To those who read my blog on Facebook, you may have saw where I had written that I felt like a failure. And at the time, I did. It seemed like I was having a self pity party.. But I am disappointed in myself.. It seems that I cannot walk from one room to another without giving out of breath. There’s so much that I want to do, but I just do not have the energy for. And I know, that it will take some time before I am back to my normal self. And I know, truly I should be ashamed of myself, considering all the people that are so much worse off than I am. My sister-in-law Janice, is still fighting against her cancer. She still is on chemo, and will be for some time. It’s a very small thing that I’m going through, compared to her. So I’m letting my Facebook friends know that I’m over my self pitying.
I think we all have times when we let our defenses down, and let our emotions take control of us. If I’ve learned anything in life, it’s that I cannot rely on my own strength to get me through moments like this. It’s by the strength of God, and only through the strength of God that my strength is renewed.
Psalms 62:7 in God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.
I praise God, that strength in him, comes with a simple prayer of repentance and humility. Just calling on His name helps me to remember that He hears and He understands. He knows that we humans are weak at times. He loves us anyway. How wonderful is the love of God.
Until next time, God bless and God save.