I was looking at this picture of my sister in law Janice Moore, and missing her so very much. The picture, was taken at the beach, while my brother Danny and Janice, my sister Jean and her husband Johnny were vacationing. I don't know who took this picture, but as far as I'm concerned they should win some kind of award for capturing the ""face of cancer"". Looking at the picture closely, in her face you can see all the emotions one feels while having cancer.

One sees the sadness from not being able to do the things that others do. Please understand when this picture was taken, Janice had had cancer for some years. The chemo's and other treatments, and test upon test had sapped her strength. It must have took much of her strength just to sit in the chair and watched as others when about enjoying the trip.
You also see a defiance. A strength that comes from deep down within her, that says,(I'm not giving up).
There's also fear of the unknown eched in each wrinkle. But there's hope also there. There's faith, and there's a knowledge that God knows what He's doing. There's anger from the knowledge that you are leaving the people you love, the people that love you, the people that still need you. There are so many emotions that a cancer victim has that they never shown to anyone. Most times, we present a big smile and a happy attitude, but inside there are so many emotions going on. I think it's mainly sadness. In this I'm not saying self pity. It sadness of so many things. So many emotions that all could not be named. This picture of Janice says in all. To me, and maybe only to me it shows the unseen, untold story of life with cancer.
Janice always had a smile for everyone. She was always supportive and had such a happy attitude  "" in front "" of everyone. She did that because she loved us all so much. She didn't want pity. That's why this picture seemed so powerful to me. It was the other side of the coin. When she thought she was all alone, deep in thought, with all her true emotions showing on her face.
Janice I deeply miss you, but as a good friend said to me, you would not want to come back. I'll be seeing you soon, love you.
Until next time, Willard and I both wish you all health and happiness, God bless and God save.