My brother, Jerry Moore, who lives in Uniontown Pennsylvania called earlier. It was real nice hearing from him. It's been a few months since I've heard from him. It's really a shame, but with my scheduled appointments with this doctor and that doctor I haven't even thought about calling him. And I'm sure with his schedule of working and spending all the time he can with his grandson, Charlie, well, I guess we both just kept putting it off until tomorrow. I suppose we all know how that goes. He was asking about my situation of the tumor getting bigger. I explained things the best I could.
Not even five minutes passed and Jean my sister calls. She asked if Jerry had called me and I said yes. She asked what did he asked me, and I told her the conversation. She told me an unnamed person had called my brother Jerry telling him that I had given up.
I don't know who this person was, but for their information and all others I have not given up. It's true that I pray for God's will, because we all know that in the end, God's will will be done. Yes, I would like to live many more years. I have many things that I want to do. I have more quilts that I would like to make, more Afghans that I would like to crochet. Many more fishing trips that I would like to take. But that's all in God's hand.
I'm not afraid of death, although I am afraid of what kind of death. I imagine we all would like to go in our sleep. In fact I pray many times for God to take me in my sleep rather than suffer with cancer. But God's will not only will be done, but needs to be done. God has his reasons for everything that he allows upon each and every one of us. There is a reason why God has allowed me and millions of other people to have cancer. We will never know while on this earth, why. Everything that God does has a reason. It may not be for me, but for someone else that I have this disease. If my disease makes someone else think about their mortality, and they accept Jesus Christ as their personal Savior because all of my cancer, then isn't my cancer well worth it?
I love the Lord with all my heart, and I trust him no matter what.
So Jerry, I've not given up, but I will give in to the Lord.
Until next time, God bless and God save.