Prayers for Weldon

My brother in law Weldon has recently found out  that he has cancer. This is a report from his wife Kay. Please read and by all means Please keep them in your prayers.
FB friends please keep my husband Weldon in your prayers. He will be admitted Sunday to Duke hospital for surgery on the 30th to remove a Squamous Cell Carcinoma from his face. Because of the stints that was put in in March the medicine effient he will have to come off from for 5 days before surgery, so they will have to keep his blood checked every six hours. He will have to have some radiation treatments we are told. Please keep him in your prayers. Thank you.
Thanks all and as usually Willard and I wish you all health and happiness. May God bless and save.

For Paula and all persons fighting cancer.

One of my Facebook friends (Paula) found out today that her CT scan came back with unfavorable results. My heart goes out to her because I know just how it Feels. My CT scans have been coming back unfavorable for the last three times. It's discouraging when you know that the chemo they have you on is only 20% effective. When I first started chemo, I was on carboplatin and Taxol which was 70% effective. When she took me off of them, because she thought I had an allergic reaction, she put me on a pill that was only 15% effective. When that didn't work it was from one chemo to another which all were only 20% effective. If my CT scan comes back unfavorable, she will change the type of chemo but it will only be 20% effective. It's so disheartening to me and I know it is to Paula and all the rest who are fighting cancer daily.

But all in all, when you look at it in a true sense leaving percentages out. You come to the true understanding that God has this all in His hands. So it does not make any difference whether percentage say 20% or even 100%. God's will, will be done. And as I have said many times that's what my wants are, God's will, and not my own. God has his plans for each and every one of us. And although we may not agree with what God's will is for us in our lives. If we are true Christians, and if we truly love God, then we must accept his will and be glad in doing so.

We however, pray for strength to endure whatever we must endear sometimes hourly but positively day by day. A person never knowing the side effects from radiation/chemo can not possibly understand what we go through. It's very seldom for many of us cancer patients to have a good day. Our days are anywhere from so so to almost intolerable. We go through the motions of living. But we do hope, yes, we do hope for better days. Just so you know.

Romans8:28

And we know that for those who love God

all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his

purpose.

Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness, may God bless and may God save.  Please say a prayer for my friend Paula, she really needs our prayers and support.

When I think the devil has done all that he can to destroy me. I find that he's far from finished. You see, he doesn't just want to destroy my body. He wants to destroy my spirit, my faith and my very soul if he could. It's beginning to the a daily battle of revoking him as he tells his lies. The lies that he tells, any fool could see through, but as with Eve, he's very convincing, using true with lies in his ever going onslaught of trying to destroy me body and soul.

I just thank God that I am of strong faith. I think Jesus that he has me, and he promised that he would never let go. I can depend upon Jesus, my Lord and Savior, and I run to Him each and every time the devil assault's me.

It's bad enough to have to put up with the daily things of cancer and the other many things that are wrong with my health. But it's so hard fighting against an enemy day after day trying to hold your own, trying not to lose any ground. I need each and everyone of your prayers.

Corinthians 8:8 and 9

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; (9). Persecuted, but not abandoned; cut down, but not destroyed.

This verse is exactly how I feel at times.

Thank you for your love and support and your prayers.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless God save.

Willard and I walked into Eastern Carolina Medical Center yesterday morning, and as usual were to go on back to the waiting room at the lab for my blood test. The first thing I noticed was, a middle aged woman quizzing an old man about Bible details. She’d ask a question and then he would give the best answer he could. Every time her question was answered, she would ask, “would you bet your life on it”.  I sat there as the poor old guy was being quizzed by this woman, feeling so sorry for him. Finally she moved on to someone else. This time it was a very sweet looking, and kind of fragile looking older woman. The woman was blessed enough that the nurse called her to go have a test before having to answer the question the woman with a million and one questions, asked. Around the room the woman went, to this person then that, always asking when answered, “would you bet your life on it” meaning their answer. Oh no! She was headed my way. She sat down beside me, nooooo, I thought to myself. Don’t I have enough on my plate today without her? So there she went asking me a question. Well, I thought, I’ll humor her just a little. The more questions I got right the more intense she got. You see I have studied the Bible through and through many times and besides the questions she was asking were pretty simple. Then I saw where she was coming from. She asked what was God’s name. I told her God had many names. She rebuked my answer with There was only one Name that God should be called by. Well I won’t go into denominational stuff. But she showed me a verse in the Bible that had one of God’s names. She said hers was the only true religion and that we were all mistaken as to the Bible’s meanings on many things.

Well now you people that know me closely know that I didn’t stand by and let her demean thousands of Baptist, Holiness, etc, etc. What I asked her was very simple and direct. I asked, Would you bet your soul on that. And then I stated to her that I thought any religion or denomination that thought they were the only one that had all the answers was in my opinion the absolutely most sinful people there were. Needless to say she left me and everyone else in the room alone, “until I left anyway”.  I did see a few people give just the slightest grin as they heard my statement to her.

I really don’t believe any of us have it all right or all wrong. All we can do as Christians is the best we can each day. We all serve God in our different ways and none of us have the right to rebuke another for their different ways. I depend on God to lead and guide me as I walk my path through this life. I praise God. Without God I am nothing, and all that I am is due to His blessings on me.

Ps 111:10

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever.

Until next time, Willard and I wish you all health and happiness. May God bless and God save.

Her name is Helen

Yesterday while in the chemo room, across from Willard and me sat a lady in her late 20s or early 30s. Willard started talking to her and found out that she was from Wilmington. I thought to myself that was twice to drive Willard and I have. She was a very cute little lady, flaming red hair, cut short, and you could tell she had natural curly hair. And of course she had freckles all over her face that made her look more childish than she really was. Her mother who seemed to be in her 50s, sat quietly with her.


During the back-and-forth conversation I found out that she had cancer in all of her female organs plus her lymph nodes. She was having chemo and radiation at the same time. Chemo is rough, radiation is rough, so I could not imagine what she must be going through and how she must feel. She was telling me that the radiation was causing her a lot of intestinal troubles, and that each time she used the bathroom she wanted to scream. I can understand exactly what she was talking about because I have too went through that agony my first radiation treatments. I felt so very sorry for her, I almost wanted to cry.

I guess it takes going through the same thing to have that really deep heart felt empathy for another. I mean you can have empathy for someone even if you don't understand their situation. But when you know the real agony that they're going through, then I do think you have a deeper, heart felt empathy for them.

People that have never gone through cancer or any other of the many diseases and disabilities, really don't know what these people go through. It's not talked about, because it's too embarrassing to mention.
My heart truly goes out to this young lady. We all know that the rest of her life will not be easy. I just pray that she does not have any permanent damage to her intestines and bladder as I did.

The Lord led me to take her hand and say prayer for her before I left the chemo room.

I ask all my Facebook family and to anyone else who may read this blog, please say a prayer for this young lady. Her name is Helen.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, may God bless and God save.

Ps 103:2

Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:

Ps 103:3

Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;

Ps 103:4

Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;

I'd like you all to meet my great nephew, Jason Daniel Davis. Born May 26th ""early this morning"" Entered into this world at 4:40am. He weighed 5lbs 10 oz. and was 20 inches long.

I thank God for him and I know his mother and dad are just so excited and thankful to God for him. My niece Stacy Moore Riley is so excited to be an aunt. And my brother Danny Moore is estatic to be a grandfather.
And I know with in my heart that Janice my sister in law is looking down from Heaven smiling at her new grandson. Jason is a true blessing to the whole family. And he is truly a blessing from God.

Ps 127:3

Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.

And to Jason I give this blessing from the word of God.

Numbers 6:24

The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:

Numbers 6:25

The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:

And may God bless you all the days of your life.
I thank all who have said prayers for Angela and baby Jason. And I ask God that He will bless each of you. For you are faithful prayer warriors, who love the Lord. Thank you!
Until next time Willard and I wish you health and happiness. God bless and God save.

God's grace is not dependent on deeds done.

If you share this post, God will reward you. Huh? Here I thought we were in the 21st century. Now I know that the Word of God is just as real today as it was when it was first written. But I have never read anything in the Bible stating that “ without God’s promise” you will be blessed for doing anything. There are so-called evangelists who are racking in millions of dollars each year because they talk financial promises. Promises, that doesn’t come from the word of God nor God. Neither can one get remission of sin by donating money. Nor health, nor happiness. God does say cast your bread upon the water. That means to give freely for the glory of God. But don’t cast your pearls before swine as some are doing, hoping to get a blessing from God. If you want a blessing from God…..go to God. I’m not promising He will give you your request. But I do promise that He loves you and will do what’s best for you. Many times God says NO ! Because He knows the future and He has a plan for each of us. We would do well to trust in that plan and in Him.


I worry so much about people who believe such people, such promises and things. We, being in the end times and looking for the glorious coming of Christ our Lord. It is also time for the antichrist to appear. These same people that are being fooled by such ploys from these not so Godly evangelists, will be quickly fooled by the antichrist. It breaks my heart knowing that. If you’re here and know who the anti-christ is, then it’s too late for you.

Little children, it is the last time: and as ye have heard that antichrist shall come, even now are there many antichrists; whereby we know that it is the last time.

We are not in the middle ages, and should not believe in folklore.

But as far as superstition, we are still backward people; some still unable to walk under a latter because of fear that something terrible will happen. Still keeping four-leaf clovers, rabbit’s feet and such, for good luck. So if you’re wondering why I never pass on those post on FB promising some kind of blessing. This is why.

Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness. May God bless and may God save.

This is a picture of my mother, ''Clara'' with my brothers, Jerry and Danny. My sister Jean and I are not in the picture because we were not with my mother. My brothers, Gary and Troy had not been born yet. I've told the story before of how my dad left my mom and brought Jean, Jerry and me from our home in VA to his mom's, "my grandmother" Molly Moore's. Grandmother Moore could not handle Jerry so she sent him back to Mom's. And so, in this picture of Mom, Jerry and Danny, as they say grace, you can almost feel the emptiness. Since I was not raised by my Mom, we really never had that Mother daughter relationship, Although I dreamed many, many nights of walking to her on the road to Va. As I dreamed these dreams I was too young to know where or for that matter what VA was. All I remember is that I missed my mom.
Even though my Mom and I never had a close relationship, since her death I seem to feel her around me. especially when I'm in one of my lease favorite moods of almost giving up. I know many nights when I lay in bed so sick from chemo, I can feel a soft gentle hand stroke my forehead. I know in my heart it's my mother.
I believe with all my heart, and with all my being that life doesn't end to those that love the Lord Jesus Christ. I believe that every once in a while God sends love ones to comfort us in our most trying times. I'd like to thank the Lord for all His many blessings on me, so very, very many.
So here on mother's day I mourn the lost of my mom both in life and in death. But I have joy in knowing that some day we will once again be together. You see, love never dies, and I will have that relationship in the life to come.
I'd like to wish all the mother's out there a very happy mother's day. I wish you all, love and happiness. May God bless and hold each of your children in His loving care. And most of all may all mother's children find Jesus Christ and be saved. The greatest gift of all for a Christian mother is to know that their children's eternal life is secure in Christ.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness. God bless and God save.

Clara Autry, Moore, Koonce

Rest in peace Mom, I love you.

You know, I've spoken about the wonderful people from Thomas Drug Store many times. These wonderful people just keep surprising me. Wednesday morning I sent Willard to mail a package for me, but before mailing it he was to pick up a few items from the drugstore to put in the package. The package was for my niece Angela who is pregnant with a precious little boy that she has given the name Jason. Before I go on any further I would like to say how wonderful it is that she has named him. When she talks about that precious gift that is within her she calls him by name. Isn’t that really special?


Well anyway back to Willard. I called the drugstore and spoke to Diane and she offered to help pick out some items for Jason. When Willard came home he told me about the post office rules, and that the package had to be wrapped in brown wrapping paper. He said that not only did Diane do a wonderful job selecting baby items; she told him she would be glad to wrap the package and take it to the post office and mail it. This is way above what her job duties are. This my friends, comes from love. Love not just for me, But she's like that for all the customers that come into Thomas Drug Store. I do not know how on earth, Paige and Kathy,”” owners of the store”” happen to choose such wonderful people for employees. One would have to search far and wide to find such wonderful people. Paige and Kathy are also very kind, very loving people.

I love you all at Thomas Drug Store.

Thank you so much Diane, I love you.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

I was looking at this picture of my sister in law Janice Moore, and missing her so very much. The picture, was taken at the beach, while my brother Danny and Janice, my sister Jean and her husband Johnny were vacationing. I don't know who took this picture, but as far as I'm concerned they should win some kind of award for capturing the ""face of cancer"". Looking at the picture closely, in her face you can see all the emotions one feels while having cancer.

One sees the sadness from not being able to do the things that others do. Please understand when this picture was taken, Janice had had cancer for some years. The chemo's and other treatments, and test upon test had sapped her strength. It must have took much of her strength just to sit in the chair and watched as others when about enjoying the trip.
You also see a defiance. A strength that comes from deep down within her, that says,(I'm not giving up).
There's also fear of the unknown eched in each wrinkle. But there's hope also there. There's faith, and there's a knowledge that God knows what He's doing. There's anger from the knowledge that you are leaving the people you love, the people that love you, the people that still need you. There are so many emotions that a cancer victim has that they never shown to anyone. Most times, we present a big smile and a happy attitude, but inside there are so many emotions going on. I think it's mainly sadness. In this I'm not saying self pity. It sadness of so many things. So many emotions that all could not be named. This picture of Janice says in all. To me, and maybe only to me it shows the unseen, untold story of life with cancer.
Janice always had a smile for everyone. She was always supportive and had such a happy attitude  "" in front "" of everyone. She did that because she loved us all so much. She didn't want pity. That's why this picture seemed so powerful to me. It was the other side of the coin. When she thought she was all alone, deep in thought, with all her true emotions showing on her face.
Janice I deeply miss you, but as a good friend said to me, you would not want to come back. I'll be seeing you soon, love you.
Until next time, Willard and I both wish you all health and happiness, God bless and God save.

Romans 2:1 Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things.
Romans 2:2 But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things.
Romans 2:3 And thinkest thou this, O man, that judgest them which do such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God?

A few years ago the Lord put these verses in my heart. Anyone who knows me, knows that I use to be a very judgmental person. But the Lord spoke to me one day and said, have you not sinned also? Causing me to review my own past. When I really looked at my own sins according to how I felt about what others had done. Well, I was so very ashamed. And I'm not saying that I don't still have judgments about others, but when I do I make myself think about these verses.

I have certain people that come into my home and I know, just as sure as I breath they are going to find something to throw off on. I have come to realize, through a lot of prayer and forgiving that it's their way of making themselves feel better about themselves. These same people seem to go out of their way to do and say things to Willard and me to put us down in some way.

I once said to the Lord '' I put this in Your hands Lord. The Lord was quick to respond that it was not mine to place in His hands, that He had it all alone. So I prayed for forgiveness and said to Him. Lord I leave it in your hands. God has it. He knows before hand. And He will handle it in His own way and His own time.

It's these three verses in Romans that make me look back into my past and ask myself ''Have I done the same thing?'' My answer would have to be yes. Sometimes judgment means holding a grudge. So how can I as a Christian judge or hold grudges against a thing that I myself am guilty of. The answer is, if indeed I am a true Christian as I profess to be, I can't. God lead us all to His truth and not our own.

Non judgment....... pass it on.

Until next time, Willard and I wish you heath and happiness. God bless and God save.

A day of good times turned into death and agony. So many good people so brutally hurt by a monster.
A friend of Susan Sanders ..... Meredith smiling as she runs the race,,,before the tragedy.
 That smile,'' I suspect'' turned to sadness. 

 I think we need to reflect as we think about all the People that were killed and injured in Boston, that God had a reason for letting it happen. We don't know the whys but we do know..........
 Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose,
We must look to God for the comfort that only He can bring. I pray for understanding, although I know none of us will ever understand such utter evil. I pray God will heal this country of it's diseases, for this person or persons who did this awful thing is a disease and not a human being in my mind.
Don't get me wrong, I'm deeply hurt for the people that died and were injured in Boston. But every time I see it on the news, which seems like every hour on the hour. I think that the devil/devils who did this awful thing are laughing and patting his/her self on the back. The news media is giving whomever a good old time in self admiration. Who ever they are, I send this message. Evil, like you are few in number. you are a pitifully weak person. The Good people are many and strong. I pray that the people you hurt don't think of themselves as your victim. By refusing to give you that victory,  Then you end up the only victim, lost in your own insanity. However I do pray that God will cause you to really realize what you have done. Maybe you may even repent for your dark deeds. God have mercy on you soul.

Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

You never understand something until it happens to you.
I never really understood the pain of hunger, until I saw my children hungry. I went without so they would have something to eat. I now know how my mother must have felt while feeding me, and my siblings sugar sandwiches, because there was nothing else.


I never knew loneliness until I was left all-alone, nowhere to turn. And then I was able to see the tears flowing down the cheeks of those residents of the nursing home. Whose family had put them in there and hardly ever came to see them. One of which repeats daily that a family member is coming to see them, but the visit never happened. Or the lady that sits by the door every day, hoping to see a loved one. When I was well I use to try to ease that loneliness for a few minutes.

I never understood pain, real physical pain until I myself was in agony, pleading to God for help. I never had empathy for others with pain until I felt such pain.

I never understood betrayal until I was betrayed. The hurt envelops the body where nothing but numbness is felt. There’s no day, no night, only emptiness. And depression is something that has to be dug out of as if a grave black and cold. I have compassion for others whom are in that situation.

I never really understood love. Real love, until Jesus. No explanation needed……………

God has given me hunger so that I would feed the hungry. He has allowed loneliness for me so I would be a friend to the lonely. God gave me pain so that I would understand how others were hurting, and to better understand the pain Jesus Christ felt on that dark day of His death. God allowed me to be betrayed so I could see how hurtful it is. How very devastating it is for others. And how very forgiving Jesus is to us all.

Until next time Willard and I wish you heath, happiness and love. God bless and God save.

For all the people young and old, who have not heard the old, old story of Jesus and His love.


Good Friday is the Friday within the Easter holiday, and is a time of fasting and penance, commemorating the suffering, crucifixion, and death of the Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.. For Christians, this holy day commemorates not just a historical event, but the sacrificial death of Christ, the only begotten Son of our Heavenly Father, which along with the resurrection, comprises the heart of the Christian faith.

How Jesus suffered for us on that day. Human tongues cannot describe the agony He went through. Only by the mercy and grace of God are we called His children. Adopted into the family by the blood that Jesus Christ shed for us so many years ago.

Holy Saturday commemorates the day that Jesus Christ lay in the tomb after his death. It is the day after Good Friday and the day before Easter Sunday. It is also known as Easter Eve, Easter Even, Black Saturday, or the Saturday before Easter. Jesus’ body lay in the tomb.

Easter Sunday is the resurrection. Mt 28:5 And the angel answered and said unto the women, Fear not ye: for I know that ye seek Jesus, which was crucified. Mt 28:6 He is not here: for he is risen, as he said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay.

It’s the day that Jesus stomped on the head on the serpent, that old demon the devil.

It’s the day that Jesus , In His owe words……..Re 1:18 I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death.

And because He lives, we have eternal life through Him, And only through Him.
John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
Until next time Willard and I wish you health and happiness. God bless and God save.

If you share this post, God will reward you. Huh? Here I thought we were in the 21st century. Now I know that the Word of God is just as real today as it was when it was first written. But I have never read anything in the Bible stating that “ without God’s promise” you will be blessed for doing anything. There are so-called evangelists who are racking in millions of dollars each year because they talk promises. Promises, that doesn’t come from the word of God nor God. You can’t get remission from sin by donating money. Nor riches, nor happiness. God does say cast your bread upon the water. That means to me to give freely for the glory of God. But not cast your pearls before swine as some are doing, hoping to get a blessing from God. If you want a blessing…..go to God. I’m not promising He will give you your request. But I do promise that He loves you and will do what’s best for you in His on eyes. Many times God says NO ! Because He knows the future and He has a plan for each of us. We would do well to trust in that plan and in Him.


I worry so much about people who believe such people and or things. We, being so very close to the end times and the coming of Christ our Lord. It is also time for the antichrist to appear. These same people that are being fooled by such ploys from these not so Godly evangelists, will be quickly fooled by the antichrist. It breaks my heart knowing that.

Little children, it is the last time: and as ye have heard that antichrist shall come, even now are there many antichrists; whereby we know that it is the last time.

We are not in the middle ages, that we should believe in folklore.

But as far as superstition, we are still backward people; some still unable to walk under a latter because of fear that something terrible will happen. Still keeping four-leaf clovers, rabbit’s feet and such, for good luck. So if you’re wondering why I never pass on those post on FB promising some kind of blessing if I do such things. This is why.

Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness. May God bless and may God save.

In my last blog, I mentioned something about being in the waiting room as my mother died in the intensive care room that she was in. A few people in my life know what I saw that day, but only a few. I have decided that I don't mind if the whole world knows of my vision on that day. You see, when I saw my mother lying on the bed gasping for every breath, I lost it. Someone should have slapped me, or something. You’ve heard that people that are hysterical sound like they’re laughing when actually they're crying aloud. Well, that's what happened to me. I could not stay in the room, even though I wanted to for my mother's sake. In some way, I feel like I deserted her in her most desperate time. But as I said in my last blog I just do not have it in me to watch a person die. So, a nurse came and helped me into a chair in the waiting room, but not before I almost pulled Janice and Willard both to the floor, them trying to hold me up. The staff at the hospital motioned us into another waiting room where we would have privacy.


I remember putting my hands over my eyes, and saying a prayer, asking God for His comfort. While I was sitting at the table I saw the most beautiful vision of my mother standing in the gates of heaven, smiling. And what I notice most was the peacefulness that enveloped me. It was almost like my mother speaking within my heart, telling me she was okay. From that moment on I was able to have comfort within me and let my mother go.

But the strangest thing about the vision was my mother's hair color. You see, my mother had bleached her hair blonde from her early 20s. Never have I saw her with dark brown hair. In fact I've always thought of my mother as having blonde hair. If I had ever seen a picture of her before the change in hair color, I don't remember it. It was kind of shocking seeing my mother with short brown hair. I've always known her to have long blond hair.

God gave me the ability in a few split seconds to see into eternity. I felt the love of God embrace me, and I felt The comfort that He gives. I felt the joy that my mother had in being there with the Lord. I saw the light that is true light from God. There was no shadow anywhere, because the light seemed to be coming from everywhere. As I said in my earlier blog, I wouldn’t miss Heaven for anything! PRAISE GOD.

I have in my lifetime had many experiences that could only come from God. And I know that I'm not the only one to have such experiences, and thank God for that.

If you have had such experiences please share them with me, and my readers. I know that I will have gotten a blessing from them, and I think that my readers will too. Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness. May God bless and may God save.

Death and Heaven

I remember sitting in the hospital waiting room with my sister Jean when my grandmother Moore died. And I remember setting in another waiting room as my mother died. And then there was Naomi, Willard's aunt who died in a nursing home and his mother, Cora who also died in the nursing home. The latest to depart was my beloved sister in law, Janice Moore. One could say therefore I was accustomed to death. But that would be far from the truth. As some people can, I cannot be in the room where a person is dying. I'm just not strong that way. I never was and I never will be. Think about it, one second there's a person with feelings, thoughts and a lifetime of memories. In the end when the clock strikes and the last breath is taken, there is nothing. The person who once was has departed. I've heard of people who sit with the dying to watch their soul depart. I know that that sounds strange, but I have heard of it. And don't get me wrong; I do believe the Scripture where it tells us
in 2nd Corinthians, We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.
So you could say that the last breath upon this earth is a precursor to the first breath of being reborn into eternity. I get so excited when I think about that. I get excited about eternity and what it may hold for God's children. I know many seem to think that Heaven is all about us humans and our eternity. Some had visions of grassy fields with flowers and an ever blooming spring time. But truly it's not about us humans. Only by God's mercy and grace will we even be allowed to see Heaven. It's all about God. We will be in heaven because we worship and serve Him. Now mind you, I have no idea of how God intends us to worship Him, but that's what we will be there to do. I do know that the Bible tells us that we will be God's Army. To fight for His cause.
 Revelations 19:14 And the armies which were in heaven followed Him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen, white and clean.
So, we will not be running through grassy fields collecting flowers. I don't want to destroy some of your expectations of heaven. Because as I said before I have no idea and neither does any other human. God has left it to each of us individually to hold strong in faith. And we all have different views of what heaven will be. But I don't mind putting on the armor of God and battling for Him. Because he has done so very much for me. Jesus Christ gave his life willingly. No one took it from Him. My life belongs to Him. I gave my life to Him when I accepted Him as Lord and Savior of my life. I gave Him complete control. So no matter what eternity may hold, I trust Jesus, for I know he loves me. God's love is something that no one on this earth will ever understand. You cannot measure it or explain it or see it. You can only feel it in your heart. And although I may not be able to set and watch a person take their last breath. It doesn't mean that I don't love them and that I don't care deeply about them, because I do. I just hope each and every one of you will find the serenity that I have through the love and salvation of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Then we can someday find out what Heaven holds for us hand in hand. I wouldn't miss Heaven for anything!

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

Freedom

Freedom!
All around the world people want freedom. After Adam and Eve sinned, they wanted freedom from God's view, so they hid themselves. Did they get their freedom, no. The Israelites did not want to live under God's laws, so they built a golden calf. Did the Israelites get their freedom from God's law, no.
The Israelites defied God at every turn. God Warning them over many hundreds of years that He would not always strive with them. And finally instead of having to follow God's law, the Babylonians overthrew them and took them as slaves. Then they had absolutely no freedom. Even their religion was forbidden.
Freedom
Is anyone actually free, I mean completely free?
Most people think of freedom as being free from rule and law, or Masters. But freedom can never be acquired. If you have a job you are not free at work, you are following instructions. You'll never free from the rules and regulations of your employer. Even marriage keeps both of the couple, from being free to do their own desire.
 Driving, boating and any kind of others sports or activities all have their rule. You can never be free upon this earth from rules and regulations.
Oh I know, you're thinking about moving to some isolated area in this world, maybe a desert or on top of a mountain where no laws extend. If you are a human being, you're still not free from diseases and sickness. The only way one can be completely free from all earthly things is to not live carnally but live in the spirit. Christ said that if He set you free you are free indeed. You see, we do have to follow the laws and regulations of this carnal world, Jesus instructed us to do so, so we will never be free of some, rule or regulation of law. But we can be free in the spirit. This world and it's higher powers may be able to rule over us. But they never can rule over your mind or your heart. They can't tell you what you should think or how your heart feels.
You know the Lord came to me last night with a message all about freedom. And if I have got up and had written it while it was fresh on my mind, I would have done a much better job. But I was lazy and wouldn't get up. So I apologize that this is not as inspiring as it could have been. If I had just obeyed the Lord, I'm positive that this blog would have inspired maybe one or two of you. I guess what the Lord was trying to tell me, is while on this earth we really can't be free. But we can be free from sin through Jesus Christ, Lord and Savior. Jesus doesn't have that many rules. His rules are, love one another, forgive one another, help one another and love the Lord with all your heart and with all your might. And if you are a child of God redeemed through the blood of God's only begotten son, Jesus Christ, then those things will come and with those things, comes joy. And the more you do these things, the more joy you have.
I am hoping that someone might get a blessing from this blog, even though it's not exactly what it would have been in the middle of the night when God first called me to write it. Love to all.
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness may God bless and may God save.

Spitting on Christ?

All my Christian life, I have thought what evil people they were that spit on Jesus Christ. But something changed my mind today. As I was watching a Christian movie on Netflix earlier, I was taught a lesson. In the movie, a father speaks to a son that is having trouble in his marriage and who is also unsaved. The father says to the son that ignoring the call of Jesus Christ, is like spitting in his face.
Did you know that there are Christians even today that will spit on a Jewish person because of the people who spat on Jesus? And they think that they are doing the right thing. Jesus was all about forgiveness. And besides, least we forget, Jesus Christ was a Jew. So every time a Christian spits on a Jewish person, isn't it the same as spitting on Jesus Christ. If you'll remember the Bible tells us that what we do to people and for people that we also have done unto Christ. Every time you hurt a person, you have also hurt Christ.
Now I'm going to ramble some in this blog because there are a few points that I want to make and if I stay on subject I will not get to make those points. So here I go rambling. Now mind you I am not discluding myself as I write this, because I have done many of the same things that I am speaking of. I have a dis-taste for people who sat in church with their nose high into the sky, with their better than thou attitude. I guess all of us could say we know such people. But if the truth be told we've done it ourselves, and we don't have to be in church to do it. When we treat people as if they are below us, or not as good as us, it's the same as spitting in Jesus's face. Because, Christ loves each and every person exactly the same. From the richest person, to the very poorest. He died, he gave his life for each. He did not suffer more for one than he did the other. And yet even as Christians we have not followed in Christ' footsteps. It's funny how even watching a movie, and the message that is presented is like stepping on your toes. It's a message that I needed to hear, that I needed to be reminded of.
You know God uses many venues to teach us His way, His word, and His love for us. If we have our hearts open, we will hear the message. Christianity is something like falling down and getting up, falling down and getting up, over and over and over, until the day God calls us home. Being a Christian, is not being a better person than anyone else. Being a Christian is knowing that even though we have sinned, God is faithful to forgive us, His mercy is amazing. By mercy God is withholding from us what we deserve. Each of us deserve to die for our sins. But through Jesus Christ not only are we forgiven, but then God's love gives us more. He gives us grace. through Jesus Christ. I pray every day, and every night will salvation for my family, for my country and for the world. Whether they accept Jesus as Lord and Savior now or when Jesus comes back to rule and reign as king of kings and Lord of lords, they will bow on their knees now or then. Every knee shall bow, and every tongue shall confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.
Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

Reject evil.

The next time you're outside, take a look at a tree. And as you're looking at the tree, think this thought. Mankind has choices. But the tree has none. Mankind can cut the tree down, and use its wood for so many different things. We could use that wood for furniture, to make our lives more comfortable. We could use that wood for homes to keep us safe and warm. We could use that wood for bridges to span the wide, ever rolling rivers. We could use that wood for paper products. And we have a choice when using paper from what once was a beautiful tree created by God for various purposes. The paper could be used for pornographic material or for many other ungodly things. The paper could be used in the schools, to educate our children. But I think the most wonderful thing that comes from the paper, from the tree created by God, is the Word Of God. Sheets of paper, printed with the marvelous and wonderful words of Jesus Christ himself. The words saved for centuries, so our eyes could see the word of God. So our ears could hear the word of God. So our tongue could speak the word of God. So we could teach the word of God to those who do not know it's treasures.


It's mankind, whom make the decisions of what that great old tree, bareing rings which tell it's age, will become.
Every time you pass by a magazine rack, with Playboy's, Hustler and all those other dirty magazines. Just give thought to a creation of God, a beautiful sturdy tree that could have been use for so much good now dawns the images of satan. What an awful shame!
Mt 7:17 Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
It's not the trees themselves that bring forth evil, it's the human being that decides what to do with them.
Humanity needs to clean up our minds and hearts. And reject evil.
Just saying!
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness, may God bless and save.

I received a phone call earlier with the news that Mr. Jack Bounden had passed away. Mr. Jack as I called him was a resident at Golden Years. Nursing Home. And I've said this before, but it's worth repeating. When one has been in the company of people for many years, one starts to feel like family. And that's kind of how Willard and I both feel about Mr. Jack. We will sorely miss him when we go back to Golden Years to give the Sunday school lesson and to sing. Mr. Jack would often ask me to sing," Why Me Lord". And every time I would get to the park where it goes" Lord help me Jesus, I've wasted it so, help me Jesus I know what I am. And now that I know that I've needed You so, help me Jesus my souls in your hand". Mr. Jack would start squalling, Tears would run from his eyes, and he would have the look at anguish on his face. Well one day I decided to ask him what was it about the song that touched him. He told me that in his life, there were so many wasted years before he was saved. So many opportunities that he had missed. And I really did understand exactly what he was talking about. I have so many years that I also wasted doing things my way. And just maybe if I had of had Jesus in my life in my early years maybe just maybe I may have finished school and have really done something really special with my life. You see I have an eighth grade education, and I guess some of you may have noticed that in my blog and other writings I most likely put punctuations wrong and in the wrong place. And if I didn’t have my little friend the Dragon to spell correctly for me as I speak, poor Willard has to come up with the proper spelling for words for me, I’d be in a bit of trouble. When I was raising my children every once in a while they'd complain about something, and I would say to them,” well isn't that just T.U.F.F.’’? spelling the word very clear and slowly. I said and spelled the word the way I had always heard it from my grandmother. Isn't that T.U.F.F? Lol. I had no idea that tough was spelled tough. In fact if it were not for my ignorance, my son Michael would not have had the argument with the teacher about his spelling test where he misspelled the word. It seems that he believed me more than the teacher. In fact he told the teacher she was wrong that his mommie knew how to spell it right. Lol embarrassment!


But anyway back to Mr. Jack. He will be sorely missed, he was like family to Willard and me. And you know, Mr. Jack had it right. Anything we do before we have Jesus in our lives are just wasted years. It's years that we look back on with regret that they were wasted and empty of anything that really mattered. Wasted years that we can never get back.

Please say a prayer with Willard and me for Mr. Jack's family. That God may bring them comfort in their time of sorrow.

Ps 23:4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

The Lord is indeed Jack’s comfort. And I just give thanks that Mr. Jack did know the Lord. I can say with confidence that Jack really loved the Lord with all his heart.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, may God bless and God save.

Yesterday while getting my chemo, I heard a nurse talking to another nurse, about a patient. This patient was evidently in grave condition. The words that the nurse spoke just stuck to me like glue. I still cannot shake those words off. The words were, and I quote" it's the quality of life, and not the quantity". And you know I've heard many people say that, and in time I also have spoken the same words. But they truly don't know what they're talking about, and until one gets in the position of life versus death, or knows how a person really feels about life or death, they have no right to offer any opinion. And remember now, I have said those words too, but not any more, I promise!


Now I can tell you this, and this is just my opinion. But there's quality in life until you take the last breath. Seeing the smiles of the people you love and cherish, this is quality. Knowing that you have touched someone, in some way, this is quality. If I do nothing but crocheted something for someone, hoping that they will enjoy the object I crocheted for them, then that is quality. Right now, I'm in the process of quilting quilts. The belief that someday, someone, will obtain these quilts and gain some joy from them, is quality.

A person with cancer, or any other kind of debilitating or life-threatening disease can do one of two things. They can either sit around and feel sorry for themselves and wait until the Grim Reaper arrives. Or they can make the most of every minute that they are blessed to have life. I choose life.

I'm the kind of person that cannot just sit and watch TV. I've got to be doing something else. Whether it's on the Internet, quilting, crocheting or whatever I can find to do. Oh I forgot I've also started to paint again, but unfortunately I have found that I have lost my touch, and I have found that I’m not nearly as good as I used to be. But that's not saying I'm going to quit trying, cause anyone that knows me, knows I truly never give up.

And I would like to say this, I am not boasting when I speak about the things I do. Because all things that I do, I am led to do by the Holy Spirit of God. None of us do good, in my opinion without being led to do so by our most Holy God.

And so I leave this verse with you as a reminder that the Holy Spirit all the most Holy God walks along beside us each and every day, helping us through the bad times, and staying with us through all other times.

Philippians 1:6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:.

And please remember this. Until you’ve walked in others shoe don’t give the opinion that death would be better for them. God knows what’s in a person’s heart and mind, and He and only He knows when death is in the right time. Praise be to God.

Until next time, Willard and I both wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.

PS> to all the girls at Thomas Drug store….Willard sends his deepest gratitude and love to you all. He and I truly adore you all. You all are bound to be the greatest pharmaceutical staff in the world. Your love and your outstanding care for all your customers make you the number one in our opinion. We love you all.

My prayer for today.
Heavenly Father I ask for Your will be done in my life. Although Lord, You and I have different opinions as how my heath should be. I hate this cancer that has invaded my body. The chemo kills it in one place, and then it comes back in another. But that's how the devil operates. Oh satan never gives up. But I have a surprise for him. You see, I don't give up either. And! with Your help Lord whether in this life or the next. I will defeat him! Lord I thank You for Willard, who has stood by me though thick and thin. It's precious how when he goes off , he keeps calling to make sure I'm ok. But You already knew he would, Didn't You Lord? Somehow You led us together.
I thank you for Bobby and Kim who have stepped up and really showed just how much they love me and care for me.
Lord, I pray for salvation for my family and friends. Lord there are some in my family that laugh and joke when You are mentioned. They call me and others that serve You "" over religious "". They don't understand that ""religion"" has nothing to do with being a follower of Christ. It's true that the non Christian and the Christian are the same to a carnal world. ""Their world'' that we Christians have to live in. Lord I don't want to be apart of that world. A world that is so very defiled with sin of all sorts. Lord Your word tells us that these very days would come, and so they have. Every filthy thing that can be imaged is being done. I often feel like the odd one out. Sometimes I feel like a little lost lamb, surrounded by wolves. Lord Jesus I can only imagine how You must have felt as You were spit on, beaten, mocked, denied, betrayed and murdered, for us all, as You hung on the Cross of Calvary. You took upon Yourself the sins of the world. Lord it seems that fewer and fewer care. Lord God show me what I can do, to bring some of the loss ones to You. Before it's too late. Lord my heart breaks knowing that hell and damnation awaits some of them.
I pray this and all things in the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and my Redeemer. Amen.
Until next time God bless and God save.

I'm here at Chapel Hill as I write this. I'm drinking that contrast,ugh. And I'm wondering what the cat scar will show. I have an appointment with Dr. Gehrig at 2:30 this afternoon. She will gve me the results of the cat scan then. I'm really hoping that the scan shows no new cancer growth' but I will except whatever God has allowed. The tablet that I have been taking keeps me broke out with a rash that iches constantly. Plus I have been having some pretty bad cramps in the abdomenal area. So I'm almost sure the cancer has returned. But for some reason I still have that faith within me that saids all things are possible with God. You know, God has a purpose for all that He allowes. Have you ever given thought to the fact that if not for God, what this world would be? God keeps many, many things from happening. He holds back many storms. He allows ths earth to spin at just the right speed so as to stay in orbit. There's so very much that is in God's control, things that we are unaware of. He is a great, great God. But He does allow some things to happen. Some of which we don't understand. But God has His reasons. God kn ows what He's doing and why. We just need to trust him.                 Until next time

I was watching The View this morning while they were talking about Snoop Dogg. It seems from what I heard, that Snoop Dogg has an afternoon program for young boys ages 8-10. And that Snoop Dogg has told these boys that if any of them wanted to take drugs, that they should come to him and he would teach them how to do it safely. Of course Elizabeth and Sherry were outraged by the notion. But Joy seemed to be in agreement with Snoop Dogg. She said that the kids, who were going to do drugs anyway, did need someone to teach them how. I was so proud of Sherry when she say to Joy ‘ Any one trying to show her children anything about drugs, that she would be on their porch real fast”. I’ve never liked Joy, she’s about as far left as one can get. She’s one of those people who think anything goes. And the sadness about it is that there are way too many of those people in this world. Those, who have little or no morals. Those, who want to be able to do what they want with no consequences or no feelings of sinfulness. A no guilt world where anything is accepted. Where millions of unborn babies are killed each year. Where drugs are lawful. Where people who rape little children are slapped on the wrist and let go to do it again.
The real reason! In 2008 there were 76% Christians in the USA. Now!, there are only 51% of the population professing to be Christians. And!, its getting smaller each day. People are turning their backs on God. The younger generation laughs at and ridicules anyone even speaking about Christ or Christianity. People are turning their backs on a Righteous God, because they don’t want to be restrained by His teachings.
 Isaiah 53:6 …..All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned—every one—to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
Revelation 3:20 ……..Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.
Will you answer that knock and open your heart to Jesus.

Until next time Willard and I both wish you heath and happiness, God bless
and God save.
PS, to Jerry....  typed this with my own little fingers.