Okay, so today I feel like complaining. You know how you get sometimes when it seems like one thing after another just keeps your world shook up? Well, I've been there for a while now. I guess it started week before last, on Thursday. If you'll remember, my last cyber knife treatment was Tuesday of that week. Well Thursday, I started bleeding. I called UNC to ask them was that normal. I waited for the call, but none came. So I call back the following Monday and left word for the doctor to give me a call. The doctor called me and told me that no, that was not expected, but if it got real heavy to go to the emergency room. He didn't seem to be particularly worried. So here I am wondering if I still have cancer, and is that the cause of my bleeding, or is it still the radiation working. So of course that's on my mind a lot.
And then, there is the fact, that I still cannot get up and do anything without completely giving out of breath. I want to be able to stand up at the kitchen sink and washed dishes without feeling as if I'm going to pass out. I want to go in my sewing room and do something, but between giving out of breath, and giving out of energy, every time I think about it, I just change my mind and go sit down in my chair.
There's a lot of little things that seem to be just pushing at me. Some of which is out of my control. I worry about my sons. Now you know a mother never stops worrying about her children. I worry about my sister-in-law Janice, and I'd like to do something to help her out. But that would be like one crutch leaning on the other crutch. Mostly all I can do for her is pray. There are so many of my friends that have health problems. It just breaks my heart to see these people fight to stay alive will fight to overcome a serious surgical procedure. Judy Jackson, having open heart surgery. I can't even imagine the pain that she must be in. And there's really nothing I can do but as I said before, pray for her. I just heard yesterday that a friend of mine's sister has colon cancer. So if you will, you may not know them, but God does, so please keep these people in your prayers.
Then something happened day before yesterday that is personal family business that really has me upset. I can't tell what it was, but I ask you to pray for that situation. God knows what you'll be talking about. All I have to say to this person is, fool me once shame on you. I cannot even describe how low down I believe what you did is. I will not be falling in that same hole again, for now on I will watch my step. And I do say, shame on you, shame on you. I will find it in my heart to forgive you. This is why.
Mt 6:14
For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
Mt 6:15
But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
And then, there is the fact, that I still cannot get up and do anything without completely giving out of breath. I want to be able to stand up at the kitchen sink and washed dishes without feeling as if I'm going to pass out. I want to go in my sewing room and do something, but between giving out of breath, and giving out of energy, every time I think about it, I just change my mind and go sit down in my chair.
There's a lot of little things that seem to be just pushing at me. Some of which is out of my control. I worry about my sons. Now you know a mother never stops worrying about her children. I worry about my sister-in-law Janice, and I'd like to do something to help her out. But that would be like one crutch leaning on the other crutch. Mostly all I can do for her is pray. There are so many of my friends that have health problems. It just breaks my heart to see these people fight to stay alive will fight to overcome a serious surgical procedure. Judy Jackson, having open heart surgery. I can't even imagine the pain that she must be in. And there's really nothing I can do but as I said before, pray for her. I just heard yesterday that a friend of mine's sister has colon cancer. So if you will, you may not know them, but God does, so please keep these people in your prayers.
Then something happened day before yesterday that is personal family business that really has me upset. I can't tell what it was, but I ask you to pray for that situation. God knows what you'll be talking about. All I have to say to this person is, fool me once shame on you. I cannot even describe how low down I believe what you did is. I will not be falling in that same hole again, for now on I will watch my step. And I do say, shame on you, shame on you. I will find it in my heart to forgive you. This is why.
Mt 6:14
For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
Mt 6:15
But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Sometimes forgiveness is the hardest thing to do, but we must all strive to do just that.
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.
Until next time, Willard and I wish you health and happiness, God bless and God save.
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