Well the news don't get any better. Dr. Gehrig called a few minutes ago to give me the results of my scan. The cancer has spread to my lymph nodes. Dr. Gehrig said that she saw where the cancer is still in my cervix 1 centimeter long and half a centimeter wide. She said the scan showed that the cancer can be seen in two of my lymph nodes, but is most likely in more. I will start chemotherapy Monday. And I will start every three weeks. That's just to start with. Then she would take another scan and stay on three weeks, or increase the chemotherapy if needed. I will most likely stay on chemotherapy the rest of my life.
And yes, I am crying even as I write this. But the tears are not because I have lost my faith. It's not because I'm angry at God, because I'm not. I think anyone in the circumstances that I am in would cry no matter what condition your spiritual life would be in. So don't mistake the tears for spiritual failing. I guess this Bible verse conveys my feelings.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
You see I fully believe in the eternal. If I did not have Jesus Christ's walking by my side, there's no way that I could get through this. But even through my tears I have peace in my soul.
Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.