To those who read my blog on Facebook, you may have saw where I had written that I felt like a failure. And at the time, I did. It seemed like I was having a self pity party.. But I am disappointed in myself.. It seems that I cannot walk from one room to another without giving out of breath. There’s so much that I want to do, but I just do not have the energy for. And I know, that it will take some time before I am back to my normal self. And I know, truly I should be ashamed of myself, considering all the people that are so much worse off than I am. My sister-in-law Janice, is still fighting against her cancer. She still is on chemo, and will be for some time. It’s a very small thing that I’m going through, compared to her. So I’m letting my Facebook friends know that I’m over my self pitying.
I think we all have times when we let our defenses down, and let our emotions take control of us. If I’ve learned anything in life, it’s that I cannot rely on my own strength to get me through moments like this. It’s by the strength of God, and only through the strength of God that my strength is renewed.
Psalms 62:7 in God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.
I praise God, that strength in him, comes with a simple prayer of repentance and humility. Just calling on His name helps me to remember that He hears and He understands. He knows that we humans are weak at times. He loves us anyway. How wonderful is the love of God.
Until next time, God bless and God save.

I was listening to a preacher on my PC this morning, which brought a new prospective to me on the meaning of the ''apple of my eye''. David was the apple of God's eye. The preacher said to mentally replace the word ''apple'' with ''pupil''. Then think about someone hurting the pupil of God's eye. The preacher was speaking of Amalek who betrayed David and Israel. I can't think of anything worse than poking God in the eye.

But in reality we hurt God everytime we hurt each other, because I believe we as Christians are the apple of God's eye. If nothing else than it was we, whom Christ died for. The next time we look at someone we are upset with, Think, that someone just may be the apple ''pupil'' of God's eye.

Deuteronomy 32:10 He found him in a desert land, and in the waste howling wilderness; he led him about, he instructed him, he kept him as the APPLE OF HIS EYE.

Let's not poke God in the eye.

Until next time God Bless and God save.

Have you noticed how lying has become such a part of everyday life for some of the people that we know and love. Especially the younger generation. It is sometimes difficult to distinguish between lies and truth, because they have developed into professional deceivers. We know by the 10 Commandments that lying is a sin, and reading in Proverbs chapter 19 verse 5 we read, a false witness shall not be unpunished, and he that speaketh lies shall not escape. Again in Proverbs we read in chapter 12 and verse 19 the lip of truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment. I won’t continue to give you a bunch of Bible verses, because you can open the Bible most anywhere, and it would tell you lying is wrong. Why do people lie? Sometimes I think people lie because they’re afraid. People lie to justified themselves. People lie to make themselves look good. But no matter the reason for the lie, it’s wrong. Some people believe their own lies. And some people have lied so much, that it just becomes habit. Willard said that he thinks sometimes people lie to fit in. lying to the unawares about fame or fortune to fit in with a class of people. By doing such as this you’re not only telling lies but living a lie as well. But no matter why the lie, no one can be justified in it. If one is an un-repentive liar, they are not living in fellowship with God. Lies separate us from God. I know quite a few people that lie on a daily basic. Their lies are so apparent, it’s hard not to notice. And yet these same people profess to be Christians. This is a world gone mad. A world in which delusions of lies are preached in many pulpits. Many ministers have been swayed over by Church members feelings, and the political climate of today’s world. They now tickle the ears of their congregation. And as the Bible tells in 2nd Thessalonians chapter 2 and verse 11, and God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie. And what should really scare many people is the next verse, 12 that they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness. The only answer I can give anyone to all this is we all need to get in, and stay in the word of God. And when you see Preachers, teachers or anyone misusing the word of God for their own purposes, Speak Up!
Until next time, God bless and God save.

Empty inside

Empty inside

Remembering back on one Easter morning when David was a young child. I had bought him an Easter basket, which had a chocolate bunny. I remember watching as he pulled the cellophane paper from the basket, and opened the box with the bunny. Chocolate bunny in hand, he bit into one of the bunnies ears. Upon doing so, he looks at me and says, it's empty. His expectations were no doubt dashed. The hollow bunny brought no joy to my disappointed son.
We as human beings often grasp for the sweet things, the possessions, the power, and pleasure that we find in life. But without the Lord in our lives, our lives can seem to be empty, just as the little choclate bunny was. Solomon, talked about this in his written sermon in ecclesiastics. Late in life, Solomon realized that he had lived his life, living for possessions, power, influence and pleasures. He describes it all as vanity. Solomon realized that life is short, and that things fade away. The only real thing, truly is our relationship with the Lord. Our spiritual gifts will not fade away. Our spiritual blessings are eternal. Earthly things will rust and degrade, and will disappear from sight. But all spiritual blessings and gifts we will have through out eternity.
So when you feel as if your life is as an empty chocolate bunny, consider the fact that we all need Jesus, in our lives, to make our lives full and complete.
Until next time God bless and God save.

While listening to David Jeremiah, this morning. He told the story of ''the monkeys fist''. I found this story quite interesting, and wanted to share with you.
The monkeys fist

there's an ancient parable, the monkeys fist. It teaches a profound lesson. Native tribes would catch monkeys by hollering out coconuts, filling them with bait, then tethering them to trees for monkeys to find. When the monkey reached into the small opening in the coconut, his hands fit,but once his fist was full the bait, he could not retrieve his hand. The monkey was trapped. The lesson for all of us is that the coconut was not the monkeys undoing. But rather, his greedy unwillingness to let go of the bait.

Okay, so I know what you're thinking''' dumb animal'''. But aren't most humans just as dumb and just as greedy? Humans have a want button. A want button, that never seems to be turned off. We are all guilty, not one of us can stand back and say that it's not true about us and many of the people we know. We all want what we don't need. We all want what everyone else has. We're hungry for stuff. And as we stick our own hand into that imaginary coconut, and grab for all the things that satan has placed inside for us. We might remember that we don't need a handful. But just get what's actually needed.
James 1: 17
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.

Old hands

I heard a story on the radio the a few years ago that touched my heart. And God has put it on my heart to pass it along. It was a hand written letter from a lady in her eighties that resided in a nursing home. I hope that I can remember all the details, at any rate I’ll do the best I can.
The lady writes.
My hands are old, my hands are so very old and ugly. They used to be as smooth as a peach’s skin, but now they feel so rough and so dry. My hands are old and ugly.
My name is Nellie, though no one calls me that any more. The people at the nursing home call me missy or dear. Some even call me Mrs. But they don’t call me Nellie, my name is Nellie. My children come each week they call me Mom or Mother. My grandchildren call me granny, grandmom or even grandmother. But of course they don’t call me by my name. My name is Nellie. I just wanted you to know my name is Nellie, while I can still remember it.
My children and grandchildren all tell me they love me, every time they come. but I’m still so very lonely, no one touches me any more. My husband used to hold my hand as we sat together. But he’s now gone on and is with the Lord. My children once held my hand as we walked along the streets of the town. But I've not felt their touch for so very long now. Do you think the reason that they don’t touch me any more is because of my hands. My hands are so old, so very old and ugly.

Hey, why don't you go give that elderly Mother or Father, or that aging Grandmother or Grandfather of yours a tender hug. Tell them you love them, and tell them how much you care for them. Make them feel important, make them feel a part of your life. Make them feel like they matter. And by all means hold their hands.

Until next time God bless and God save.

14 more pounds UGH

I must be the only person gaining weight while on chemotherapy.

I went to the doctor this morning, again sick with a cold, fluid behind the ears. Willard is much sicker than me, he's been sick for over a week. He refused to go to the doctor to began with. You know how most people are, we always think we'll get better, but instead we get worse and worse off.
Well, to get back to the weight gain, I have gained 14 pounds in two weeks. UGH, I feel like a complete failure when it comes to trying to lose weight. Of course, you can't lose weight and eat all the time like I had been doing lately. I stay hungry, the chemotherapy is taking so much from my body, that I stay hungry all the time. And me with no self-control at all, gives in to my urges every single time. Will you please pray a prayer for me that I will have greater strength to control my raging appetite.
When I went shopping at IGA this morning. I noticed a woman who seemed as if she could hardly walk because she could not breathe. I felt sorry for her and was wondering what was wrong with her. As Willard was going to the checkout line, I decided to go get the medicine from the drugstore. As I walked outside I saw the woman again sitting in her car. She was huffing and puffing on a cigarette. It kind of reminded me of when I was smoking. I remember, I had every excuse under the sun, to not quit smoking. I remember excuses like it's just allergies, it's a cold, anything and everything were my excuses. I'm glad that God finally made me look at the truth. I quit smoking cold turkey approximately 15 years ago. People used to say how hard it was to stop smoking. But with God's help, and I know it was only by God's help that I quit. I did quit. But not before causing irreparable lung damage to myself. So I will say to you smokers out there. Stop the excuses, admit that the those cigarettes are causing you lung damage. And for God's sake quit smoking.
Until next time God bless and God save.

Well, it's 2011. Just imagine reaping what you have sown. All the seeds that you have planted in 2010. The seeds of hate, the impassioned seeds, as we ignore someone in need. The seeds of jealousy, the seeds of pride, the seeds of the vainness. Now I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture. Each day that we live, we have emotions that sometimes seem uncontrollable. I myself have hated. I have sometimes ignore people that are in need. I would not say that I'm a vain person, but I'm sure I have acted vain at times. We, as human beings, are subject to all kinds of emotions. Sometimes we act out our emotions, and end up hurting people. We as human beings can't seem to put restraints on ourselves. We let our emotions rule their behavior and sadly our mouths.
Anyone that knows me well, knows that I can hold things in for a while. But after a while it all seems to explode, and then they know to get out of my way. And when I'm like that, I don't like the person I see in the mirror. I say things I don't mean and I do things that I'm ashamed of.
It's nothing more than me letting down my defenses and letting those fiery darts of satan get past my armor. It is truly a wonderful thing that the Lord has so much grace and so much mercy on us. Grace is getting what we don't deserve. And I know that I don't deserve forgiveness in any way, for some of the things I think, and even some of the things I do. But the Lord, has Mercy abounding. Mercy is God holding back what you deserve. And with the seeds I have planted in my life, I deserve far worse than I'm getting. But what I'm getting is forgiveness, through Jesus Christ our Lord. It's so wonderful that I do not have to reap what I have sown in 2010. I will say that I will try harder in 2011 be the Christian that I should be, but I know that I will fail again. And that's when I have faith that God's grace is sufficient for me also.

Until next time God bless and God save.

OH yea, I wanted you all to know David has a new girl friend. He seems so happy.