grace will we even be allowed to see Heaven. It's all about God. We will be in heaven because we worship and serve Him. Now mind you, I have no idea of how God intends us to worship Him, but that's what we will be there to do. I do know that the Bible tells us that we will be God's Army. To fight for His cause.
 Revelations 19:14 And the armies which were in heaven followed Him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen, white and clean.
So, we will not be running through grassy fields collecting flowers. I don't want to destroy some of your expectations of heaven. Because as I said before I have no idea and neither does any other human. God has left it to each of us individually to hold strong in faith. And we all have different views of what heaven will be. But I don't mind putting on the armor of God and battling for Him. Because he has done so very much for me. Jesus Christ gave his life willingly. No one took it from Him. My life belongs to Him. I gave my life to Him when I accepted Him as Lord and Savior of my life. I gave Him complete control. So no matter what eternity may hold, I trust Jesus, for I know he loves me. God's love is something that no one on this earth will ever understand. You cannot measure it or explain it or see it. You can only feel it in your heart. And although I may not be able to set and watch a person take their last breath. It doesn't mean that I don't love them and that I don't care deeply about them, because I do. I just hope each and every one of you will find the serenity that I have through the love and salvation of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Then we can someday find out what Heaven holds for us hand in hand. I wouldn't miss Heaven for anything!

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

Freedom

Freedom!
All around the world people want freedom. After Adam and Eve sinned, they wanted freedom from God's view, so they hid themselves. Did they get their freedom, no. The Israelites did not want to live under God's laws, so they built a golden calf. Did the Israelites get their freedom from God's law, no.
The Israelites defied God at every turn. God Warning them over many hundreds of years that He would not always strive with them. And finally instead of having to follow God's law, the Babylonians overthrew them and took them as slaves. Then they had absolutely no freedom. Even their religion was forbidden.
Freedom
Is anyone actually free, I mean completely free?
Most people think of freedom as being free from rule and law, or Masters. But freedom can never be acquired. If you have a job you are not free at work, you are following instructions. You'll never free from the rules and regulations of your employer. Even marriage keeps both of the couple, from being free to do their own desire.
 Driving, boating and any kind of others sports or activities all have their rule. You can never be free upon this earth from rules and regulations.
Oh I know, you're thinking about moving to some isolated area in this world, maybe a desert or on top of a mountain where no laws extend. If you are a human being, you're still not free from diseases and sickness. The only way one can be completely free from all earthly things is to not live carnally but live in the spirit. Christ said that if He set you free you are free indeed. You see, we do have to follow the laws and regulations of this carnal world, Jesus instructed us to do so, so we will never be free of some, rule or regulation of law. But we can be free in the spirit. This world and it's higher powers may be able to rule over us. But they never can rule over your mind or your heart. They can't tell you what you should think or how your heart feels.
You know the Lord came to me last night with a message all about freedom. And if I have got up and had written it while it was fresh on my mind, I would have done a much better job. But I was lazy and wouldn't get up. So I apologize that this is not as inspiring as it could have been. If I had just obeyed the Lord, I'm positive that this blog would have inspired maybe one or two of you. I guess what the Lord was trying to tell me, is while on this earth we really can't be free. But we can be free from sin through Jesus Christ, Lord and Savior. Jesus doesn't have that many rules. His rules are, love one another, forgive one another, help one another and love the Lord with all your heart and with all your might. And if you are a child of God redeemed through the blood of God's only begotten son, Jesus Christ, then those things will come and with those things, comes joy. And the more you do these things, the more joy you have.
I am hoping that someone might get a blessing from this blog, even though it's not exactly what it would have been in the middle of the night when God first called me to write it. Love to all.
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness may God bless and may God save.

Spitting on Christ?

All my Christian life, I have thought what evil people they were that spit on Jesus Christ. But something changed my mind today. As I was watching a Christian movie on Netflix earlier, I was taught a lesson. In the movie, a father speaks to a son that is having trouble in his marriage and who is also unsaved. The father says to the son that ignoring the call of Jesus Christ, is like spitting in his face.
Did you know that there are Christians even today that will spit on a Jewish person because of the people who spat on Jesus? And they think that they are doing the right thing. Jesus was all about forgiveness. And besides, least we forget, Jesus Christ was a Jew. So every time a Christian spits on a Jewish person, isn't it the same as spitting on Jesus Christ. If you'll remember the Bible tells us that what we do to people and for people that we also have done unto Christ. Every time you hurt a person, you have also hurt Christ.
Now I'm going to ramble some in this blog because there are a few points that I want to make and if I stay on subject I will not get to make those points. So here I go rambling. Now mind you I am not discluding myself as I write this, because I have done many of the same things that I am speaking of. I have a dis-taste for people who sat in church with their nose high into the sky, with their better than thou attitude. I guess all of us could say we know such people. But if the truth be told we've done it ourselves, and we don't have to be in church to do it. When we treat people as if they are below us, or not as good as us, it's the same as spitting in Jesus's face. Because, Christ loves each and every person exactly the same. From the richest person, to the very poorest. He died, he gave his life for each. He did not suffer more for one than he did the other. And yet even as Christians we have not followed in Christ' footsteps. It's funny how even watching a movie, and the message that is presented is like stepping on your toes. It's a message that I needed to hear, that I needed to be reminded of.
You know God uses many venues to teach us His way, His word, and His love for us. If we have our hearts open, we will hear the message. Christianity is something like falling down and getting up, falling down and getting up, over and over and over, until the day God calls us home. Being a Christian, is not being a better person than anyone else. Being a Christian is knowing that even though we have sinned, God is faithful to forgive us, His mercy is amazing. By mercy God is withholding from us what we deserve. Each of us deserve to die for our sins. But through Jesus Christ not only are we forgiven, but then God's love gives us more. He gives us grace. through Jesus Christ. I pray every day, and every night will salvation for my family, for my country and for the world. Whether they accept Jesus as Lord and Savior now or when Jesus comes back to rule and reign as king of kings and Lord of lords, they will bow on their knees now or then. Every knee shall bow, and every tongue shall confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.
Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

Reject evil.

The next time you're outside, take a look at a tree. And as you're looking at the tree, think this thought. Mankind has choices. But the tree has none. Mankind can cut the tree down, and use its wood for so many different things. We could use that wood for furniture, to make our lives more comfortable. We could use that wood for homes to keep us safe and warm. We could use that wood for bridges to span the wide, ever rolling rivers. We could use that wood for paper products. And we have a choice when using paper from what once was a beautiful tree created by God for various purposes. The paper could be used for pornographic material or for many other ungodly things. The paper could be used in the schools, to educate our children. But I think the most wonderful thing that comes from the paper, from the tree created by God, is the Word Of God. Sheets of paper, printed with the marvelous and wonderful words of Jesus Christ himself. The words saved for centuries, so our eyes could see the word of God. So our ears could hear the word of God. So our tongue could speak the word of God. So we could teach the word of God to those who do not know it's treasures.


It's mankind, whom make the decisions of what that great old tree, bareing rings which tell it's age, will become.
Every time you pass by a magazine rack, with Playboy's, Hustler and all those other dirty magazines. Just give thought to a creation of God, a beautiful sturdy tree that could have been use for so much good now dawns the images of satan. What an awful shame!
Mt 7:17 Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
It's not the trees themselves that bring forth evil, it's the human being that decides what to do with them.
Humanity needs to clean up our minds and hearts. And reject evil.
Just saying!
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness, may God bless and save.

I received a phone call earlier with the news that Mr. Jack Bounden had passed away. Mr. Jack as I called him was a resident at Golden Years. Nursing Home. And I've said this before, but it's worth repeating. When one has been in the company of people for many years, one starts to feel like family. And that's kind of how Willard and I both feel about Mr. Jack. We will sorely miss him when we go back to Golden Years to give the Sunday school lesson and to sing. Mr. Jack would often ask me to sing," Why Me Lord". And every time I would get to the park where it goes" Lord help me Jesus, I've wasted it so, help me Jesus I know what I am. And now that I know that I've needed You so, help me Jesus my souls in your hand". Mr. Jack would start squalling, Tears would run from his eyes, and he would have the look at anguish on his face. Well one day I decided to ask him what was it about the song that touched him. He told me that in his life, there were so many wasted years before he was saved. So many opportunities that he had missed. And I really did understand exactly what he was talking about. I have so many years that I also wasted doing things my way. And just maybe if I had of had Jesus in my life in my early years maybe just maybe I may have finished school and have really done something really special with my life. You see I have an eighth grade education, and I guess some of you may have noticed that in my blog and other writings I most likely put punctuations wrong and in the wrong place. And if I didn’t have my little friend the Dragon to spell correctly for me as I speak, poor Willard has to come up with the proper spelling for words for me, I’d be in a bit of trouble. When I was raising my children every once in a while they'd complain about something, and I would say to them,” well isn't that just T.U.F.F.’’? spelling the word very clear and slowly. I said and spelled the word the way I had always heard it from my grandmother. Isn't that T.U.F.F? Lol. I had no idea that tough was spelled tough. In fact if it were not for my ignorance, my son Michael would not have had the argument with the teacher about his spelling test where he misspelled the word. It seems that he believed me more than the teacher. In fact he told the teacher she was wrong that his mommie knew how to spell it right. Lol embarrassment!


But anyway back to Mr. Jack. He will be sorely missed, he was like family to Willard and me. And you know, Mr. Jack had it right. Anything we do before we have Jesus in our lives are just wasted years. It's years that we look back on with regret that they were wasted and empty of anything that really mattered. Wasted years that we can never get back.

Please say a prayer with Willard and me for Mr. Jack's family. That God may bring them comfort in their time of sorrow.

Ps 23:4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

The Lord is indeed Jack’s comfort. And I just give thanks that Mr. Jack did know the Lord. I can say with confidence that Jack really loved the Lord with all his heart.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, may God bless and God save.

Yesterday while getting my chemo, I heard a nurse talking to another nurse, about a patient. This patient was evidently in grave condition. The words that the nurse spoke just stuck to me like glue. I still cannot shake those words off. The words were, and I quote" it's the quality of life, and not the quantity". And you know I've heard many people say that, and in time I also have spoken the same words. But they truly don't know what they're talking about, and until one gets in the position of life versus death, or knows how a person really feels about life or death, they have no right to offer any opinion. And remember now, I have said those words too, but not any more, I promise!


Now I can tell you this, and this is just my opinion. But there's quality in life until you take the last breath. Seeing the smiles of the people you love and cherish, this is quality. Knowing that you have touched someone, in some way, this is quality. If I do nothing but crocheted something for someone, hoping that they will enjoy the object I crocheted for them, then that is quality. Right now, I'm in the process of quilting quilts. The belief that someday, someone, will obtain these quilts and gain some joy from them, is quality.

A person with cancer, or any other kind of debilitating or life-threatening disease can do one of two things. They can either sit around and feel sorry for themselves and wait until the Grim Reaper arrives. Or they can make the most of every minute that they are blessed to have life. I choose life.

I'm the kind of person that cannot just sit and watch TV. I've got to be doing something else. Whether it's on the Internet, quilting, crocheting or whatever I can find to do. Oh I forgot I've also started to paint again, but unfortunately I have found that I have lost my touch, and I have found that I’m not nearly as good as I used to be. But that's not saying I'm going to quit trying, cause anyone that knows me, knows I truly never give up.

And I would like to say this, I am not boasting when I speak about the things I do. Because all things that I do, I am led to do by the Holy Spirit of God. None of us do good, in my opinion without being led to do so by our most Holy God.

And so I leave this verse with you as a reminder that the Holy Spirit all the most Holy God walks along beside us each and every day, helping us through the bad times, and staying with us through all other times.

Philippians 1:6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:.

And please remember this. Until you’ve walked in others shoe don’t give the opinion that death would be better for them. God knows what’s in a person’s heart and mind, and He and only He knows when death is in the right time. Praise be to God.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

PS> to all the girls at Thomas Drug store….Willard sends his deepest gratitude and love to you all. He and I truly adore you all. You all are bound to be the greatest pharmaceutical staff in the world. Your love and your outstanding care for all your customers make you the number one in our opinion. We love you all.