Well it seems that after Dr. Gehrig told me I could not have any more radiation, that she thinks it necessary that I do have it. I didn't ask why. Although I did ask her if it was positively necessary. Her answer was yes it was. You know, I guess human nation is, sometimes just not wanting to know. I'm there, I just don't want to know. I prefer just leaving it in God's hands. Oh I know that some of you would say it was cowardice, and not wanting to hear bad news, I'd have to say to that, you may be right. But one verse in the Bible keeps coming to my mind, as I ponder over this. ''Lord I believe, help me with my unbelief.'' But all in all, I do trust God with all that I have, all that I am. There's nothing that He doesn't know about me. He knows I'm not perfect. He knows that at times my faith is weak. and He knows when it's strong. He knows the most enter most depths of my heart, because He has searched it. Just as He searches all mankind's hearts. Some people may be able to fool the people around them. But you can't fool God.

Until next time God bless and God save.