I must be the only person gaining weight while on chemotherapy.I went to the doctor this morning, again sick with a cold, fluid behind the ears. Willard is much sicker than me, he's been sick for over a week. He refused to go to the doctor to began with. You know how most people are, we always think we'll get better, but instead we get worse and worse off.
Well, to get back to the weight gain, I have gained 14 pounds in two weeks. UGH, I feel like a complete failure when it comes to trying to lose weight. Of course, you can't lose weight and eat all the time like I had been doing lately. I stay hungry, the chemotherapy is taking so much from my body, that I stay hungry all the time. And me with no self-control at all, gives in to my urges every single time. Will you please pray a prayer for me that I will have greater strength to control my raging appetite.
When I went shopping at IGA this morning. I noticed a woman who seemed as if she could hardly walk because she could not breathe. I felt sorry for her and was wondering what was wrong with her. As Willard was going to the checkout line, I decided to go get the medicine from the drugstore. As I walked outside I saw the woman again sitting in her car. She was huffing and puffing on a cigarette. It kind of reminded me of when I was smoking. I remember, I had every excuse under the sun, to not quit smoking. I remember excuses like it's just allergies, it's a cold, anything and everything were my excuses. I'm glad that God finally made me look at the truth. I quit smoking cold turkey approximately 15 years ago. People used to say how hard it was to stop smoking. But with God's help, and I know it was only by God's help that I quit. I did quit. But not before causing irreparable lung damage to myself. So I will say to you smokers out there. Stop the excuses, admit that the those cigarettes are causing you lung damage. And for God's sake quit smoking.
Until next time God bless and God save.
Well, to get back to the weight gain, I have gained 14 pounds in two weeks. UGH, I feel like a complete failure when it comes to trying to lose weight. Of course, you can't lose weight and eat all the time like I had been doing lately. I stay hungry, the chemotherapy is taking so much from my body, that I stay hungry all the time. And me with no self-control at all, gives in to my urges every single time. Will you please pray a prayer for me that I will have greater strength to control my raging appetite.
When I went shopping at IGA this morning. I noticed a woman who seemed as if she could hardly walk because she could not breathe. I felt sorry for her and was wondering what was wrong with her. As Willard was going to the checkout line, I decided to go get the medicine from the drugstore. As I walked outside I saw the woman again sitting in her car. She was huffing and puffing on a cigarette. It kind of reminded me of when I was smoking. I remember, I had every excuse under the sun, to not quit smoking. I remember excuses like it's just allergies, it's a cold, anything and everything were my excuses. I'm glad that God finally made me look at the truth. I quit smoking cold turkey approximately 15 years ago. People used to say how hard it was to stop smoking. But with God's help, and I know it was only by God's help that I quit. I did quit. But not before causing irreparable lung damage to myself. So I will say to you smokers out there. Stop the excuses, admit that the those cigarettes are causing you lung damage. And for God's sake quit smoking.
Until next time God bless and God save.
Well, it's 2011. Just imagine reaping what you have sown. All the seeds that you have planted in 2010. The seeds of hate, the impassioned seeds, as we ignore someone in need. The seeds of jealousy, the seeds of pride, the seeds of the vainness. Now I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture. Each day that we live, we have emotions that sometimes seem uncontrollable. I myself have hated. I have sometimes ignore people that are in need. I would not say that I'm a vain person, but I'm sure I have acted vain at times. We, as human beings, are subject to all kinds of emotions. Sometimes we act out our emotions, and end up hurting people. We as human beings can't seem to put restraints on ourselves. We let our emotions rule their behavior and sadly our mouths.
Here's just a few pictures I took on the way to, and at Chapel Hill. I'm already feel a little sick tonight. The doctor talked to me in detail about the numbness in my hands today. She said she could take me off of the chemo that was causing it. The details were that if she did change the chemo, the only other chemo most likely would not work nearly as well as the one I'm on. She explained that the numbness may go away after a while when my chemo's are finished, or it may be permanent . I told her to not change anything. I'm leaving it in God's capable hands.
